I'm not a big star

Chapter 399 This is just a show

Chu Qing enjoyed this feeling very much.

He is a bit obsessed, immersed in his own simulated world, playing the role of a depressed patient...

Of course, he doesn't think he's schizophrenic or mentally ill. He thinks it's just an extreme pursuit of acting skills, and he can control every detail of his expressiveness...

My expressiveness should be normal, right?
However, Pei Tu's reaction made Chu Qing a little disappointed. Chu Qing couldn't see any sense of recognition from Pei Tu. On the contrary, when Chu Qing saw Pei Tu again, Pei Tu looked at her with such a trace of dodge in his eyes. A sense of fear like seeing a ghost.

Yes, fear.

How is this going?

"Pei Tu, I think we need to talk..."

"Brother Qing... I'm sorry, I changed the ward, and I won't live in this ward in the future!"

"Change wards? Where?"

"Well, it's in the intensive care unit next door...not far away..."

"Oh, then I'll change it too..."

"No, Brother Qing, don't change... you, it's good for you to stay here, I... I'm so blessed to be taught by you! Find someone else..."

"???"

Generally speaking, there should be a sense of harmony between the depressed patient and the depressed patient. After all, everyone is depressed and it is easy to find a sense of belonging, isn't it?But when Chu Qing looked at Pei Tu's appearance, he didn't have any sense of recognition. Not only did he not have any sense of recognition, but Pei Tu had an expression of wanting to stay away, as if he was the most terrifying demon.

This is a bit strange...

The sense of identity I imagined didn't exist at all...

Did I fail in my performance, or did I not really grasp the core of the depressed patient?Isn't the core of depression patients disappointed with life, and then feeling hopeless that they can't do anything?
After Pei Tu left, Chu Qing fell into deep thought, thinking about what went wrong with him during this period of time. It stands to reason that his relationship with Pei Tu should be getting better and better, so there should be more topics to talk about.

Why did Pei Tu feel a sense of respect and distance?
Chu Qing silently raised his head and stared at the center of the ceiling after thinking for a long time, his eyes were a little deep...

what happened?
What is the problem?

and many more!

Could it be that my understanding of depression patients is somewhat biased, and the aura and expressiveness of real depression are not like this?
After thinking of this reason, Chu Qing frowned and left the ward to find Jiao Liang.

"Qingzi, what did you do to Pei Tu?"

When Jiao Liang saw Chu Qing entered the office, his eyes were a little strange. Before Chu Qing could ask, Jiao Liang stood up and asked first.

"Ah? I didn't do anything to Pei Tu, what's the matter?" Chu Qing scratched her head to understand the situation.

"Pei Tu came to me just now and strongly demanded to change the ward, and he complained to me that you have serious violent suicide tendencies, and you have split personality and self-abuse mentality..." Jiao Liang looked Chu Qing up and down, Chu Qing Obviously it looks normal now, why did Pei Tu say that about Chu Qing?Wait a minute, when Chu Qing entered the hospital, he seemed to say that he wanted to study depression patients and he wanted to improve his acting skills...

"What? Did he really say that about me?"

"Yes, oh, by the way, Xu Peng also came to me, and told me some other things in a serious tone..."

"What did he tell you?"

"He said he suspected you were a psychopathic murderer...he felt insecure with you..."

"..."

Chu Qing opened his mouth, wanting to say a lot, but at this moment, he couldn't even say a fart.

Split personality, self-abuse, psychopath, murderer?

What is this with?Is it that exaggerated?

"Qingzi... I don't know if I should say something or not?"

"talk."

"Qingzi, I think you are acting too hard or something. I know your acting skills are very good, but you may have played the wrong role? Or, the depression patients you understand are not really depression patients? "

"..." Chu Qing continued to open her mouth...

"However, you can scare a depressed patient so much that you don't even dare to mention suicide, Qingzi, you are also invincible..." Jiao Liang hesitated for a long time, and finally took a deep look at Chu Qing, expressing his admiration for Chu Qing .

"..." Chu Qing...

He didn't even know how he was invincible...

....................................

After thinking about it carefully, Chu Qing felt that she had indeed played the wrong role.

Zhang Fa in "Buddha" is indeed a depressed patient, but this depression does not have any violent tendencies.

And the depression patients I played before were not too pure, and too many things that I took for granted inexplicably were mixed in, so naturally it would not work.

Because of this, Pei Tu must have been taken aback by himself.

I am crooked...

After acting crookedly, Chu Qing immediately adjusted his style. At first, he was going to get in touch with Pei Tu, but when he entered Pei Tu's ward again, Pei Tu's eyes widened!
"Qingzi, my brother, I beg you...I suddenly don't want to die...I suddenly feel that my depression is gone...I really feel that this world is beautiful!"

Pei Tu was spoiled by Chu Qing. Death is actually very simple, but the problem is that every time he thinks of death, he will inexplicably think of Chu Qing's eyes and expressions when he talked to him before, and then Pei Tu found out ...

He. Fuck doesn't want to die anymore.

No matter how Chu Qing explained it, even Chu Qing pointed to her nose and said that she was a normal person, in fact, it was just to observe the depressed patients in the mental hospital to increase the expressiveness of the film performance, but Pei Tu didn't believe it!

Not only did he not believe it, he even pressed the alarm immediately to call the hospital police, yelling that Chu Qing was going to hurt him and other unfounded things.

Pei Tu's expression was terrified, like a frightened child, he patted his chest and let out a sigh of relief when the hospital police arrived...

Chu Qing felt that this was very uncomfortable, and everyone couldn't have a good chat...

He felt so sincere!

Is it not sincere to tell the purpose and reason of entering the mental hospital?But it was useless, no matter what he said, Pei Tu just didn't believe it, not only didn't he believe it, but he didn't cooperate at all with the feeling that Chu Qing was a dangerous person.

This made Chu Qing feel that there was no way to carry on with his work.

Then Chu Qing went back to the original ward and found Xu Peng. He thought Xu Peng was not bad...

At first, Xu Peng was still taciturn and read the newspaper without any change. After Chu Qing entered the ward, he greeted Xu Peng...

"Hello…"

"... "

Xu Peng raised his head, his eyes were still calm with despair.

Then Xu Peng pressed the siren very calmly, and then the medical police rushed in again...

"Doctor, doctor... I don't think a man with rage can live with me, otherwise my life will be in danger at any time..."

"..."

When Chu Qing heard Xu Peng's words, Chu Qing suddenly felt a deep sense of despair.

He felt that he seemed to understand a lot about depression...

Because, he's about to get depressed.

What the hell is this, shit!
(End of this chapter)