Yanzi Valley of Jingcheng

Chapter 77 Shangxue's Monologue ([-])
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Because I wrote about the life curves of several protagonists in "Jingcheng: Yanzi Valley", I can't help but sigh with emotion about my own life curve.

When I was in the sixth grade of elementary school, Shangxue, I used a blue water-based pen to write my first novel in my homework book. I wrote each word by hand. I have forgotten the names of the hero and heroine. The story is generally a campus love. story.

When I wrote two chapters and showed it to my mother, my mother praised it after reading it carefully, and happily showed it to my father.

My dad didn't even read it. Really, he didn't even read it, so he just said, "How many words do you know as a primary school student? Just write novels? Can you read it?"

So later, I didn’t write any novels. Even if my essays in junior high school and high school were either full marks or only one point was deducted, I would never write again. I didn’t even think I had any literary talent. The irony is , the teacher has the same idea as me.

In the eyes of the teacher in charge and the language teacher, a student with excellent Chinese performance is just that this subject does not lag behind in the college entrance examination. This student should focus on training not Chinese, but mathematics, physics and chemistry. It is best to get a competition award to facilitate the recommendation.

For this reason, I have been studying and competing throughout my middle school life, making up lessons every day, until the sky is dark and the sky is dark.

When I was in junior high school, I was quite competitive. I won prizes in both mathematics and physics, and was admitted to the only one of the top [-] middle schools in our second-tier city with a key physics and chemistry class.

After entering that class, half a foot stepped into Tsinghua University and Peking University.

In that class, no one cared about the subject of Chinese. The Chinese teacher was like a puppet in class every day. No one listened to his lectures, and everyone was doing their own things.

All the students in the class finished all the high school science content in the first year of high school, and they were dragged into competitions in the second year of high school. To be precise, I started to learn college chemistry content in the second semester of high school.

When it comes to competition, I didn't reject it at the time. After all, I have tasted the benefits of competition, which is to provide a layer of insurance for the college entrance examination.

As before, I also want to do mathematics and physics, which I am good at.

But at that time, there were too many people who were strong in mathematics and physics in our class. One of the strongest people went directly to the national winter camp, and then he finished the entire high school mathematics textbook in a week.

At that time, in our class, it was quite shameful to ask the teacher when we encountered something we didn’t understand without self-study.

There are such a group of people who help the school win mathematics and physics awards, why do ordinary students like me still have to do it?

So a child like me who is not gifted is naturally arranged to engage in biology and chemistry competitions.

At that time, our entire key class felt no different from tool people. The purpose of the school’s free training was to win more competition awards, so that the school would continue to be rated as one of the top [-] middle schools in the country next year.

Based on this, I have almost learned the content involved in college chemistry and biology, but the sky is not as people wish, I am not interested in these two subjects, I can handle the high school exam, but I failed to win a national award in the competition .

After losing the competition, although I am still studying hard every day, I know that I have no hope of entering Qingbei. After all, I am a baby boomer. The college entrance examination has the largest number of people and the most fierce competition. I didn't go there.

Since you can't get the best, it doesn't matter which school you go to.

This kind of attitude is actually very bad, and I realized it later, so I quickly adjusted myself, studied hard in the four years of university, worked hard for the postgraduate entrance examination, and saved the country with curves.

During that time, I was the only one in the dormitory in the library every day, and I found that I had complete autonomy for the first time in my life.

I did well in the postgraduate entrance examination. At least many of my classmates around me were undergraduates from Qingbei, and they found good jobs. Many leaders, colleagues, and interns I brought later also graduated from Qingbei.

Looking at it this way, if I didn't fiddle with competitions in high school and only concentrate on taking the college entrance examination, there is a high probability that I will have a relatively not so difficult four years in college.

After working for five or six years, I looked around and found that the people around me are very smart, motivated, responsible, and capable. It seems that my life should be complete. Isn’t it just for the sake of progress that I study so hard? Such a circle?
But it’s not, because after working for many years, I suddenly recalled the self who was eager to write novels more than ten years ago.

For some reason, after I was able to support myself and live a good life, I began to feel that I had never been myself for so many years, as if I was only when I told you one story after another, I was far away from the real I am the closest.

So I resigned, I gave up a very stable and well-paid job, and lived a precarious life as a writer.

I remember my first month's manuscript fee was a few cents, you read that right, and I typed it right, it was just a few cents, and no publishing house was willing to publish the novel, and the editor ignored me.

But I am happier with these few cents than with hundreds of thousands of year-end bonuses from my work.

I stared at the screen and looked at my manuscript fee for a long time. I also showed it to my former colleagues. They are all my friends. We have made many projects together. They are very supportive and read my novels in person. After reading the comments, they voted for me and forwarded my novels to others. I am really grateful to them.

After knowing that I was going to quit my job to write a novel, my mother who praised me for writing a good story suddenly objected very much, and she objected for two full years.

Parents want their children to be stable, especially my daughter. She thinks my job is hard-won. My hair turns gray when I study and take the Qingbei exam. Wouldn’t I be my intern in the end?My mother's attitude is that this kind of work should not be resigned until death.

But I still quit.

I said in "The Road to Investment Banking" that even if I can live to be 80 years old, my life will only be more than 9000 days, except for sleeping, going to the bathroom, eating, and being in a daze. I didn't know what I was doing in the first ten years. I can't do anything in the next ten years, and I haven't arrived for almost 1 days. These 1 days are too precious to me. I must try to take a different path.

I want to follow Guan Sha, Ren Tianxing, Xiao Jie and Shen Li to experience different lives, let their joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys touch me, enrich myself, improve myself, and improve myself, even if no one reads the stories I write, But I know I am worthy of myself.

I hope that you who see this can continue to support Shangxue, leave me more messages and vote, so that I have more motivation to persevere.

However, you must leave your comments from the bottom of your heart, and don’t leave robotic language such as “check in”, “I’m here”, “check in”, “keep claws”, “666” and “Shangxue, you are so beautiful” every day!

What Shangxue wants is a real person with feelings, experience, dialogue, and exchange of ideas...Of course, it is still necessary to occasionally boast "Shangxue, you are so beautiful".

Well, the emotion is over, let's continue to write, Xiao Jie's wonderful family is about to appear!

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The physical book "The Road to Investment Banking" has been published by the People's Literature Publishing House. The original version is purchased on JD.com, and the reader group account of Shangxue can be found in the introduction of this book. Friends are welcome to join, and everyone can learn from each other. If you like this book, please Give Shangxue a recommendation!Shangxue really wants to recommend it!Thank you all!

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