Buddhist small green plum

Chapter 341

The life in the first year of high school is very ordinary. Except that the study is more intense than that in junior high school, there is almost no change in other things.

At home, Li Qingran is still trembling. Her brother ignores her, and she will try to reduce her sense of existence.

The feeling of guilt will explode in the dark, her pillow is often wet, and her overall state is basically not good.

This state has been maintained until the first half of the semester of high school. After Li Qingran caught a bad cold, even Ruan Ruan, who was as big as a heart, could see that her physical condition was not good.

"Qingran," Ruan Ruan frowned slightly, and asked her, "Are you feeling unwell recently? Your complexion is so bad."

Li Qingran shook her head subconsciously: "No."

As soon as the words fell, there was another rapid cough.

Ruan Ruan frowned even deeper: "It's all like this, why don't you say no?"

Li Qingran coughed until her face was flushed before she stopped. She tried her best to suppress the itchiness in her throat, pursed her lips and smiled at Ruan Ruan: "It's all right."

It's just that the smile doesn't reach the bottom of the eyes, but anyone who has eyes can tell that she is unhappy.

Few people in F Gao knew about Li Qingran's family affairs. Although Ruan Ruan had a good relationship with her, it was only good. Li Qingran would never tell her about such family affairs.

Ruan Ruan asked her again: "Have you bought any medicine?"

Li Qingran was taken aback for a moment, the corners of his lips were pursed even tighter, he lowered his head and stopped talking.

Since her mother passed away, she has had repeated insomnia and nightmares every night for the past few years, and her physical condition has become so bad that she even despises herself.

Moreover, she has never taken medicine for being ill these few times, and every time she can't help but have a thought, if she can bear it, she can live well, if she can't bear it, or the procrastination is serious... Well, maybe she can still go Accompany mother, no longer have to live in guilt.

Because of the fact that her mother was killed by impulsiveness and willfulness, let alone Li Qingmo and her father, even she herself would not forgive herself.

In class that day, Xie Ying'an, who was seated by the back door, rarely walked into the classroom from the front door. When passing by Li Qingran's desk, he paused slightly, and then placed something on Li Qingran's desk.

He didn't say a word the whole time.

Li Qingran didn't know what was wrong with her, it seemed that whenever she saw Xie Ying'an, her eyes would follow him unconsciously, this perception made her very distressed.

After Xie Ying'an walked over, Li Qingran saw that what he put on her desk was a box of medicine for treating colds.

At that moment, Li Qingran only felt that deep in her heart was boring and complicated. Her father didn't know about her repeated illnesses until she came home. Li Qingmo pretended not to see that her home was no longer home... …

The taste of a cold was not good, Li Qingran hesitated a few times while touching the medicine box, but still took the medicine.

It's just that besides the medicine, there seems to be a trace of other feelings along with the warm water.

On weekends, Zhao Yan would often invite Li Qingran to her home to play.

Li Qingran would go there every time. Firstly, the atmosphere between her and Li Qingmo at home was awkward, and secondly, she always felt like a mother in Zhao Yan.

Zhao Yan liked Li Qingran very much, she could see that Qingran was in a sad mood, and would comfort her softly every time, saying that what happened to her mother was an accident and she was not to blame at all.

Tell her not to feel guilty, and say that if her mother is alive in heaven, she will be sad to see her like this.

Li Qingran nodded obediently every time, but only she knew whether she could do it or not.

Mrs. An, who works in Xie's house, often comforts Li Qingran with Zhao Yan when she is not busy.

Sister-in-law An married the wrong person. Although her life was bitter, she was still a good person, and her daughter An Xiaoxiao was also very sensible.

But after going to Xie's house a few times, Li Qingran noticed that An Xiaoxiao seemed to have inexplicable hostility towards her.

This feeling is inexplicable, it seems to come from girls' innate sixth sense.

Li Qingran didn't know what was the reason for An Xiaoxiao's inexplicable hostility towards her?
She doesn't care about being left or right, anyway, she has become a habit of being alone, and she never thought of making friends with An Xiaoxiao.

Until one time when Xie Ying'an came home temporarily, Li Qingran accidentally saw An Xiaoxiao's eyes secretly looking at Xie Ying'an, at that moment she suddenly understood An Xiaoxiao's hostility towards her.

An Xiaoxiao likes Xie Ying'an. Although she hides it very deeply, she is not stupid, so she can tell it naturally.

And An Xiaoxiao's hostility towards her was nothing more than a female rivalry initiated by her unilaterally.

Xie Ying'an may not even know what happened in which dynasty, so she just does this in private?

Tsk, Li Qingran felt bored from the bottom of his heart.

Xie Ying'an, who is good-looking and has excellent grades, is indeed liked by many girls. According to Ruan Ruan, there are many girls who stop him from confessing his love outside the school.

Li Qingran thinks that his inexplicable liking for Xie Yingan's may be because of his excellent grades and happy family.

The more things you don't have, the more you will envy others, and this is the emotion of envy, which is the easiest to change qualitatively.

She was still able to control her heart, and did not show her liking for Xie Ying'an too obviously.

It's just that where Xie Ying'an is, her eyes will follow the past unconsciously, and every time she waits for Xie Ying'an to look over, and she can only recover when their eyes meet.

Not right.

This was the third time Li Qingran felt something was wrong.

She felt that she could no longer control her heart.

One day after school in the second semester of senior high school, Huang Qianyu, the little girl in the class, suddenly confessed her love to Xie Yingan in the classroom.

There were not many people in the classroom at that time, and Li Qingran happened to be there too.

Hearing Huang Qianyu's confession, Li Qingran only expressed surprise at Huang Qianyu's boldness, and had no other feelings.

It may also be because of the factor that Xie Ying'an would never agree to her.

But I don't know what to do, I just feel my heart suddenly shrink, and I am suffocating with pain.

At that time, Xie Ying'an had just been woken up by the bell after school, and was looking at Huang Qianyu with a displeased face.

Facing Huang Qianyu's affectionate confession, the corner of this guy's mouth curled up in a warm arc, his eyelids slightly raised, and he slowly said a word: "Get out!"

Huang Qianyu's complexion changed suddenly, her temper was also spoiled by the family, she could not bear this, and she was about to yell at Xie Ying'an immediately, but fortunately, a group of her little sisters covered her mouth and dragged her away.

After Huang Qianyu left, Li Qingran felt that the pain in his heart had almost disappeared.

She didn't bother to worry about why her heart hurts. In the past few years, she didn't pay attention to her body, and it was a bit of a backlash, which was normal.

She packed up her books, put on her handbag and was about to leave when a familiar voice suddenly came from behind her.

"Little black girl?" The boy's voice was still hoarse after waking up.

Li Qingran stopped walking when she heard the words, her skin was a bit dark, Xie Ying'an and Li Qingmo often called her a little black girl when they were young.

She hasn't called him in these years, she thought he had forgotten...

"Huh?" Li Qingran grabbed the bag of the handbag tightly and didn't look back.

The boy seemed to chuckle lightly, and said again: "Today's matter, keep it a secret."

(End of this chapter)