I promise

Chapter 619 Half-Life

The door of the meeting hall was wide open, Xin Yang leaned against the door frame and fell asleep, holding a roll of unformed moxa in his hand.

By this time it was completely dark.

A piece of white wax was lit on the tea table, the wick was like a bean, flickering gently, illuminating the empty hall.Often thousands of Buddhas are not in the house.

Mu Dianke walked past Xin Yang on tiptoe, went into the room and took a thin shirt, folded it back and put it on her body.After turning to the desk, sit down and wait for Chang Qianfo to come back.

She couldn't move anymore, and she didn't know where to find him.

A pulse case was spread out on the case, and a large ink spot was dripped on the brown paper, and the pen was not washed, and it was thrown on the table.I thought I was in a hurry.

Mu Dianke fetched water, wiped off the ink on the desk, dipped the Langhaohu brush into a brush wash, rinsed it, and hung it on the pen stand.Sitting down and tidying up slowly, just as the paper and ink ingots were arranged, a gust of wind rushed in and blew out the candles at the door.

The house was plunged into darkness.

Xin Yang seemed to feel something, opened his eyes in a daze, turned his head and looked into the room, but found nothing unusual, knocked his head on the door frame, and fell asleep again.

The flint was on the tea table, and Mu Dian was too lazy to get it. He found a comfortable posture and sat quietly in the dark waiting.

She likes to hide herself in dark places. She was afraid of fire in the past, but she also needs it when she is a killer.That makes her feel safe.Now, there is another hint of inexplicable meaning.

This is the place where Chang Qianfo handles daily affairs. He sits on this chair and uses this desk, and his aura is everywhere.Surrounded by the silent night, no one saw her, she occupied his territory, and she had a kind of fulfillment like a destination.

After an unknown amount of time, she was about to fall asleep when she heard footsteps entering the room in a daze.

It is Chang Qian Buddha, and there is one more person.

"...Look carefully, it's not a big problem, just a little weak." It was Chang Jili's voice.

Afterwards, he was depressed for a while, it seemed that Chang Jili raised his hand and patted Chang Qianfo on the shoulder: "Old Chang's children, what can't you see? How long have you known her, how long have they known each other? The love between life and death , Do you mean throwing it away?"

This time I finally heard Chang Qianfo speak, his voice was very deep, coming through the dark night, it made her heart feel a little painful.

"I'm not angry with her, I just... don't know how to face her."

"This is difficult." Chang Jili sighed: "But are you going to keep silent? If she finds out someday, you obviously have someone to save Jinliu—"

Chang Jili's voice was interrupted by Chang Qianfo.

"Who?!" He turned to face the desk, with inexplicable fear in his voice.

Xin Yang, who was dozing against the door, was awakened, stood up and shouted: "Young master is back?"

He ran in, groped for the flint on the tea table, ignited it with a sound of "cymbal", and walked towards the book table holding the light touch.

A new huanghuali wood seat frame was set up in front of the desk side, and there was a copper lotus candlestick, which was brought by Li Tong not long ago, and said to be used by Chang Qianfo at night, lest he would burn his eyes.

The candlestick was as tall as half a person, a section of lotus root stalk grew out from the lotus base, with a slight arc, twisted several times upwards, quite unique.

Several tentacles grow around the stem of the lotus root, and each end is connected to a small bronze candle holder, either obliquely or upwardly, or coiled, with different postures.Even the candle holders are made into various styles: water chestnut leaves with two corners, lotus with four corners, or flat floating water and clear circles. There are 36 candle holders in total.

Scattered candles lit up one by one, reflecting the pale snow-like face behind the desk.

Also white, and the face of Chang Qianfo.

Xin Yang sensed that something was wrong, and suddenly raised his head, almost jumping up in fright.

"Miss Fourth?" She exclaimed.

In fact, she is also a smart and alert girl, but she has been too tired recently, and she is a little confused. After lighting more than ten waxes, she didn't realize that there was someone in front of her.

Startled, he took off his hand and smashed his foot, leaving a black mark on the blue brick.

"Go down first." Chang Qianfo said in a deep voice, still looking at Mu Dianke.

Xin Yang also saw that something was wrong between the two of them, bent down and picked up the touch lamp, and hurried out.

"Ah——" Chang Jili raised his hand abruptly, and slapped himself on the mouth: "Look at me, I'm the most insane, I like to talk nonsense——"

Neither Chang Qianfo nor Mu Dian made a sound, and Chang Jili stopped himself in embarrassment - it is true that there is no way to explain this.

"Second uncle, you can go back too."

Chang Jili looked at Chang Qianfo apologetically, sighed, turned and left.

At night, the wind became cold, and the rain came in through the hall, and the lights on the copper candlesticks flickered.

Across the flickering candlelight, the two stared at each other for a long time, but they lost the sweet tenderness of the past, and each had wounds in their eyes, which burned each other.

"Can you tell me why?" Mu Dianke finally spoke first.

Chang Qianfo has completely calmed down.

From when he asked, to when Xin Yang went into the house to look for Flint to light it up, for such a long time, no one responded in the dark.He knew it was irreversible.

He thought of many sets of excuses, but no matter which one, the rift between the two was inevitably drawn.

"What reason do you wish?"

"I don't know." Mu Dianke shook her head, she was like a child who was bullied, tears suddenly fell down: "I want to hear your truth, you said you would not lie to me."

Chang Qianfo pursed his lips and remained silent.

His eyes were very dark, and when he was still, they were very deep, like a boundless ocean.

When he doted on her, his eyes were full of spring water, which made her drown in it and refused to come out; now it is a puddle of cold ice water, she is like a drowning person, thrashing and struggling, but she can't reach the shore no matter what side.

This man, she knows him too well.

He looks clear to the bottom, but his heart is deeper than the sea; he seems gentle and good at talking, but he will never change what he has made up his mind about.

He made up his mind to ask Jin Yanchen to die.

"...Xu Younan said that he abandoned me back then because his mother forced him to swear a poisonous oath. If he married me, the entire family of the Jin family would have no peace for the rest of their lives. After hearing that, I feel very sad..."

She started talking, chattering, her mind was confused, she didn't know what to say.But I have to say that she has to do something.

"...I think he is very pitiful. But it's useless, hurt is hurt, and scars can't be erased. I can't love him anymore. The person I love is you, it's you, Qianfo .”

"But I can't just watch him die. Do you know...you don't know, the Jin family, how good they were to me. He later... later treated me very badly, but he never let others bully I.

When he was still incapable, Sasaki wanted to bully me. He used his body to block me, and his ribs were broken by being kicked.He... He is such a proud man, for me, he searched for beautiful women everywhere and flattered Sasaki.I watched him smile like that... I watched him smile—"

She couldn't bear it, covered her face with her hands, and cried so much that she was trembling all over: "I would rather die by myself, and shave my face to be an ugly monster, and I don't want to see him bend down, see him smile like that... I told myself , not for anything else, just for this one, I can forgive all the harm he did to me, just this one, it is worth my life to pay for it."

"...He is my dearest relative in this world. Just like your sister, your grandfather, you have me, and it is impossible to part with them..."

This was the first time that she cried so sadly, but Chang Qianfo didn't come forward to hug her.

He looked at her quietly, and he didn't know which sentence made his expression colder and his eyes more determined.

Those eyes, like a dark abyss, can swallow all the secrets.

"It's not for this reason." Chang Qianfo said, "It's because I have selfish intentions."

He was finally willing to speak.

Mu Dianke lifted his head from the palm of his hand suddenly, his wet eyelashes were curled into strips, and the begging and flattery in his eyes was undisguised.

Chang Qianfo's heart was stung.

"I can save him, but I have to pay a price: I lose half my life and suffer from illness all my life... That's it, do you still want me to save him?"

(End of this chapter)