Yanzi Valley of Jingcheng

Chapter 119 Give Me Something

After putting down Guan Sha's phone, Du Jing sat alone in the room for a long time, and she didn't even notice that the aunt at home knocked on her door twice to ask her to eat.

Du Jing doesn't like the aunts who cook and clean at home. In Sanyun City, such aunts are collectively called nannies.

Du Jing has dealt with various nannies since she was a child, or she was brought up by nannies. Some of these nannies are 57 or [-] years old, and some are [-] or [-] years old. In short, they change every three or four years. They come from different rural areas or Small county.

Du Jing sympathized with them.

Du Jing remembers that when she was 15 years old, the babysitter who came to her family was only 17 years old. She had just graduated from junior high school and was only 2 years older than Du Jing, but she still had to wash underwear and cut toenails for Du Jing. Should she be called sister or auntie.

A 17-year-old girl was called Aunty by a 15-year-old girl in the third grade of junior high school. Thinking about it, Du Jing just struggled and decided to call her Auntie, but she politely added a "little" before Auntie. The word, that is, "little aunt".

After the 17-year-old girl came, Du Jing finally realized that she had grown up. After all, she was a head taller than the girl. In appearance, the girl was as thin as Du Jing's younger sister. "My younger sister" did "private work" for herself, so Du Jing had to learn to wash her underwear and cut her nails by herself.

At first, because Du Jing didn't wash it very cleanly, she saw with her own eyes that the little aunt washed her underwear back and forth several times under the instigation of her mother, which made Du Jing feel ashamed.

To be honest, Du Jing hated this 17-year-old aunt very much at the time. If it wasn't because she was too young, Du Jing could continue to be a child for a few more years with peace of mind in front of those 50-[-]-year-old aunts.

The life with a nanny at home is what many people dream of, because it can solve most family conflicts.

For example, Du Jing has never been forced by her parents to do any housework, and Du Jing's parents will not quarrel over who will wash the dishes after dinner, who will pick up the children after school, and who will make breakfast for the children in the morning.

It's just that Du Jing doesn't like these nannies regardless of their age or personality.

It's not that they are unsophisticated or unkind, nor is it that they cook bad food or do bad work, but just because of the existence of these nannies and aunts, Du Jing grew up on the way home from school, at the dining table, even On weekends when I go horse riding and skating, I can only see them during the rest time. Those who handed Du Jing water, and those who talked and chatted with her were these nannies, not Du Jing's own parents.

Du Jing feels that the existence of the role of nanny is a kind of barrier, blocking the company from parents that all children want.

For the same reason, Du Jing also hated the middle-aged male driver who always picked her up instead of her father when she was in high school.

At this time, Guan Sha has completely become as hateful a character as nanny and driver in Du Jing's eyes.

It is precisely because of Guan Sha that Du Jing has been unable to be her true self since she was a child.

Du Jing also wants to grow long hair, she wants her long hair to reach her waist so that she can take graduation photos with her hair fluttering in the wind;
Du Jing wants to wear a beautiful long dress and bright red lipstick, and longs to be the center of attention no matter where she goes, and become the white moonlight in the hearts of boys.

She remembers that she often wore skirts when she was in kindergarten, and the hand-in photos left at the bottom of her mother's dressing cabinet are the best proof.

"It's okay if you don't accompany me on my birthday this year, ten dresses." This is the condition that 5-year-old Du Jing asked her mother.

But since she got to know Guan Sha, Du Jing gradually stopped being so casual, especially in terms of possible competition with Guan Sha, Du Jing wrapped herself up carefully.

This kind of wrapping is a very common form of self-protection, just like a girl with good legs, she is very confident and always wears skirts to show her legs when shopping.

But when she often has to live with a national treasure-level dancer with a golden section figure, those things in her that she "thought she was okay" turned out to be all shortcomings as long as she compared it with others.

This kind of inferiority complex has always been in Du Jing's heart, not only because of Guan Sha's temperament and beauty, but also because when the two first met, Du Jing felt that her family was far less wealthy than Guan Sha's.

Guan Sha's schoolbags, watches, and the car that picks her up are not generally high-end, they are all limited editions that many students have never seen before. There are only two stores.

Whether it was a horse riding club or other gatherings only for rich kids, Du Jing felt that her parents forced herself into it for the sake of face and connections. The club's annual fee and various donations were fundamental to Du Jing's family at that time It wasn't cheap. At that time, Du Jing heard a conversation between his parents outside the bedroom:

"Hundreds of thousands...is it necessary? This year's SARS business is not good at all, and this money can be used to open another store..." Mother said.

But my father said, "I can't stop, this kind of club is more useful than a good university."

In fact, even now, the entire Du Family Catering Group is less than one-tenth of Guan Hong Real Estate, so when Guan Sha came out to start a business alone, Du Jing was so bold and generous, and kept giving Guan Sha money. The more Guan Sha needed Du Jing's money, the happier Du Jing felt.

I don’t know how many times Du Jing regretted getting to know Guan Sha, and even more regretted that they became inseparable friends because their personalities were so compatible, so that no matter what she Du Jing wanted to try, Guan Sha’s existence would tell her: Don't do it, don't try it, even if you change, you can't be more beautiful than Guan Sha, instead of being a foil to others, it's better to find another way, maybe you can live a different life.

So Du Jing always chooses sportswear, slacks, and peaked caps when buying clothes. She doesn't even buy underwear that can be shaped and has steel rings. Her hair has never grown beyond her neck. I reported martial arts and basketball.

For a while, Du Jing sweated profusely on the court, turning her fair skin into a bronze tan. To be honest, Du Jing even found it hard to accept seeing such a complexion in front of the mirror every morning.

But it was at that time that she received love letters from girls in other classes in the school.

It was that love letter that Du Jing could never accept in her life, which satisfied her long-awaited vanity.

Du Jing found that if she lived like this, she could still be sought after in some ways, because almost all women hope that their charm can be appreciated by other women. For Du Jing, the satisfaction brought by the same-sex identity is actually is more than the opposite sex.

The most important thing is that it is very difficult for Guan Sha to get the approval of the same sex, because most of the girls who know Guan Sha hate her, envy her, and alienate her, but for Du Jing, the girls are very friendly and kind. The feeling is especially evident in the classes of the White Horse Club.

The girls in the class would hardly let their horses walk side by side with Guan Sha's, because during the class, there was a photographer responsible for the promotion of the White Horse Club who followed the whole process, and no girl wanted to be in the same frame as Guan Sha.

And Du Jing is often surrounded by many people, especially female classmates. It is probably because of this satisfaction that Du Jing is willing to grow up with her next to Guan Sha, but only Du Jing knows that her true thoughts have always been in a state of depression.

For so many years, Du Jing thought that she was used to it, used to this kind of depression, used to that whenever Xiao Jie sees Guan Sha, his eyes will definitely be inseparable from her and he will completely forget his own existence.

But the reality is not the case.

During that teahouse party, Du Jing would sneak glances at Xiao Jie from time to time while eating, but her girlish heart did not capture Xiao Jie's special affection for Guan Sha, as if in Xiao Jie's eyes, Guan Sha was just an ordinary girl. The girl is not particularly beautiful or dazzling, just like herself sitting next to her.

Based on this, Du Jing regained some confidence. She did have a different kind of affection for Xiao Jie, and this affection arose when she first met Xiao Jie in high school.

At that time, everyone in the company was off work, and only Xiao Jie was still in the office building flipping through the drafts of Mrs. Du's hot pot restaurant one by one.

Du Jing was secretly playing games on the company computer with her classmates in the middle of the night, and she accidentally saw this scene. Her feet seemed to be glued to the dark corridor outside the office. Xiao Jie read the documents very well. Seriously, Du Jing also looked at Xiao Jie very seriously.

At this time, Du Jing opened the memo on the mobile phone, and there was a letter she wrote to Xiao Jie in the memo.

In the letter, from the first time she met Xiao Jie in high school, to clinking glasses with Xiao Jie at the dinner table in college, and to their encounter in the teahouse after graduation, Du Jing recorded such fate word by word.

The letter is not long, only a few paragraphs, but Du Jing has repeatedly edited it to be very beautiful, and the love from a woman at the end is also expressed appropriately, not too obvious, but people who read the letter can tell it at a glance.

Du Jing has copied these paragraphs into Xiao Jie's WeChat dialog boxes and emails countless times, and she even manually copied several copies on well-made stationery, but in the end it was all because she felt that the writing was not perfect enough without sending or posting.

Now, no matter how beautiful this letter is, Du Jing can only delete it word by word. She knows Guan Sha, and she also vaguely feels that she knows Xiao Jie, probably from the time when Guan Sha fell in love with Xiao Jie and decided to pursue him From that moment on, she, Du Jing, was doomed to be out.

Du Jing walked out of the bedroom without saying hello to the nanny, but asked, "Auntie, where's the flamethrower you used to light candles for your birthday last time?"

"What are you doing with the flamethrower? Do you want to eat first?" the nanny asked with concern.

"I'll eat it later, where's the flamethrower?" Du Jing asked again.

"In the third cupboard to the left of the kitchen gas hood."

Du Jing saw an orange manual flamethrower in the cabinet that the nanny said. The flame was very weak, but it was enough to burn several letters full of ink.

When the last punctuation mark disappeared before Du Jing's eyes, she silently said to herself: Guan Sha, you have taken everything away for so many years, this time, you should give me something back.

(End of this chapter)