I'm not a big star

Chapter 398 He wants to kill me!
When Pei Tu got sick, the doctors would rush in on time to hold Pei Tu down and inject him with a tranquilizer.After the sedative was finished, Pei Tu finally calmed down slowly. This is a way to temporarily solve the onset of depression physiologically.

Xu Peng still stayed on the next bed and looked at Pei Tu, and picked up the newspaper to glance at it from time to time. Although he was silent all the time, there was not much look in his eyes, not much vitality.

He is a very autistic person. Chu Qing only heard Xu Peng speak when he first came, and Xu Peng was basically silent at other times.

Chu Qing followed the attending doctor Jiao Liang and left the ward.

"Pei Tu originally studied psychology, and he was very wary of doctors. Hypnosis and the like didn't help him, but fortunately, the onset was quite regular. Xu Peng seemed a little better, but there was nothing wrong with the onset. The pattern can be found, maybe at night, maybe in broad daylight...it's very abnormal, both of them have serious suicidal tendencies..." Jiao Liang seriously talked about the scenes of some depression patients when Chu Qing had an attack , Chu Qing listened very carefully, and took out the notebook she carried with her from time to time to record it, so that she could better understand the world of depression patients.

"The depression mentioned on Baidu Encyclopedia is actually very one-sided. There are many kinds of patients with severe depression, and the types are different. Our brain is actually a very magical place. If something goes wrong, it will be very bad... It's too bad to imagine. Depressed patients actually have many ways to express themselves. They are just one of them. Of course, they are harmless to others. Some depressed patients are not only full of depression themselves, but also harmful to others make an impact..."

"Depression is a disease that cannot be completely eradicated and can only be temporarily slowed down or suppressed. Once it appears, it will accompany a person for a lifetime. In fact, everyone has depression to some extent. The difference is that people who can regulate their emotions basically There is nothing wrong with it, people with poor emotional regulation will sink deeper and deeper, and gradually become a state of self-denial and self-contempt and cannot extricate themselves.”

"Of course, there are several states..."

Jiao Liang talked about the various symptoms of depression, and at the same time explained the symptoms of depression and other mental diseases.

Chu Qing listened silently and memorized, and immediately felt that he had benefited a lot.

then……

Chu Qing has preliminarily drawn up a set of behaviors for depression patients in her mind, and is going to start experimenting with two people.

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The first day passed like this. On the second day, Chu Qing began to try to simulate the state of depression. When she acted as a depressed patient in front of Su Yurou before, Chu Qing always felt that there was something wrong. , seems to be missing something.When Chu Qing really came into contact with the depression patients, Chu Qing realized that when she played the depression patients before, she had the expression of a depression patient on her face, but her heart was not the heart of a depression patient.

In other words, he wasn't distracted.

Acting skills that are not distracted are not really perfect acting skills, Chu Qing is not satisfied.

"Qingzi, what's wrong with you?"

"What's wrong?"

"Why don't you eat?"

"no appetite."

"no appetite?"

"kindness."

The next day, Chu Qing began to try to act out some symptoms of early depression in front of Xu Peng and Pei Tu, and began to show some details of eating...

"No matter what happens, we still have to eat."

"This meal is not to your appetite, you can eat."

"Not to your liking?"

Pei Tu watched Chu Qing stand up with his body bent slightly, and after only a few mouthfuls of food, Pei Tu's eyes flashed with a strange look.

On the first day of Chu Qing's arrival, he couldn't find any depression or other mental illness in Chu Qing at all. He felt that Chu Qing was a normal person, but on the second day, from some details, Pei Tu felt Chu Qing had something in common with herself and the others.

Although Chu Qing didn't say anything and seemed to be normal all the time, Pei Tu found that Chu Qing was beginning to be a little pessimistic about some things.

For example, she was anorexic, no matter how delicious the food was, Chu Qing would not eat much, and when it was time to eat, Chu Qing would always come out like a snail, and every time she ate, she would barely eat a few mouthfuls, and then sighed slightly.

During the free time after the meal, Chu Qing also started to talk less, and occasionally said something that made Pei Tu feel discouraged. Of course, such words were not about not wanting to live, I want to die, uncomfortable and other straightforward words , but "I'm a little bored." "I don't know what to do."

Xu Peng would also be infected by Chu Qing's words afterwards, and then the two sighed for a while, as sad as Lin Daiyu in the Dream of the Red Chamber, Xu Peng felt that the two seemed to have something in common.

Chu Qing was very satisfied with his performance. He felt that he would continue to work hard tomorrow, and he could deepen the performance a little bit appropriately.

The second day also passed very quietly, and on the third and fourth day, both Xu Peng and Pei Tu felt a strange emotion.

They felt that Chu Qing had changed.

Of course, it's hard to tell whether this change is good or bad.

Chu Qing didn't say anything depressing, but started to say some inexplicable inspirational words, but when he said inspirational words, his eyes always showed a little gray, and it was as obvious as a schizophrenia...

It makes people feel very inexplicable!
It was like seeing a ghost.

"We should live well in this world. In fact, there are many interesting things in this world, such as sunshine, grass... We should live well." During free activities, Chu Qing pulled Pei Tu and Xu Peng to start Say something positive and uplifting.

Although it was this kind of words, the two felt more and more at odds. There seemed to be no desire for life in Chu Qing's eyes, and the whole person seemed to have become a little schizophrenic and extremely contradictory.

Very strange, what's wrong?
"Qingzi, are you okay... Have you read any books these days?"

"It's okay, I'm fine, what's wrong?"

"nothing."

Xu Peng and Pei Tu felt that something was wrong, they sometimes avoided Chu Qing and started whispering.

"Is he a little schizophrenic?"

"A bit."

"I think Qingzi seems to have been brainwashed by something."

"kindness."

On the fourth and fifth days, Pei Tu felt more and more that something was wrong with Chu Qing.

For example, he was still smiling one moment, but immediately became a little anxious the next moment, and he was obviously very disturbed but maintained a very normal appearance...

At night, Chu Qing also started to stay up all night, getting up from time to time, going to the window of the iron bars and staring out of the window, and staying like this for more than ten minutes, after staying for more than ten minutes, Chu Qing went back to Waking up Pei Tu on the bed, he showed a weird smile and started chatting with Pei Tu about the origin of life. Occasionally, he would come to Xu Peng's bed when the glass door was open, and talk to Xu Peng about his philosophy of life...

In short, it does not make people sleep.

Xu Peng and Pei Tu felt more and more that Chu Qing not only suffered from depression, but also suffered from schizophrenia, and the onset time was quite irregular.Pei Tu used to be able to sleep peacefully after taking the sedative, but these days Pei Tu felt more and more unable to sleep.

He thought he was going crazy.

This situation continued until the seventh day.

On the seventh day, Chu Qing found Pei Tu again during free time and activities, showing a naive smile.

"Should we leave this world? I found a good thing. I can guarantee that none of us will live if this thing is stuck in the throat. It's very good, and there shouldn't be any pain." Chu Qing took it out of his pocket mysteriously. A sharp thorn came out, and there was still a positive expression on his face.

These are the spikes of a toothbrush, and this toothbrush was secretly picked up by Chu Qing when she was brushing her teeth, and the front part of the toothbrush was sharpened by Chu Qing.

"When this thing goes in, the throat is definitely going to be punctured, and I reckon there's going to be a lot of blood, and then we'll struggle, and then we'll die slowly in despair, and then we'll be free... oh, I see your temples are pretty Not bad, this thing is stabbed in the temple, and it is guaranteed to die immediately..."

"????"

Pei Tu looked at the serious Chu Qing, and felt a chill in his heart.

In Chu Qing's eyes, Chu Qing's innocent smile is a creepy smile!
Chu Qing's words to describe death are chilling. They are clearly talking about something that will lead to death, but Chu Qing said it in a positive and slow tone.

Pei Tu took several steps back in shock, and then he suddenly realized that he didn't want to die and wanted to live well.

For the first time since coming to a mental hospital for treatment, he wanted to be alive.

At least he didn't want to die like this for some inexplicable reason.

"I think it's useless for us humans to live, but it's still useful to die. After all, people can be used as fertilizer after they rot, and can be used as food for maggots. We still have to waste the food of this society and cause a burden to this society..." Chu Qing looked at Pei Tu, who backed away, smiled even wider, "Come on, trust me, it's fine."

"Qingzi... we... I suddenly feel that it's good to live well, don't be impulsive!"

"Eh? Pretty good? What's so good about it?" Chu Qing scratched her head, her eyes were firm despite her silly smile.

"If you feel worried that you won't die completely, I'll send you on your way first, how about I go on your way after I send you on your way? Now I seriously doubt that the world after death is pretty good, there should be heaven!" Chu Qing Like a brainwashed believer, he instilled some creepy things into Pei Tu, but he still smiled.

"..." Pei Tu looked at Chu Qing shaking with a sharp toothbrush again, swallowed his saliva, and then his face turned pale.

After returning to the ward after free activities, after seeing Chu Qing's innocent smile that seemed to be full of magic, Pei Tu subconsciously pressed the alarm, he couldn't bear Chu Qing.

"what happened?"

Several doctors walked in...

"I can't stay in this place..."

After Pei Tu left the ward, he looked at Jiao Liang with a pale face.

"What's wrong?" Jiao Liang was very surprised. He felt that Pei Tu's condition seemed to have started to change. At least last night, Pei Tu didn't seem to be ill, and his condition seemed to have eased.

"What kind of psychopath did you send over..." Pei Tu's chest heaved continuously, and his eyes were even more complicated.

"What?" Jiao Liang was surprised.

"I... want to change the ward... I really can't stand Chu Qing running to my bed at night and talking about some positive things... You don't know his expression when he said these things, that expression is scary , It’s a severe schizophrenia, although he concealed it very well, but I have studied psychology and I know that this person has violent tendencies, do you know what he told me just now?”

"What?" Jiao Liang was a little strange.

"Damn it, he said he was going to kill me! He was going to take me to see God! Nima!"

Pei Tu felt that he had gone crazy.

(End of this chapter)