I'm not a big star

Chapter 397 Schizophrenia... (Third update sent)

When many big stars in the entertainment industry talked about Chu Qing, their tone and eyes were a little bit complicated.

If the entertainment industry is a huge latrine, then Chu Qing is a shit-stirring stick.

There is no doubt that after Chu Qing, the shit-stirring stick, was born in the Huaxia entertainment circle, half of the sky in the entire entertainment circle seemed to never have peace, and the headlines were all about him.

This makes people uncomfortable.

Many celebrities spend every day and every day trying their best to create a wave of presence and headlines, but Chu Qing made it to the headlines without any effort, and what's more, once he made the headlines, he couldn't get off the headlines, occupying the headlines for more than a year in a row Time is the metamorphosis of metamorphosis.

Every day when they wake up and see the headlines, they will be brainwashed by the word Chu Qing.

For a while, Chu Qing’s song was a hit, then Chu Qing’s TV drama was a hit, then a movie was a hit, and a novel was a hit...

This kind of fire and that kind of fire made them all start to feel a little numb.

Even many artists secretly complained that Chu Qing should just change her name.

Called Chu Qing?
No, no, don't call him Chu Qing, just call him "Chu Dahuo" or "Chu Toutiao" or "Chu Brainwashing".

They also put up with the headlines dominated by Chu Qing, after all, they are used to it, but now Chu Qing is frantically attacking the leaderboard again...

After seeing Chu Qing on these lists, all the entertainers who followed the entertainment industry suddenly missed the days when Chu Qing was banned after beating Bai Yulan.

In those few days, there was no Chu Qing in the headlines of the entertainment circle, no news, no Chu Qing in the videos, no Chu Qing on the music charts, and there was no Chu Qing on the major charts.

But the good times didn't last long and the misunderstanding was resolved.

When the ban is officially lifted...

Nima Chuqing seemed to double up all the things that had been pressed down before, as if all of him exploded at once.

headlines?

Chu Qing!

Leaderboard?
Chu Qing.

E-sports channel?

Chu Qing.

variety show?

Chu Qing...

Music, movies, latest news?
It's all fucking Chu Qing!

How does this make other people mess up?
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No matter what others think of Chu Qing, no matter how much they grit their teeth against Chu Qing, Chu Qing will not lose half of his hair.

In a hurry, time passed in a hurry in May, and June ushered in in a blink of an eye.

In the early summer of June, cicadas began to sing on the big tree outside Yinghui Media, and the sound became louder every day.

Summer is getting deeper and the weather is getting cooler.

It didn't take long for Chu Qing's good life, almost like a salted fish, to be broken again.

The production crew of "Buddha" is almost ready, and everything that needs to be prepared is also ready, and the filming will start.

The start time of the crew is scheduled for Wednesday, June 6th. Of course, before that, Chu Qing will go to Yanjing Mental Hospital to stay for a while to observe the behavior of depressed patients, and understand the world outlook and living conditions.

Although Chu Qing thinks her acting skills are not bad, after all, she is acting as a mental patient, so many things are different.

If you want to really play this role well, you must first integrate into this role, which is what a really good actor should do.

"Brother Qing, are you sure you want to stay with these depressed patients for ten days?"

"Well, yes."

"These people are full of negative emotions and have suicidal tendencies. Although they only stay for ten days, but Brother Qing, I'm afraid you will be affected. If you get depressed, you will be in trouble. This thing is not easy to treat. .”

"It's okay, I'll only stay for ten days, which isn't too long, and I have my own measure."

When Chu Qing came to Yanjing Mental Hospital and had a good talk with the relevant staff, Chu Qing formally changed into the psychiatric uniform, and then entered the depression patient ward to stay with several seriously ill patients.

Jiang Xiaoyu was very worried about Chu Qing. Before Chu Qing entered the ward, she even persuaded Chu Qing repeatedly to hope that Chu Qing would give up this practice. At worst, "Buddha" would not be filmed. She felt that Chu Qing didn't need to torture herself like this, but Chu Qing didn't care. .

For movies, Chu Qing maintains a pious attitude from the beginning to the end, other things can be sloppy, but in terms of acting skills and performances, Chu Qing always feels that she can't be sloppy, not only can't be sloppy, but also should be well controlled Everything you can control.

Well, this is a kind of perfectionism that Chu Qing can't even describe...

The ward Chu Qing entered was Ward 305. There were two patients with severe depression living in the ward. One patient was 41 years old named Xu Peng, and the other was about 25 years old named Pei Tu. Although they were in the same ward, The two people are separated by a piece of glass. The glass has a door, which will automatically open at a fixed time. After the automatic opening, the patients can communicate with each other, but most of the time, the two basically work independently.

There are many types of depression patients. One has a violent tendency to hurt others, while the other is always thinking about hurting oneself with negative emotions.

Before Chu Qing entered the ward, the hospital told Chu Qing that the two were normal except for their suicidal tendencies.

The psychiatric ward is different from ordinary wards. There is only one bed, and a few necessary and non-threatening daily necessities. More importantly, the walls are also covered with a thick layer of cotton to prevent these patients from suddenly thinking about suicide by hitting their heads against the wall. There are rows of alarm detectors placed under the bed, as long as there is a slight loud noise, the alarm will suddenly sound.

"Is someone here?" Xu Peng tilted his head and glanced at Chu Qing after seeing Chu Qing enter the door, his eyes revealed a kind of gray.

"Hello." Chu Qing read Xu Peng's profile.

Xu Peng's depression is acquired, probably due to business failure and debts, his wife gave him a cuckold, and the son he raised for more than ten years is not his after a paternity test, and he himself has that kind of depression. Unable to die but unable to be cured and suffering from a very painful disease, the villagers looked down on him all day long, and then a series of blows that ordinary people could not persist...

In short, Xu Peng's information shows that Xu Peng had a miserable life, with poor mental adjustment ability and poor speech, so he has been under pressure.

After all, a person's endurance is limited. As the pressure gradually increased, Xu Peng finally broke out and found an extreme day. Of course, when he was about to succeed in suicide, his parents stopped him in time and sent him to a mental hospital. After being sent to a mental hospital and undergoing a series of treatments, his condition did not improve but deepened a lot. Almost every day, he was immersed in the self-suggestion that the world was very dark and he could not survive...

Recently, it was only by drugs that I suppressed that explosive negative emotion.

"..." Xu Peng stopped reading after glancing at Chu Qing, but continued to stare at the newspaper.

"What are you looking at?" Chu Qing came to Xu Peng and asked.

"..." Xu Peng continued to read the newspaper as if he couldn't hear Chu Qing's words.

"Don't talk to him while he's reading the newspaper, he can't hear you." Another patient named Pei Tu took the initiative to greet Chu Qing with a sincere smile.

"oh oh."

"I've seen you, um, I've seen you on TV, you are Qingzi, why are you here too? Do you also have depression?"

"Well, a little bit." Naturally, Chu Qing would not say that he came here to observe depression, after all, it would be impolite for him to say so, wouldn't he?
"Depression is actually not a big deal. Everyone has a little bit of it, especially for a big star like you. Life is stressful and fast-paced, and it's not smooth sailing. It's normal." If Xu Peng told Chu If Qing's feeling is autistic, then Pei Tu gives Chu Qing a very cheerful and talkative feeling, at least when chatting with Pei Tu, it's hard to believe that Pei Tu is a patient with severe depression.

Pei Tu and Chu Qing talked freely, and didn't feel that depression was terrible. They even talked with Chu Qing about depression, analyzing what depression is, and how to adjust and deal with it. =
The more Chu Qing talked about depression with Pei Tu, the more he felt something was wrong.

Is this person really a severely depressed patient who has attempted suicide more than 30 times as the hospital said?

Chu Qing began to have some doubts. While chatting with Pei Tu, Chu Qing got another important piece of news, that is, Pei Tu is a college student, and he is a college student majoring in psychology...

A person who studies psychology and speaks eloquently and is very cheerful and everything looks normal is a patient with severe depression?
Is this so fake?
Chu Qing felt it was incredible.

Since Pei Tu gave Chu Qing the feeling of a normal person, Chu Qing didn't observe Pei Tu much, but began to observe Xu Peng very seriously. He felt that Xu Peng was in line with his understanding of depression.

Of course, it was only at dinner that Chu Qing realized that everything was not the case...

During the day, Pei Tu looks very normal, exactly the same as ordinary people, and can't even tell what's wrong, but at night, Pei Tu's whole body starts to become strange, and even a little confused.

Weird!
It's like changing a person.

"Qingzi... In fact, let me tell you this, life is meaningless... When you are born, you have nothing, and you don't take anything with you when you leave. What is the meaning of life? Life is meaningless, at least I feel like it doesn't make any sense."

"Qingzi...every day when I close my eyes, all I see is darkness, full of negative emotions, and I can't control my emotions. Sometimes...I know that I have depression, but I can't help it. I don't even believe it. Doctor."

"Hey...Qingzi, maybe there is another world after death? Living in this world is tiring, really tiring!"

"There is no direction, no meaning, people are so hypocritical, they all include masks, they are not real at all, hey..."

"It's not interesting, it's really not interesting at all."

"Let's leave this world together. At least I have a companion on the road. I have an appointment with Lao Xu next to me and we will go on the road together on a certain day."

On the first night, when Pei Tu looked at Chu Qing as if possessed by a ghost and said these inexplicable words, Chu Qing was startled.

Pei Tu's eyes were red, his face was pale, and his pupils were also gray, as if he couldn't see any hope in this world.

Suicidal tendencies, it seems, are serious.

At the same time, Xu Peng also let out a long sigh.

Schizophrenia?

Chu Qing suddenly had such an idea.

(End of this chapter)