After stealing the divorce book, Princess Salted Fish fell off her horse

Of course I can't bear it!

Grandma said again: "Nowadays, the outside world is extremely unfavorable to you. Everyone says that Tanhualang's love is as deep as the sea, but you don't know what to do! Apart from Tanhualang, there is no other possibility for your marriage! Tanhualang looks very good , and so gentle and considerate, in this world, priceless treasures are easy to come by, but lovers are rare, why are you still hesitating?"

I don't know what I'm hesitating about.

I just think that likes and dislikes should not be like this.

It should be the boundless scenery with high autumn clouds and light clouds!
It should be a glimpse of ten thousand years among thousands of people!
It should be an unforgettable tossing and turning!

It should be the uneasy sweetness that is both happy and worrying...

Just like that day, in the cool autumn, in the fallen leaf pavilion, the relaxed figure in the green shirt.

He is holding a volume of books, with slender fingers and well-defined joints. He smiles lightly at the setting sun, peaceful and distant.He speaks eloquently, like the sound of pearls and jade. Between the words and sentences, he talks about the way to establish a heart for the world and a life for the people.

And those who listen to the lectures in the pavilion are not the students led by Eguanbo, but the passing traffickers, fishermen, woodcutters, farming and studying.

He said, there is no discrimination in teaching, everyone in the world, regardless of high or low, regardless of gender, regardless of background, as long as they learn, everyone can learn!

He teaches in the pavilion every day, and his voice is clear and moist, like the most sonorous and beautiful voice in the world.

Fallen leaves roadside road, sunset mountain outside the mountain!
His face was pale, his body was thin, and his sickly body seemed unable to hold up the blood.

He has no official position, just a commoner, but there are so many honorable sons in the capital, who has his thick thoughts and interesting soul?

Talking about poetry and papers, talking about the past and the present, our views, ideas, comprehension, and understanding are highly similar.

Looking at the clear smile between his brows and eyes, for a moment, my heart was touched.

I originally thought that when my acquaintance with him expires in January, I will tell him my real identity, and that I am happy with him!

But I didn't wait until this day!
One day after autumn, in the Fallen Leaves Pavilion, his figure did not appear as usual.

Many people who came to listen to the lecture looked at the emptiness where he had stood, and their hearts were also empty.

I thought of his weak body and coughing from time to time, and felt uneasy. When I went to his home, I saw only the house full of plains, white flags and white curtains.

He has passed away.

His posthumous affairs are handled by his students.

The student said: The teacher fell into the cold water in the north in the early years and was plagued by diseases. Over the years, his health has been poor, and he has not lived for two years.He went from the north to the capital, each place for a month, walked and taught all the way, and taught students all the way, but he also ran out of fuel and finally couldn't hold on.However, his wish was just like this, and he walked away peacefully!
That upright figure in Tsing Yi, that elegant man with great love in his heart but eventually tired by a sickly body, quietly went to another world.

My heart is empty!
Since that moment, in fact, my heart has died.

But once I looked at the sea from a close distance, I didn’t want to look down at the shallow ditch!
If you were born on Wushan Mountain, you would never have the leisure to turn to Baiyun!
But what my grandmother said, I have to take it to heart.

When Tanhualang did this, outsiders said he was affectionate, and this affection threatened me, making me at a loss what to do.

Tanhualang came to propose marriage again!
That day my father and elder brother were on duty, and my grandmother stepped forward and agreed to him!
When my father came back, he disobeyed my grandmother for the first time, and my grandmother was so angry that she wanted to sue my father for being unfilial. Seeing that it was out of control, I said, "Father, I am willing!"

Since I don't have anyone I have to marry, and I have to marry someone, is it the same who I marry?
As a father, it is impossible to push back the promised marriage, so why make it difficult for him?

After the marriage was settled, Tanhualang came to the mansion to work more frequently. He wanted to befriend him and catered to him. In addition to his original talent, my father thought I was really happy, so he gradually got close to him.But my elder brother said that he talked sweetly, but I don't know if he was sincere!
Many times I am confused, why do people grow up?
Before the age of 12, I had the freest heart in the world, but now I have a responsibility on my shoulders, knowing that I cannot be willful.

There is always a price to pay for growing up. I can't help my father and brother, but I can't be their burden.

Tan Hua Lang may not be the best, or even the right one, nor will he be the one I like.

The marriage has been decided, since he has the heart, I will show my sincerity.Whether he is good or not, suitable or not!

The emperor's question shocked me and scared me even more.His strength and majesty made me instinctively resist!
He is no longer that silly guy by the stream, no longer showing a sunny smile, smiling and saying to me, you are too young to understand anything!

He will no longer show an equal and comfortable smile under the lush trees in the courtyard in the afternoon.

He is the king, and the king is as mighty as a tiger!

I told the emperor that Tanhualang and I are happy with each other!
If I had to choose between the emperor and Tan Hua Lang, I could only choose Tan Hua Lang!

I don't want to go into a deeper, darker and darker prison!
I've even made a plan that if the emperor wants me to enter the palace regardless of my wishes, then I will die of illness!

Then I was quite nervous.

My father and elder brother were also very worried. We were like wild geese before a storm, wandering around, not knowing whether it was disaster or rain.

But after the palace banquet, the emperor never mentioned it again.While I was relieved, it was time for my wedding with Tan Hua Lang.

The marriage was very decent, and my father used half of the savings of the mighty Marquis Mansion over the years as my dowry. He was afraid that I would not live well. Man, with this dowry, you can make me eat and drink without any worries!
My brother said that the dowry should still be filed with the government.

Father laughed, how can there be such thing as dowry filing in the world?Speaking out will inevitably hurt the peace of the two families.

The elder brother said: "Let's do it quietly. There are so many shameless people in this world. My sister is soft-tempered. If she is bullied, I can take her home!"

When you get married, you become a family.

The Marquis of Weiwu still has some connections. His father is very generous. He asks for money and people to give.

During the palace banquet, if I could not participate, I would not participate, because I don’t know when, I always feel that even if I sit in the corner, I can still feel the attention of those majestic eyes from time to time.

In this regard, Brother Sha should be considered a good person, at least, he never forced me into the palace.

Or, the silly brother just remembered my friendship for saving his life, and wanted to let me enter the palace and give me an honor, so he didn't have any obsessions. If I refused, he let go.

That's great!

Tan Hualang took the initiative to apply for a foreign transfer. After two years in the foreign office, he was promoted to the third rank after returning. The speed of this promotion was also second to none in the Manchu Dynasty.

People say, I'm lucky.

A prostitute of the mighty Marquis of Wu, a daughter of a sixth-rank official, married a promising husband, and now she is the wife of a third-rank official.

My father was also very relieved. He said that he didn't see the wrong person at the beginning, as long as I live well, it will be fine!
When everyone envies me, only I know that's not the case.

In fact, he never married me because of love.

Just like I married him, not because of love!
But even if I don't love, I have fulfilled my responsibility and abide by my duty as a wife!

He keeps the outer room.

He is proud of his officialdom, the mighty Marquis Mansion was his help earlier, but now, it is completely useless.

Therefore, when my body is getting worse and worse, I should have caught the way of people.

I didn't tell my father and brother that the current Tanhualang is not the same as Tanhualang when he first entered the capital and was parading around on horses. He is already a high-ranking and powerful father and elder brother with a sixth-rank idle job. official.

In this world, the ones I worry about are my father and brother and my daughter Qingyu.

However, his father was taken care of by his elder brother. After all, Qingyu was Tanhualang's own child, and a tiger would not eat its own child, so he wouldn't be able to lay hands on her, would he?
The queen suddenly called me into the palace.

I was very surprised, supported my sick body, and went to the palace.

What I saw was not the queen, but the emperor who was aloof.

He was wearing a bright yellow dragon robe, and looked down at me: "You didn't enter the palace that day, do you regret it now?"

I wonder: "Why do I regret it?"

He sneered: "Your good husband, he doesn't really love you. He has a concubine and has a daughter who is about the same age as your daughter. He uses your contacts and money from the mighty Marquis Mansion to get promoted and make a fortune, but he is always in love with you." I lied to you! Is this what you want for a lifetime? Is this what you want to be one-hearted and never leave each other?"

He knows everything about me?
That's right, he is the king of a country, and there are countless spies under him. It's not surprising that he knows the family affairs of those courtiers.

I am speechless.

What I want is a couple for a lifetime, but I know, where in this world is love as deep as the sea?Where did the unswerving determination come from?
There may be, but its rarity is as rare as morning stars.

Or, when I was young, I had made vows to each other, had sincerity, and wished that the world would be better than the beauty in my arms.But it is also no match for the passage of time, no match for the erosion of time, not to mention, there is no sincerity at all!
After burying my most sincere sincerity in that deciduous pavilion, I have no such obsession!
"Pei Yi, do you know that you are deceiving the emperor?"

I lowered my head and lowered my eyes: "My wife is guilty!"

I said, he likes me, and I like him too!
This is a lie, to deceive the king, to deceive oneself!

The word "official woman" made him very angry, his face was dark, and it took him a long time to calm down, and he said expressionlessly: "If you want, I will help you reconcile, and I will find the best doctor in the world for you, Heal your illness! I will give you the greatest honor in this world, and let you be as free as before!"

I laughed: "I don't want to!"

My body I know, time is numbered.

Besides, if I am willing, what is the difference between going from the backyard of Mu Mansion to the palace?
free?How can it be?

Will he let me go back to the mountains?He will let me leave the capital?
Left and right are nothing but going from one cage to another!
The true love in the world cannot be obtained, when will the heart of heaven and earth rest?There is no way for the fragrant grass to return at dusk, and there is sound in the floating world and clear dreams!
He smiled, and he looked at me with madness, coldness, and even resentment in his eyes: "What are you talking about? You don't want to?"

I nod!
He sneered: "You don't want to accept my love, so you would rather be tortured to death by him? Do you know that he poisoned you?"

I said lightly: "That is my life!"

He was so angry that the veins on the back of his hand swelled up, looking at me, his eyes gradually turned cold, and he said vindictively: "You would rather die by his hands than enter the palace?"

"Yes, I have been the Mu family's wife in this life, and I will never have two surnames from now on!"

"Very well, I know! If you die, I will not avenge you! I will let him live a good life, and I will make him an extremely human minister. If your soul stays alive when the time comes, you will be very happy." Let's go!"

I knelt down: "Thank you, Your Majesty!"

If I die, if he avenges me, what will happen to my Qing Yu?So, it’s good not to take revenge!At least, my Qing Yu still has a father!
Besides, he is the king, and I am just a courtier's wife, so why should the king of his country come to avenge me?

He was very angry and walked away.

I was already very weak and almost fainted when I left the palace.

After returning home, I held Qingyu's soft and small body in my arms, and finally couldn't hold back the tears.

Qing Yu still doesn't remember much now, if she lost her mother, would she really be able to survive?
If that person had a newcomer, would he treat Qing Yu kindly?

I want to make some arrangements for Qing Yu!
However, without waiting for me to do anything, I became poisoned that night.

I let the nanny carry Qingyu away, and lay on the bed by myself, enduring the colic in my internal organs.I had someone call that person.

After a long time, he came.

It's not the bright and sunny appearance of Tanhualang a few years ago.

The official prestige melted into his bones, and when he looked at me, he no longer pretended to be tender.The current Mighty Marquis Mansion is no longer useful to him.

I am the same as him now!
I smiled lightly: "You have been married for several years, and you hate me so much? If I don't die, will you feel uneasy?"

His eyes were cold: "Pei Yi, we have been married for several years and you have never loved me, so why should I show mercy to you?"

My eyes wandered, and I was so weak that I seemed to be blowing away with the wind, but I stubbornly looked into his eyes: "Whether I have loved you or not, after marrying you, I have never felt sorry for you in the slightest! I have done what a wife should do. If you are dissatisfied, divorce or divorce your wife, I will not bother you, you are so cruel!"

He smiled, staring contemptuously, with cold eyes: "Back then, Tanhualang was in love with the daughter of the mighty Marquis of Wu's mansion. His affection was deep and deep, and it became a good story. How could I ruin my reputation because of you?"

Yes, if you divorce or divorce your wife, you will tell everyone that the so-called infatuation back then was just a joke.

He wants an official position and a reputation, so he can't divorce his wife, he can only be widowed!
I laughed too, feeling sorry for myself and laughing at myself.

"If you poison your wife to death, won't your reputation be bad?"

"Don't worry, even the best master in the world won't be able to detect poisoning!"

Colorless and odorless, there is nothing else but getting weaker and weaker. People who are poisoned do not know that they have been poisoned, so even if they die, they will be silent!
I was not a good mother, and I failed to discover his viciousness early. The chronic poison gradually penetrated into my heart. When I was shocked, it was too late.

Looking at the cold eyes of the person in front of me, my thoughts gradually drifted away.

There are many unfulfilled things and many unfulfilled wishes in the world, but they are far away from me!

Is this the feeling that people are about to die?
Before that, when the upright figure in the green shirt knew that his time was numbered, he still used his sick body to teach all the way, came to the capital, his wish was fulfilled, and how did he feel when he left with a smile on his face?

In the afterlife, may you be my sea water, and I will be your Wushan cloud!