After being tamed by a cold beauty

Chapter 109 Heartbeat is an illusion

Ji Liangke came back from the orphanage and spent the night reading books.

As clumsy as her, as slow as her, her first reaction was to find the answer in the book.

The bookshelves in the small study at home are almost all psychology-related books.

These books were originally stacked neatly, but as soon as she started flipping through them, they became a mountain of chaos.

But Ji Liangke has no time to care about it.

I don't care about being particular, but I am eagerly looking for the answer.

She read one by one, in a hurry, hoping to catch the information she wanted from all the books at once.

She managed to find some relevant information.

In the book, there are some things written in black and white about the relationship between the psychiatrist and the patient.

Ji Liangke stared at one of the lines for a long, long time.

Even though she had known it was taboo for a long time and was familiar with certain contents, she didn't pay much attention to it at that time.

Because——she never thought that she would have any other connection with the patient.

The appearance of Jiang Yuan disturbed all of this, including her cognition.

Those words jumped into her eyes one by one.

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"Psychotherapy has an element of 'love' and 'intimacy', so that patient and physician are prone to mutual sexual attraction."

"The role played by a competent psychiatrist is basically similar to the role of a competent parent. The responsibility of parents is to help their children grow, not to use their children to satisfy their own desires. Psychologists are the same."

"Doctors and patients have separate personalities."

When she read these words, her eyes also trembled.

She knew very well how wrong it is for a doctor to have affection for a patient.After all, psychiatrists exist as the parents of patients, and which parent would have undue emotions for their children?
It is precisely because of this that when she first diagnosed and treated Jiang Yuan, she was sober and rational, and did not let herself sink.

But now?

Even if she is not Jiang Yuan's psychiatrist, can she have other feelings for him?
Also, is her emotion for Jiang Yuan actually love?

These questions bothered her, and she flipped through pages after pages of information in a daze.

The next day, she almost struggled to finish work.

She tried her best to maintain a positive frame of mind when she was treating patients, but when she was resting, she fell back into a sluggish state.

My mind is full of how to deal with it.

She knew she shouldn't be confined to books.Why didn't she know that it was absurd and ridiculous to look through the information and try to find the answer to her own life, but even if she knew, she still did it.

She still needs to figure out a way to figure it all out.

What kind of emotion does she have towards Jiang Yuan?

Ji Liangke couldn't figure it out.

When the last patient left the clinic, it was already dark.She rubbed her forehead tiredly, bewildered and helpless.

She gritted her teeth and dialed the number of her tutor when she was studying.The tutor is called Albert, and it can also be called Albert.

He is her very trusted mentor.

Since she can't figure it out by herself, she can only ask a more professional tutor.

She exchanged general greetings first, and then directly explained her intentions without going around the corner.

After getting Albert's consent, she stumbled and finished stating her past with Jiang Yuan.

Albert finished listening quietly and didn't speak for a long time.

Even though Ji Liangke couldn't talk to Albert face to face, she could guess Albert's expression over there.

It must be the dignified expression of frowning.

Ji Liangke couldn't help laughing - when she was studying on the other side of the Atlantic, she could even be regarded as an excellent student Albert appreciated, but now she bothers him because of this kind of thing.

After listening to the silence for a while, Albert finally spoke.

"Jacinda, you have to know that it is normal for doctors to have feelings for patients. Patients will love doctors because they think doctors are the people who know them best, and they will have feelings for psychologists, so they sometimes feel love for doctors."

Albert's voice was almost earnest, and he continued to say: "Similarly, it is normal for a doctor to love a patient. If we want to cure a patient, we will naturally take care of him in every possible way, and we will naturally show love to him."

"I know...but..." Ji Liangke paused.

She doesn't know the specific composition of her "love" for Jiang Yuan.She only knows that she has love for Jiang Yuan, and she can't help but worry about and take care of him, but she doesn't know whether it is love or not.

Albert caught it keenly.

"Do you have any evidence that you like him? I mean the kind of liking between lovers."

Ji Liangke lowered his head, unconsciously twisted the corner of his clothes with his fingers, and said after deliberation: "I don't dislike him approaching, and I don't hate being with him either."

"It's normal, because you are already familiar with each other, and of course you won't mind getting along with him. On this point, there are too few words to prove that this is love."

She was stunned, and the next second, her eyelashes trembled slightly: "I will be moved in some moments."

——in some unexpected moments.

Ji Liangke recalled certain moments in the past.When he suddenly approached her, when he smiled at her, when he looked at her with affectionate and tender eyes, and... when he kissed her.

She clearly knew that at those moments, she had a heartbeat.

Really heartbroken.

However, Albert's next words made her confused.

"Jacinda, this may just be a hormonal manifestation. Moreover, in some moments, it is not the so-called heartbeat. Sometimes, surprise can also make you have the illusion of heartbeat."

Is...is that so?

Ji Liangke was stunned.

"This is not love." Albert was very sure, "Jacinda, are you listening?"

"Ah, I'm here." Ji Liangke responded quickly.

"Also, have you ever wondered what it would do to him if you mistakenly thought you loved him?"

Ji Liangke was taken aback.

It hadn't occurred to her.

"When you respond to his feelings, but if you realize that your feelings for him are not love between lovers in a certain year and a certain month, how should he deal with himself?"

"You're going to drag him deeper into the mud. That's not what you want, is it?"

This passage was like a thunderclap, which woke Ji Liangke up suddenly.

Yes, in order to be responsible for Jiang Yuan's feelings, she can't act rashly, nor can she be self-righteous.

It took her a lot of effort to drag him out of the mud, and she would never choose to drag Jiang Yuan into deeper darkness.

Jiang Yuan has become such a good person, he should have a firm love.

His future life will be beautiful, and he will meet someone who loves him without hesitation.

It shouldn't be someone who hesitates like her.

　Although, there is no way, the plot needs it. (I don't want to abuse either~)

　　I think Jiang Yuan and Ji Liangke need an equal relationship, and the heroine of this relationship must truly realize and face up to it.

　　A reader said before that it is a taboo for a psychiatrist to fall in love with a patient in the West, so the heroine will be a little entangled in this aspect, and she is very slow, so she still can't tell whether her care is related to " about love".

　　It's not abuse for the sake of abuse, it's just because Ji Liangke's heart still needs a turning point. When she really understands her feelings, there will be pure love between them, and real sugar can be sprinkled.

　　Hope to understand.

　　The connecting flight will arrive soon~
　　
　
(End of this chapter)