Start with a star wife

Chapter 115
It's about to go on the shelf again. I thought it would be enough to just write a sentence or two in the testimonial.

But I have a lot to say in my heart, so let me waste a little of your time!

First of all, let me be honest, I am born in the 90s, a code word dog in 94, I am not married, have no wife and no daughter.

The reason why I wrote this book is because life is already boring and boring, so I wanted to write a warmer story to adjust my depressed mood.

So this is not a cool article, there is no plot of pulling hatred, and then pretending to slap your face. At the moment of Shuangwen's testimony, this book is like a cup of tea, drinking it is unpleasant, but it can moisten the throat.

Therefore, this type of novel is destined to not be too good, but not too bad.

Some people say that by reading the style of a novel, one can see what kind of person the author is in real life.

In the impression of some readers, maybe I am a fat house, and Xinfeng even hacked me into a fat man of three hundred catties.But in reality, I don't even weigh 120 pounds.

It may be because the stomach is not good since childhood, so if you eat too much, you will have stomach problems and stomach problems, and you can't get fat anyway.

Secondly, some readers who have read my previous books may think that I should be a cheap and funny person in reality.

Actually not.

If I tell you that in reality I am a withdrawn, depressed, and even world-weary person, you may be surprised.

But in fact, I do.

I don't like to be lively, and I don't like to socialize.

Whether it's shopping, watching the sea, eating, or watching movies, I am often alone. It's not that I can't find someone to accompany me, but I just don't like company because there is no common topic.

Speaking of world-weariness, when I was very young, I first understood the concept of death. When I first saw the funeral of the next door, I had already started thinking about death.

I don't understand why we are all going to die?

This is a heavy question, so I often think about how I will end this life?
Sometimes, life is unsatisfactory, and I am in a bad mood. Like many people, I stand upstairs and think about jumping off the building.Standing by the river, I thought about jumping into the river, but I was subconsciously afraid of death, so I continued to live on.

So, I grew up loving sentimental stuff.

When I was young, the talks and diaries published on QZone were described in the non-mainstream words of the year with one word: Shang.

In the past, I always liked to use sentimental words to denote my mood.

Precisely because of my affinity with words, I embarked on the road of no return to writing novels.

That year, after graduating from high school and working as a summer job for two months, I went to work in BJ.

From south to north, the first time I was so far away from home, the first time I drifted north, the first time I took a train for more than [-] hours...

That autumn, I was still full of confusion about life, and I lived in a daze all day long, and I still couldn't find the meaning and motivation of life.

What impressed me the most was that one day at noon, I stared at the window in a daze for a long time, and then posted a message on Qzone, describing myself as the fly lying on the window, with a bright future, but I couldn’t find a way out.

Then, in my confusion, I wrote the first novel in my life on my mobile phone and posted it on a certain website.

At that time, I wrote tens of thousands of words intermittently and failed to sign the contract. In addition to the busy work, I didn't have a day or two to rest in a month. In the end, I became a eunuch.

No one bookmarked, no one voted, so the eunuch didn't even have a comment that scolded me or made me stick to it.

At that time, every word and sentence I wrote was too literary. Looking back, that was the time when my Chinese pen was the best in my life, and at that time, I really lived like a lonely poet.

Later, in the winter of the same year.

BJ is very cold. I read a doomsday novel. After reading it for a long time, I found that the author's writing collapsed and it was not good to read. So I wrote a doomsday novel on a whim.

At that time, after posting a few chapters, I received the signing information from the backstage. That night, I shivered my teeth and walked for a long time, looking for a long time. Finally, I found a place where I could print the contract. signed contract.

Not because of excitement, but because of BJ's winter, it's too cold for me.

It's just a pity that there is still not much time to write novels, so that there is no guarantee for an update every day. Finally, after the first signing recommendation is over, there will be no follow-up recommendations.

At that time, the starting point was very strict. I remember that after I insisted on writing 30 words, when I asked the editor if I could put it on the shelf, the editor politely said no.

Due to too few collections, it cannot be put on the shelves.

In the end, I wrote slowly while working. In the second year, I finished five 10,000+ words.

The ending still feels like yesterday when I mention it now. At that time, several readers commented that they were moved and cried, but there were also some readers who scolded me, cursed me, and even told me to die because I wrote dead the main character.

But that ending is the most memorable and my favorite in my life.Because life is so imperfect, it is full of all kinds of regrets.

If I can choose, I also hope that I can bid farewell to this world as a hero in the future.

I still clearly remember the last paragraph of the ending. The heroine wiped the crystal coffin and said to the corpse of the hero inside: You are still so young and handsome in the crystal coffin, but I have become an ugly old woman...

let time pass by.

After that time, I stopped writing novels.

After all, I worked so hard to write a book for more than half a year, but in the end I didn’t make any money, and I even lost 24 yuan for the courier fee and the printing contract.

It is precisely because I am always thinking about the 24 yuan I lost to the starting point, and thinking about so many days and nights of racking my brains to create.

So after a year, after I stopped drifting north, I was confused about what job to look for, and I once again had the idea of ​​writing a novel.I didn't think so much at the time, I just thought that earning two to three thousand yuan a month would be enough.

So I started to sign up for this account.

For some reason, I decided to include the word "Autumn" in my pen name, and then I thought of the song "Qilixiang", and decided to name it "Saury".

It's just unfortunate that "Saury" was registered first by someone else, and even "Taste of Saury" can't be used anymore.

Finally, when I was cooking, I came up with inspiration, chopping fish with an autumn knife... a bit weird.

Cutting fish with a sword?Well, the pen name is confirmed.

The first novel published by this account was also successfully signed, but it was influenced by the nonsensical essays, and it was also written very nonsense at that time, so now in retrospect, I feel that what I wrote is all stupid things.

But at that time, the authors of Qidian were paid much better. As long as they signed a contract, they could apply for listing with more than 20 words.

Updating 4000 words a day, I can get 600 yuan full attendance a month, so after insisting on writing for three months, I finally earned the first draft fee in my life.Although it is only a few hundred dollars, it can be regarded as comfort.

Now, in a blink of an eye, it has been 4 years since this account was registered at Qidian, and the time has passed really quickly.

Writing novels has gradually become the only thing I can't let go of in my life. Because of my low education, it is difficult to find a job with a good salary if I go out to find a job.

And people with my personality can't integrate into the atmosphere of other jobs.

Writing novels is not easy, but it is really suitable for people like me to make a living in this world.

During this period, I have been on the street many times, but compared with the real authors, at least I am lucky, and I can survive in this industry.

I still remember the excitement and joy when I signed the contract for the first time, and I still remember the feeling of constantly refreshing the background when the first collection broke ten, hundred, thousand or even ten thousand.

I keep in mind that when I entered the lowest point of this circle and wanted to give up writing novels, "Love and Desire for People" kept urging me to keep writing.

"Ruoshui Zhimo" has been sending out sign-in buildings to support rewards, but there are very few people who sign-in, and the building collapses once it is built.

I still remember the first book friend "Dead White Fish" who gave me a reward for the rudder master. Now I don't understand that someone would reward 100 yuan for the messyly written book on the street at that time.

I still remember the first book friend who rewarded the leader. She was called "Unique", and there was another one called "Unique and Two", but later changed her name, which is now "Keep Watching the Flowers Bloom and Fall". Since then, For every novel, she rewarded the leader and gave a lot of support.

Therefore, among so many readers, I least want to face her, because I feel ashamed.

Some authors told me that there are not many readers who are so determined, and they have to deal with them well, and they will also generously support them who want to make it to the list in the future.

But I don't want and don't want to spend my time to manage readers, so I don't even bother to think about dealing with local tyrants, building a readership, encouraging readers to crowdfund and so on.

Because I have owed a debt of favor, I know that in this life, Huabei can be paid off, and credit cards can be paid off, but the debt of favor can never be paid off.

There are also many familiar and impressive readers' names, which I still remember.

"Brother Lin" who broke his leg, "Unintentional Drag" who sells cigarettes and alcohol in XJ, "YY Thought" in the same city, "Hokage's father" who is a doctor in the United States, "Chicken Leg" who was a student two years ago, " "Auspicious Beast", "Shenlong" and so on...

There is also the leader "Menglou Township Idiot" who asked me to name his daughter, who I dare not mess with. He once told me that if you need help in the future, just call him, but except for that time when he asked me to help with naming, I never contacted him again, and now I can't see him at the starting point, I hope he is well.

There are many, many familiar names that I can still see in the voting records and reward records in the background, but there are also many familiar names that have been washed away by the torrent of time.

That's how life is.

Gathering and scattering, separation and reunion.

There is a lot of competition in the circle of online writing, and the number of authors who can really make a living is far less than one in ten thousand.

Therefore, if there is competition, there will be all kinds of open and dark arrows. This circle is far less harmonious and comfortable than I imagined.

I see those comments that jump out from time to time to scold me, report me, and insult and curse me with jealousy.

I always believe that normal readers, apart from digging their ancestral graves, are too lazy to spray a novel and target an author.

And on my list of bans, most of them are pirated trumpets and registered authors' accounts.

People's hearts are separated from each other, and every industry and every circle are actually the same. The more you experience, the more you get used to it.

Writing novels is just a matter of food for me now, and how much I eat or how little I eat depends entirely on my own ability.

Don't be jealous when you have achieved results, and don't jump out to ridicule and step on the street when you hit the street.

It's not easy for people to live, and it's always good to be kind.

This time, I know that the results will not be very good, but it will not be too overwhelming. If you are willing to pay to watch, you can come to the starting point to subscribe. If you don’t want to, just watch the pirated version with peace of mind. Just complaining, this kind of behavior is shameless.

Finally, let me inform you of the launch time, which will be available at 10:[-] noon tomorrow, Friday the [-]th.

Other authors have conditions for adding updates. I may make a promise to find a motivation for myself to owe updates.

The leader adds two chapters as usual, and the two leaders currently owe four chapters, so at least six chapters will be updated tomorrow.

Subsequent accumulative 200 monthly tickets plus one chapter, on the basis of the first order of 1000, the cumulative increase of 200 first order will also add one chapter, the first order plus more is only available for 24 hours, because the first order within 24 hours of the shelf will determine a chapter Just how far this book can go.

The first order is too bad, and it will be hard to get recommendations in the future, so whether it is other channels or readers who watch pirated copies, after watching it for two months for free, if you are willing to pay a dime for the first order, welcome to Qidian to subscribe to the chapter after it is on the shelves 1.

Well, see you tomorrow at 12 noon.

(End of this chapter)