endless roses

Chapter 11 Wearing the Flower Crown
At dusk, at the Pingtan Hall on Pingjiang Road, I chatted with Pei Zhaozhi about love.

"I still believe in love. As for whether it will fall on me, I don't have any expectations."

"You don't care at all?"

"Um."

"I envy your state of mind, if only I were you, then maybe Qiao Yue won't hate me so much."

"How are you doing?"

"He, oh, I seem to be too dependent on Xiaoyue, so now he thinks that I can't take care of myself without him, so I take care of everything. I remember you were with Xiaok at that time, are you okay now?"

"I have never been with him. According to it, it is a very sad and sinful story. You can imagine me in Fang Siqi's situation."

"You never said that."

"It's been a long time since I came out, and I don't care about more things now than I did then, and it has a part to play in it."

"Well, I'm listening."

"Do I love him? I asked myself over and over again, and finally one day I suddenly realized, never! One day, one hour, not one second! Haha, that day, I suddenly felt that everything was easy, because I never loved However, since it wasn’t worth it from the beginning, there’s no need to put too much emotion into it, and there’s no need to be sad and sad all day.” I whispered softly, as if I was talking about other people’s affairs.

"Yeah." Zhaozhi replied softly, to show that he was still listening.

"Idiot, he hurt me, but I was thinking about whether it was love that made me accept it." Haha, I laughed and said to myself, heartbroken for myself at that time.

"What about later?" Zhao Zhi asked, she seemed to be curious, maybe more out of caring, I couldn't tell. "What happened to the ring?"

"Throw it into the Slender West Lake."

"Are you willing?" She froze as soon as she spoke, apologizing for the offense.

"There's nothing to be reluctant about." I said.

"It must have been a relief."

"There is no relief, and there is no relief. This thing means nothing to me. It's like disposing of a piece of garbage. It's just thrown away. There's no need to get emotional."

"You call it 'garbage', you must hate it."

"It's just no emotion, it's not worth it for such a person." I smiled slightly, "According to that, you know me."

"I never thought about it. I always thought that your life is enviable. Although Uncle Su and Auntie divorced, you seem to have nothing on your mind. You always have a good temper."

"You also know about my parents. They have a better way of life, and it's not a big problem whether they are together or not."

"Mei'er, you were very calm when you said this."

"Ah."

"You always talk about it calmly, even if the content is so heartbreaking, even if there are turbulent waves in your heart, you are so calm when you speak. You are very strong, and you also make your friends heartache."

"Oh." I said, "What else can I do? Life is my own, so I can't just indulge in it forever."

"Too."

"Loving someone doesn't have to be with you."

"You mean Tang Ji?"

"Um."

"Does he know what happened to you?"

"I found out later."

"What did you say?"

"I figured it out. Maybe he likes me, but he doesn't like me that much. As soon as I told him, I told him to give up on him."

"He must not mind."

"I mind."

"why?"

"It was a very beautiful period of youth. I have been waiting for an opportunity to end it. I am tired and want to welcome a new life." I said, "It is a good ending to die without a problem."

"You always give up."

"There is no way to accept it. According to it, the artistic conception of love itself is very beautiful. Too much real contact will probably make everything bad. This love is too pure and has no realistic possibility, so we must give up." I spoke steadily, as if this was an unassailable truth, "If beautiful things continue to bloom intentionally, and stay alive in a time that doesn't belong to them, their value will be diluted. It's good to have existed."

"It's good to have existed." She murmured softly, seeming to be thinking.

"This is also what the past told you. Respect itself. I only mean the continuation of beauty. I don't deny the past, and I don't recall it. Let things develop and decline naturally. I don't even want to do anything to keep it. Let it go on like this. But don't learn from me, I have so many crooked principles, and I still can't grasp this life well."

Su Cheng Dafeng, Zhaozhi and I wanted to rush back, both of them were a little drunk.The strong wind blows, and sometimes there is lightning, so Weiming is entrusted to pick it up, and she puts on a hat to withstand the dust and leaves in the strong wind.

I was walking aside, my steps were a little slow, my hands on my arms were a little careless.I still only wear one earphone, listening to the music one after another, and paying attention to the voices of netizens and the city at the same time.

The wind brought down a lot of white privets and fell on my hair. I didn't pat them off, but I was still thinking about something on my mind. I seemed to have something to say, but I hesitated to speak. I don't know when there was a shadow beside me.

It was unknown, he just stared blankly.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"You have crowned yourself with flowers."

(End of this chapter)