endless roses

Chapter 10 The Hidden Letter
I thought that in a certain childhood quarrel, my mother burned all the love letters my father gave her, and in that fire, something was completely broken.After my father left the southern country, he always took care of me to be more considerate of my mother. However, all her resentments and worries had nowhere to go, and she could only dump her anger and embarrassment on me. I also thought it was unfair, but if I don’t Help share, how helpless she should be, I want to escape from my hometown and family again and again, but it seems to be tied by an invisible kite string, or the fetters between parents and children, or maybe I am not free and easy enough.

Tang Ji went to the seaside as a visiting scholar, and I couldn't bear to disturb him, maybe I didn't like him, but just wanted to be him.Boringly rummaging through boxes and cabinets at home, in the utility room where old books are kept, I found a few pieces of letter paper with undated dates, as follows:
Shuang Er My Wife:

See the letter.

Don't blame me for not writing to you, okay?In the past few weeks, I thought that we have seen each other very frequently, so I don't care if I don't write letters, but calm down and think about it, I shouldn't treat you like this.I want to let you know the news of me at any time and anywhere for the rest of my life. Will you be a little tired? It took me so long to explain for a person who didn’t write a letter.

It may be too explicit or inappropriate for me to call you wife, but I have many reasons, one is your trust, and the other is my loyal yearning for you.Since the day I met you, all my fantasies about my lover have dissipated, only you are left, and you have become the goddess of reality to replace all unrealistic dreams.

After getting to know you, I realized what true love is, and you became the highest ideal. I hope to spend all the important moments in my life with you forever.I will always be by my side, not to worry and annoy you.

When I first arrived in S City, when I thought about you, I smoked to get rid of it, and occasionally drank some wine.Now, I have started to quit smoking again. I haven’t smoked for almost a month. I am not an old smoker, but I am also a half-addict. You see, I haven’t smoked for a long time until this letter. It is so strict, it seems that I have to be cautious in front of my muse in my life, and that's okay, you are always worried about me, right? My pretty wife!Miss you like crazy!In order to ease the pain of longing, I stopped drinking and drank tea instead. One day after another, I always think of you and want to see you. I will go back to see you after the exam is over on Monday in two days.

Under the mattress, there are pictures of a few cats, little cat, so cute, so uncomfortable, alas, sometimes my eyes are wet, I am afraid that my classmates in the same room will see me and tell some irrelevant jokes, and then everything is silent again .Go to sleep, alas, sometimes I will pick up the book next to the bed and read a few pages suddenly, and say in my heart: She knows that I am studying, she should be happy, if she is happy, she will not suffer from insomnia, then I will go to bed quickly Let's go to sleep together, I am still singing softly in my dream: "In that distant place, there is a good girl, you don't need to ask her name..." I seem to be weaving something in my dream, still thinking The garden house that I promised you... The place where I struggle from now on, the meaning of everything, is you.

Sometimes I really don't dare to say too much, for fear of backfire, as long as you know what I mean.Shuang'er, let's go drink coffee next time we meet, I have prepared a small gift for you, haha, let's not talk about it.

Ok, best wishes, the temperature is cooling these days, remember to add clothes.

your Mingfu
Mingfu:

Don't blame me for speaking too seriously, I really hope to marry you soon.You go to college and expect me to wait another three or four years, I really don't know how to live this life.

In fact, I know that you love me and will be good to me for the rest of my life. It is very hard to be alone now, but in the future you will make me forget all these sufferings.We have a very good emotional foundation, I will never leave you, just like a fish cannot live without water, if I leave you, I will only be sad and die of depression, do you understand?

You said that you should know how to make your lover happy at this age, but I am more worried about your health, lover, you must take care of yourself, don't be distracted by me, don't worry, just treat it for me, okay?
吴霜
It turned out that she was not that decisive.That day, my mother suddenly asked, "The neighbor said he saw your father outside today. There is a young woman in the back of the car. Is that you?"

"Ha, it's me."

Later, when I talked about this matter with Yi Yun, she always laughed at me.

(End of this chapter)