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Chapter 52 Maybe I'm Right
Sister Tuanzi's words made Gao Shiyuan feel inexplicably sad, the request is not high, why is it so difficult to achieve it?The reason is that I chose the wrong partner!He replied: "Marriage is a matter between two people. You meet the wrong person and enter the wrong marriage. If you meet the right person, it will come true."

Sister Tuanzi replied: "Where can I find such a suitable person?"

Without thinking about it, Gao Shiyuan replied, "Maybe I'm suitable." After posting, he was very happy, but he didn't withdraw it because he wanted to know how Sister Tuanzi would reply.

After a while, sister Tuanzi sent a reply: "Maybe. But you fell in love with someone you shouldn't love, and I have a husband and a son. It's impossible for the two of us." This answer was obviously her thinking. Posted after.

"I understand, that's all I said. How long have you been married?"

"Almost ten years."

"Has your relationship always been like this?"

"It wasn't always like this. It was probably more than two years ago that we had more and more conflicts, and since then, I started to suffer from severe insomnia."

"It was more than two years ago that you were married for more than seven years, maybe it was the seven-year itch. Most couples will have problems at this time. Before the two people still had feelings for each other, after that, if there is no common interest, The relationship will become less and less, and finally the husband and wife will only dislike each other."

"There may be reasons for this, but it's not all about the seven-year itch. If it's just that the relationship has faded, I like reading and he doesn't, and I won't have such severe insomnia and life so painful."

"Is there another reason? Is there another woman outside him?"

"No, if he has other women outside, we can divorce happily, and it won't be as painful as it is now. Sometimes I even hope that he has women outside, and then go home and propose a divorce."

"What's the reason for that?"

"It's hard to say why."

"Can't you tell me?"

"Let's talk to you, otherwise I'll feel uncomfortable too. He often goes out to socialize and drink, and every time he comes back after drinking, he will hit me if he is unhappy. He will also hit me when the quarrel is serious."

"Then why didn't you call the police?"

"He didn't slap his face and hands where he could see it, but he slapped a very private part of his body. If I call the police, I can't speak up, and I can't let the police see the injured part."

"Was the child present when he hit you?"

"No, every time he hits me in the bedroom, no one else knows. I don't dare to tell my parents about these things. They always think that my marriage is very happy. I don't want them to worry about me."

"Does no one know your real marital status?"

"You are the first person to know. My parents, relatives, classmates, friends, colleagues, they all think that my marriage is very happy. He often buys me gifts and always gives them to me in front of others .Others envy me for finding a husband who loves me and loves me. No one knows what I have suffered.”

"It was so irritating that I almost dropped my phone on the ground."

"It's not worth breaking your phone for me. (a smirk)"

"There is no way for you to go on like this. You have to find a way to solve it. Haven't you thought about getting a divorce?"

"I thought about divorce, but if I divorce, the child's original family will be gone. He is only eight years old, and he will live in a single-parent family. This is a big blow to him. And if I propose a divorce, according to My husband's character, he will definitely try his best to snatch the custody of the child. If the court gives him the custody, I will not be able to live. If the custody is given to me, he will come to my house to make trouble. The child will What do you think of his father and mother!"

"But if you don't get a divorce, you will have to suffer all the time. It's so unfair to you."

"There is nothing fair or unfair. Everyone has to suffer when they come into this world. If we regard these sufferings as a kind of practice, we will not complain, because that is life."

"But I'm still worried about your current situation, especially your body. Your insomnia is so serious, doesn't your husband care?"

"He doesn't care. I told him I was insomnia, and he said: We live in such a big house and sleep in such a big bed, why do you have insomnia? Why don't I have insomnia? I think you just read too much, too much." You can't sleep because of hypocrisy."

"It's the first time I've heard that reading can make you sleepless."

"He can't understand why I have insomnia. He thinks he let me live the life of a rich man. I have everything I want, so I should sleep well. Sleeping on the same bed with him, listening to his snoring, Sometimes I feel very scared, afraid that he will suddenly get up and hit me."

"Your family lives in a big house, why can't you sleep separately?"

"I mentioned it to him, saying that my insomnia was too severe, and it would be better to sleep separately. He said he didn't understand why I couldn't fall asleep when I slept with him, so I firmly disagreed to sleep separately."

"Does he know anything about men and women?"

"Well, and sometimes too much. If he doesn't meet his demands, he will hit me."

"You are such an intellectual and virtuous wife, he treats you like this, what a scum! You really are people living in two worlds, you are extraordinary and refined, while he is lying in the quagmire of vulgarity. live in peace."

"Well. If it's just a difference in thought and no common language, I can still bear it. Later, adding physical injuries made it unbearable for me, and I began to suffer from insomnia all night."

"You live too tired and too hard."

"It's the same for you. Life is too hard. I fell in love with someone who shouldn't be loved. I can't let go of my love. I have nowhere to talk about my pain."

"Yes, we two painful and helpless people can just talk to each other. It's my luck to meet you."

"Me too. Let's stop talking about these unhappy things and talk about something else."

"Ah."

"You like to read too, don't you?"

"Yes, I like reading, literature, history, philosophy, sociology, etc., I like to read."

"Your reading range is really wide."

"It's okay, mainly because I read a lot of books when I was in college, and I read less after I graduated and started working."

"No matter when, you should read more books."

"Yes, you should read more. You must have read a lot, right?"

"Well, I have read a lot in the past two years. I have very little free time during the day, and I mainly read at night. Every night after he falls asleep, I get up and read when I can't fall asleep. Books can calm my mood. Until the early hours of the morning When I was very tired, I went to bed."

"Hearing you say that, I really don't know whether to be happy for you or sad. Reading is originally a joyful thing, but it has become a refuge for your soul in the middle of the night."

"Don't be sad for me, really, these sleepless days have made me read a lot of good books and given me a lot of life wisdom."

"What book have you been reading recently?"

"The most recent reading is Buddhist books."

"Is it reading Buddhist scriptures?"

"Not Buddhist scriptures, but books written by eminent monks. Do you read Buddhist books?"

"I read very few books of this kind, but I still like religious books very much. And I also like to make friends with people in the religious world. The pastor of Weicheng Church is my good friend. Now that Buddhism is declining, the real There are very few monks, so there is no chance to get to know each other.”

"Let me recommend two books to you."

"Okay, which two?"

"One is "You Can, Love" by Thich Nhat Hanh, and the other is "The Blossoms of Ceremony" by Khenpo Shiarongbo. Have you read these two books?"

"I haven't read it. I know almost nothing about contemporary Buddhist books."

"Then read it carefully when you have time, it contains a lot of wisdom for life."

"it is good."

"Talk and forget the time, you go to bed after ten o'clock every day, right?"

"Correct."

"It's almost twelve o'clock now, go to sleep."

"It's so late, you should sleep too."

"I'm not sleepy yet."

"Not sleepy, I also hope you can lie on the bed. You are really tired. If you still want to chat, I will continue to chat with you."

"Go to sleep obediently, and I will also lie on the bed."

"That's good. Good night."

"Good night."

Gao Shiyuan opened the WeChat public account of Weicheng Library, and searched for the two books "You Can, Love" and "The Second Blossom", but couldn't find them.The collection of books in the library of Weicheng Modern Vocational College is not as good as that of Weicheng Library, and nine out of ten it will not collect books.

Both Gao Shiyuan and Yan Chaoran are book lovers, and they often buy books. Most of the books they bought when they were in college were new.After work, most of the books I bought were second-hand.The library did not have those two books, so Gao Shiyuan opened the Confucius Second-hand Books website and placed an order on it.

　Ask for collection and recommendation

　　


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