Buddhist small green plum

Chapter 340
Li Qingran was 13 years old when she realized that some things were out of her control.

At that time, her mother had just been in a car accident and fell into a pool of blood with her eyes closed, surrounded by people, while she stood there in a daze, terrified by the sudden change.

The first one to rush over was Li Qingmo who followed closely behind them. Li Qingmo knelt down in front of his mother at a loss and did not dare to reach out to touch her.

Blood, fiery red blood spread all over the ground...

Li Qingran never knew that her skinny mother had so much blood in her body.

Li Qingran didn't know when the ambulance came, but only knew that the mother who was lying in a pool of blood was carried into the ambulance, and Li Qingmo was with her.

And the sinister glance that Li Qingmo cast over before leaving made her unable to move even a little bit, until she could no longer see the shadow of the ambulance, she knelt down on the ground and cried silently as if all her strength had been pulled out of her body.

It was just a small conflict. Normally, she might have a little sulking, but she would definitely not run out impulsively like this.

Moreover, she didn't come to her senses until the moment she realized that her mother had been hit. At the moment of recovery, she didn't even know why she was outside.

It was weird, but because of this weird incident, she would never see that gentle and loving mother again.

In the following days, Li Qingran lived in guilt every day. She often woke up from nightmares, and then hugged the quilt and wept, unable to sleep all night.

Even her good academic performance began to plummet along with her carelessness and lack of energy.

The atmosphere in the family was even more rigid. Although he used to love to bully her, he also doted on her twin brother, turning a blind eye to her. If she called him, he would glance over coldly, with no concealment of disgust in his eyes.

Father Li lost his beloved wife and became even more depressed. Although he didn't get angry with his daughter much, he still focused on numbing himself with work, and it was normal not to go home once every three to five months.

Li Qingran didn't know how long such a muddled day lasted.

It's just that in the year of high school, she seemed to suddenly have a goal in life - to follow in Xie Ying'an's footsteps, and she was with Xie Ying'an!
I don't know why this idea came from, even she couldn't understand it, it stands to reason that a person like her who killed her mother can't even forgive herself, she deserves to live in darkness forever, how can she deserve to like others?

She tried her best to control herself, going to school and going home every day, going to the front line and the two places, never causing any trouble, and she didn't even have two friends around her.

The only girl with whom she has a good relationship is Ruan Ruan, who is her deskmate and is also a chatterbox.

Lao Wu, the teacher in charge, always had his reasons for arranging the seats. He said that although Li Qingran's grades were average, but she seldom talked and loved learning, there was a high probability that Ruan Ruan, who had better grades than her, would feel a sense of crisis.

But Lao Wu was completely wrong this time. Not only did Ruan Ruan have no sense of crisis, but every time the report card was sent out and compared with Li Qingran, she always felt an inexplicable sense of pride.

Through Ruan Ruan's expression, Li Qingran can probably guess her inner thoughts——

"Wow! My chemistry score is 35 points higher than Qingran this time? Ahhh, I'm so good."

"Qingran didn't do well in the math test this time, right? Although I didn't perform well, I got a little more points than her."

"Oh my god! Qingran's English is the best in her subjects, and my weakness is more than ten points higher than hers... Am I working too hard recently, or, take a breath and stop and wait for Qingran ?”

"Study is also quite tiring. I have lost a lot of weight recently. Is it because I work too hard?"

……

In fact, it's not that Li Qingran didn't work hard in his studies, but for some reason, he always felt that he couldn't remember some things no matter how hard he learned. Even if he remembered, when the teacher asked questions or answered questions in the exam, he couldn't answer them for various reasons.

Not right.

This was the second time Li Qingran realized something was wrong.

She always feels that she is not herself, as if she is a marionette, and she has to do whatever the invisible master is carrying her...

This feeling made Li Qingran feel very panic, but he didn't know how to get rid of it?

She also felt that she paid too much attention to Xie Ying'an, as long as her classmates said that Xie Ying'an was playing on the playground, the first thought that popped up in her mind was to go and have a look?
The young Xie Ying'an is undoubtedly the most eye-catching one among boys of the same age. He has good-looking facial features and a pair of peach blossom eyes that should be sentimental, but they are paired with too dark pupils. Ruthless means.

The boy's stature has already been raised, and he stands out from his peers.

There were also many girls who came to watch them play, and Li Qingran and Ruan Ruan were not conspicuous in the crowd.

"Tsk tsk!" Ruan Ruan looked at it for a while, then wrapped her arms around Li Qingran's neck and whispered in her ear: "Qingran, no wonder you come to see him every day, brother An looks like that, who doesn't like it? "

Li Qingran was taken aback, and wanted to refute, but the ironclad facts were in front of her eyes. She hurriedly dropped her books and ran from the classroom to the playground, didn't she just come to see Xie Ying'an play?
What is there to refute?
The teenagers in the stadium, probably because of the girls watching, played harder one by one.

No matter how hard they worked, Li Qingran's gaze was always following Xie Ying'an, and it never changed after several scenes.

On this day, Su Chen, who was on Xie Ying'an's team, glanced at the crowd while wiping off his sweat, and suddenly elbowed Xie Ying'an who was standing next to him.

He teased in a voice that only two people could hear: "Hey, Brother An, it seems like your little Qingmei comes to see you play every time?"

At the age of fifteen or sixteen, they have just begun to be enlightened about the relationship between men and women. It is the age of curiosity and exploration. A little bit of ambiguity is worth publicizing in their eyes.

Xie Ying'an was not affected by Su Chen's words in the slightest, and passed the ball to a distant teammate through several teammates.

At the end, he lightly raised his eyes and glanced in the direction where Li Qingran was.

A long distance away, the two looked at each other, the girl was obviously taken aback, and slowly lowered her head as if shy.

Xie Ying'an frowned slightly, and looked away calmly, with a hint of irritability in her heart.

No matter what the girl was thinking, he knew that he only regarded Li Qingran as his younger sister, but many of them were gone.

And here Li Qingran didn't know why he blushed unconsciously after meeting Xie Ying'an's eyes, and even turned his eyes away first?
She covered her hot face and thought sullenly: Probably because Xie Ying'an was too good-looking.

After all, who doesn't like a good-looking teenager?

(End of this chapter)