35 this year

Chapter 25 I don't want women's pain to come from the same sex

One day, when Sheng Min came home with a smile on his face, his steps became lighter, humming a little tune, Huang Guanyang felt a little strange.Huang Guanyang has officially switched to sales, and the recent orders are slightly less than before, but fortunately, it's okay.When Sheng Min came back, he had just finished calling the client.

Sheng Min has learned to arrange the shoes that have been taken off, and also learned to take off the coat when entering the door, and then hang the coat on the special clothes rack.After finishing all this, Sheng Min looked towards the kitchen. There was no food in the kitchen, only the dishes that he hadn't had time to wash in the morning.

Sheng Min asked him, "Did you not eat dinner?"

Huang Guanyang said, "I've been busy all the time." When he said this, Huang Guanyang pretended to be looking at the computer, but his eyes followed Sheng Min's figure. He felt that Sheng Min was a little different today.

Sheng Min was indeed different, because she was going to work in Changqing's company soon, and she didn't know how to tell Huang Guanyang the news.Because of what Huang Guanyang said before, she told Chang Qing that she didn't go because Xu Hong didn't like Chang Qing, but she didn't think about it until a few days later. Xu Hong didn't necessarily care whether Chang Qing flattered her or not. What Sheng Min said would make Chang Qing misunderstand that Xu Hong meant it.Now that Xu Hong is back, she really agreed with her going to Changqing Company, so does it mean that Huang Guanyang didn't want her to go from the beginning?But why didn't he want her to go?He didn't want her to go, why didn't he just say it directly, instead he wanted to lead her guess about Chang Qing?

After thinking about it all the way, Sheng Min didn't think about how to tell Huang Guanyang, but she couldn't hide her happiness. She was really happy. After more than ten years, she was finally able to return to work in a regular company. She can wear beautiful clothes and take pictures in the spacious and bright office again, and she no longer has to feel guilty about the past disguises that deceived fans.Sheng Min has even longed for the company's decoration design, is it the same as Huang Guanyang's office that he has seen before?

Seeing Sheng Min rummaging through boxes and cabinets as soon as he came back, Huang Guanyang became more and more curious.Finally he couldn't take it anymore.Huang Guanyang asked, "What are you looking for?"

"clothing."

"what clothes?"

Sheng Min brushed back her messy hair, and lifted out the box under the bed.This box was packed when she left from her ex-husband. She didn't have many things, not even a small hobby.

Sheng Min opened the box, pulled out a pack of clothes sealed in a vacuum bag, and spread them out on the bed one by one, asking Huang Guanyang, "Are these clothes not very good?"

Huang Guanyang went over to check it out, and said, "It's a little yellow, anyway, it doesn't matter, and you don't wear it."

Sheng Min said, "Can you accompany me to buy some clothes tomorrow?"

"Why?" Intuition told Huang Guanyang that something bad seemed to be happening.

Sheng Min put on a dejected look and said, "Changqing went to our store today and talked about working in his company again, and I agreed..." Sheng Min thought, no matter what Huang Guanyang thinks, she will pretend to be pitiful first. There is nothing wrong with it.

"You agreed?" Huang Guanyang raised his tone involuntarily, and an incredible aura filled every corner of the room.

Sheng Min lowered his head again, "I also know that you are worried about me, you are afraid that I will not be able to do well, and you are afraid that Chang Qing will be difficult to do, but I asked Xu Hong, and Xu Hong said it would be a big deal to go back to the restaurant, anyway, the waiter You can do your work anywhere, anytime.”

After Sheng Min finished speaking, Huang Guanyang put on an absurd face. Sheng Min felt that this should be mocking her.Huang Guanyang said, "You can be a waiter anywhere, anytime? Do you think it's so easy to find a job as a waiter? Do you know how long I've been with the boss? It’s easy to agree that you don’t know anything. If you say you don’t do it now, you won’t do it. How can I explain to them? You can be a waiter at any time. Who do you think you are? The streets are full of people. Why should they be I want you, how old are you? If you can’t work in the company, you still want to be a waiter? Then you can only wash the dishes. You can’t even wash the dishes at home, and you still want to go outside ?”

Sheng Min's nerves were tensed by Huang Guanyang's yelling. In a panic, she said, "Is it hard to say? I didn't think about it so much. I thought that cousin Chang Qing's restaurant should be easy to talk about. I originally planned to talk about it tomorrow night shift... ...If it's hard to say, you can ask Chang Qing for help..."

"Why does Chang Qing help you? Do you really think that she is helping you? How many times have you said that he is trying to curry favor with Xu Hong! And that Xu Hong, do you really think she is so noble? You Do you really think she is right? Let me tell you, I will put my words here today, she will be with Chang Qing sooner or later, only a fool would reject a man like Chang Qing. "

"How can you say that..."

"Then what do you want me to say? Do you know what kind of house Changqing's parents live in? He said that his parents are living in the country for the elderly, so they really are in the country? The country is different from the country, just like you and the country. Xu Hong is the same. You both graduated from the same university, the same major, and the same age. Do you think you two are the same? You don’t even earn a quarter of hers, and you will never become Xu Hong. It's like Chang Qing will never like you!" After Huang Guanyang finished speaking, Sheng Min's face collapsed, and tears hung in his eyes.

"How can you say that, why do I want Chang Qing to like me? According to what you said, Chang Qing doesn't like me. If you like me, aren't you not as good as Chang Qing? Did I tell you that?"

"Do I need to say this? Don't you know it yourself? People, it's important to have self-knowledge. I already knew that I am not as good as Chang Qing." Huang Guanyang knew from a young age that he was not as good as Chang Qing. Well, so good that everyone he knew, down to the dead girl's parents, favored him.

"It's too much!" Sheng Min finally realized that Huang Guanyang was going too far. In the past, Huang Guanyang always disliked her for her poor cooking, poor housework, tasteless clothes, rough skin, and even her falling off. A hair on the ground can be said to be sloppy.Sheng Min thought it was her own problem, because her ex-husband was not at home for more than [-] days a month, so she could live as she wanted, so facing Huang Guanyang's disgust, she changed everything she could, just for that damned Love, but Huang Guanyang never seems to be for the sake of love, and she is merciful. She can no longer use the theory of "no good things to say in a quarrel" to comfort herself.

"I'm also doing it for your own good. I've told you again and again, and I think I've made it very clear. I don't know why you were fooled by that Xu Hong and listened to her. That's right, Xu Hong, he really She can fool around and talk at length, if I was Chang Qing, I wouldn't listen to her nagging, this kind of woman deserves to be single for the rest of her life."

Sheng Min doesn't have Yuhe's heart to protect her friends, she just feels wronged, and there may be a little bit of unwillingness in this grievance, but she can't do anything about this unwillingness, because there is really no way, it's not that she doesn't want to work, She tried her best, but she couldn't, so when Chang Qing said it again, her heart was moved, she just didn't dare, she just needed someone to push her and give her a reason, which Xu Hong gave, Moreover, the logic was self-consistent and reasonable. When Xu Hong pushed her who was hesitant to move forward, Sheng Min felt as if he had a protection, so he really stepped forward.But now, when Huang Guanyang said it, Sheng Min felt that even the "pushing" that she was grateful for seemed to be showing off her victory to her. You see, Xu Hong is better than you, or better than you, so damn it Jealousy seems to jump out again.

Looking at the bewildered Sheng Min, Huang Guanyang re-examined the current "situation". If he blindly prevented Sheng Min from going to Changqing Company, not only Sheng Min, but also Chang Qing would doubt his little selfishness again, and even more so. Not to mention that crazy woman Xu Hong is back now.Chang Qing, Huang Guanyang doesn't care, he doesn't have much contact with Sheng Min, he won't talk about it, but Xu Hong is different, that woman's eyes are too vicious and her mouth is too harsh, if she sees something, Sheng Min's heart towards him might also be shaken.

Let Sheng Min go to the company and hit the south wall, if you hit the south wall, you will know that the world is difficult.Thinking of this, Huang Guanyang gently hugged Sheng Min's shoulder, and said, "You can go, I will accompany you to buy some clothes tomorrow, and try it on. Yes, you can also ask me, I have been working for so many years anyway, and I have more experience than you, I will help you, don't hold back." Huang Guanyang's attitude changed too quickly, Sheng Min's eyes It brought suspicion.Huang Guanyang said again, "I just hope that you put my opinion first. I am the most important thing in your heart. After all, life is lived by the two of us. We will be together for many years. We are the ones who rely on each other." .” Sheng Min thought, this should be regarded as caring, right?Do you care?probably.It turns out that Huang Guanyang's love still exists.

Yu He didn't know about Jing Jing's appointment with Xu Hong until the next day. When she found out, Xu Hong was putting on makeup.In order to prevent his colleague Qi Chen from using the bathroom for too long and wasting time, Xu Hong woke up early.

While putting on makeup, Xu Hong posted this information in the chat group.Seeing the information, Yu He weighed it over and over again, and decided to confess to Xu Hong.But because of guilty conscience and not wanting Sheng Min to know that he had "betrayed" his friend, Yu He chose to call Xu Hong.

After receiving Yuhe's call, Xu Hong frowned slightly. Yuhe and Sheng Min seldom called her. The three of them all posted messages in the group, and they would reply naturally when they saw it. It doesn't matter if they don't reply. .

Xu Hong picked up the phone and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Hmm..." Yuhe spoke for a long time, then said hesitantly, "There is something I want to tell you."

Yuhe's hesitation made Xu Hong stop brushing his eyelashes, and Xu Hong asked, "What's wrong?"

"Is An Jing asking you out? Is it Chang Qing's business?"

"It should be." When Xu Hong said this, his tone was not very good, and she was ready to be questioned quietly.

Yu He was silent for a while and said, "She also asked me about you and Chang Qing before, that is when she was asked to help Nuo Nuo with admission." "Huh?" Xu Hong stopped his movements again and waited. Yuhe finished speaking.Yu He continued, "She asked me about the two of you, and I thought that if I let her know, maybe she would break up with Chang Qing, and Nuonuo's admission to the kindergarten might be hopeless, so...so I lied Say you don't like Changqing, say you two have only known each other for three or four days."

After hearing this, Xu Hong felt that this was not a lie, it was basically true.Xu Hong put on a nonchalant tone and said, "What did she say about Nuonuo entering the kindergarten?"

"Huh? Ah..." Yu He obviously didn't expect Xu Hong to skip this question, because in Yu He's view, Xu Hong liked Chang Qing a little bit, or he cared a little bit.Yu He remembered the photo of the desk that Xu Hong posted in the group on his first day of employment. On the desk was a transparent box similar to jewelry, and the box contained withered light purple roses.

"Ah, she said that their school will open a special class, and it is expected to start next spring or autumn. Let me know if you have any news."

"Well... that's it, then I have a better attitude towards others today. For our Nuonuo, I can bear it." Xu Hong felt that he could bend and stretch, and he could do a small job. After working for so many years, he didn't learn anything else. Thick ability is still a bit.

Hearing what Xu Hong said, Yu He was even a little grateful, and Xu Hong said, "It's not a big deal, and you're right. If she treats me badly today, I'll kill Chang Qing tonight." After finishing, Xu Hong hung the earrings on her ears, she thought that Yuhe should feel better after saying this.Sure enough, Yuhe laughed out loud after hearing this.

Because Yu He said so, Xu Hong wanted to buy Jing Jing a gift, as a thank you for her help Yu He.Xu Hong walked around the mall for a long time, and picked out a moderately priced special-shaped pearl bracelet. The clerk wrapped it beautifully, and Xu Hong put it in his handbag.

When Xu Hong arrived at the appointed place, An Jing was already there.As soon as Xu Hong entered the restaurant, he saw An Jing looking at the door. She should be paying attention to the person at the door all the time.Seeing Xu Hong coming in, An Jing showed a happy smile on her face, so Xu Hong smiled friendly at her and walked over under the guidance of the waiter.

After exchanging pleasantries, Xu Hong presented the gift, and Jing Jing showed joy and apology on his face.She said, "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't expect to exchange gifts with you at all, what a shame."

"You're welcome, I just chose it on a whim. I heard from Yuhe that you helped her a lot. I also like that child Nuonuo very much, so thank you very much." When Xu Hong said this, Quiet The packaging has been unpacked.

Opening the box, the small and exquisite shaped pearls looked even more delicate and lovely when worn on her not round but fair wrist.Quietly said gratefully, "It's really beautiful, I like it very much."

Xu Hong could see that the quiet expression was not pretending, so he said, "My current boss is very partial to pearls, which made me like them too, and I think pearls suit you very well."

"I heard that your current job is not going well?"

"Hmm...Chang Qing said it?" Xu Hong deliberately brought the topic to Chang Qing, and a smile appeared on An Jing's face.Jing Jing said, "You don't know, but he never calls me in the middle of the night. He called me several times yesterday. He must ask me why I was looking for you and why I was looking for you. He seems very worried."

Xu Hong had an apologetic smile on his face, waiting for An Jing to continue.Jing Jing said, "Well... are you very nervous? Do you think I want to ask the teacher for a crime? As a girlfriend?" Xu Hong still didn't speak, but Jing Jing could feel that Xu Hong was already a little uncomfortable.

Jing Jing showed a rare playfulness and said, "I'm not someone who makes things difficult for women because of men. Isn't it stupid to make things difficult for the same sex for a man?" After finishing speaking, Jing Jing even tilted her head, expecting Xu Hong's reply.Looking at her, Xu Hong showed a relieved smile, and Xu Hong felt that maybe things were not as bad as she thought.

"You agree, don't you? I heard that they talked about you many times, so I think you should be like this." Xu Hong nodded, thinking that An Jing was a bit surprising.

"Actually, I'm looking for you today, not for anything else, but because I don't understand something, can I tell you directly? For example, they said that you and Chang Qing have only known each other for three or four days, and you haven't spent much time together. If this is the case, why does Chang Qing like you so much? And I can't figure it out, since he likes you, why does he accept the arrangement at home and date me? He probably doesn't like me, but he seems to be Accept to marry me. He said that marriage has nothing to do with liking. Can this be said blatantly? Anyone who gets married still wants to marry someone with even a little friendship. How can he do what he said? Peace of mind? I don't quite understand."

After listening to Jing Jing, Xu Hong sighed softly and said, "Maybe, this is his twist. I don't know if you can understand, there is a kind of person who is between 'the person he wants to be' and 'the person he wants to be'." Among the people he can become, although I don't know him very well, in my opinion, Chang Qing is such a person. He wants to marry freely, but he can't be that kind of person, even though he It’s very disrespectful to you, but as far as I know, his parents have always wanted to trade his marriage for something, maybe contacts, maybe resources. But you want to say that his parents treat him badly, it seems that there is no , so he has no reason to refute. And I always feel that what he likes is not the real me. We only know each other for three or four days, and he doesn’t know me at all. How can this be called liking? I’m not very Believe in love at first sight, so I always feel that Changqing just regards me as an illusion, a goal, a way for him to become 'the person he wants to be'. We have never really been together. If we were together, say Maybe he won't like it that much, he will see the ordinary side of me, no halo, no hallucinations, everything is tattered."

"Why don't you be with him, can't you be together? I heard that when you first met, you happened to be free, so why don't you just come here to find a job? Then you won't have a chance ?"

"You should be young, right? Or your job is very stable. If you happen to lose a good job when you are about 30 years old, then you will find that you want to find another one of the same level. A job like this, or a job better than it is simply as difficult as reaching the sky. Isn’t it incredible? When we graduate, don’t we need a few years of experience to find a job? I'm 30 years old, once I gain experience, I'm a senior in the company. I have a lot of experience, and there are many companies rushing to get it. But the truth is not true, especially for ordinary people, they always play bright and beautiful on TV. On the one hand, women always wear exquisite makeup, wear beautiful high heels, and walk out of the office with a rattling sound, but this is not the case, or there is, but my level is not enough, I am just an ordinary person, there is For quite a long time, I put on makeup and went to work with only one purpose, that is, if I died today, I would die beautifully. For me, work is like this, it will kill me anytime, anywhere. You I just said it very euphemistically, empty window? To put it bluntly, it means unemployment. As a 35-year-old woman who is unmarried and has no children, do you know how difficult it is to find another job? The recruiter is worried that you will go there at any time Married and have children, your colleagues are worried that you will increase your workload at any time because of your life decisions. Even if you tell them that you are not married, no one can rest assured, because any unmarried and childless woman in her 30s, in the workplace At least they think so. Under such circumstances, do you think I dare to change cities easily? I have stayed in that city for seven or eight years, and I have familiar so-called contacts. There are colleagues and bosses who recognize me, but even so, I still need to rely on interview software to find a job, and people only have a little bit of appreciation for me after seeing my work resume and the influence of my company in the local area. It is in this situation that I found my current job. So do you think, can I change cities easily? I came here, which is equivalent to a brand new start. A man? To put it bluntly, Chang Qing is not worthy, he is not that important, and my self-esteem does not allow me to rely on a man to survive, I am not that shameless."

"Well... do you have to have a job? Isn't there a lot of people, isn't Yuhe a full-time mother?"

"Yuhe has her life focus. If I have a child like Nuonuo, maybe I will choose to take care of him at home, but this is on the premise that there is no one to rely on. If Yuhe's mother comes Helping her take care of the children, I'm sure Yuhe will come out to find a job non-stop. Yuhe chooses a full-time mother not because she can't work. Before giving birth to Nuonuo, Yuhe had a very good job and her writing is very good. Their company She needs to write or review the leader's speeches, event speeches, and all their company's external releases. She chooses to stay at home just because of Nuonuo. She has no choice. In fact, I think no matter who, She must have a job that allows her to make ends meet, and she must have the ability. My mother has never had a job all her life, so she dared not make any changes in her life, because she felt that she might not be able to live without that family and that man, Even her daughter can't be trusted. Does she really feel that her daughter has no ability to support her? No, she feels that she has no choice, and she has lost the desire to choose. So, I keep reminding myself that I must not be my mother For a person like that, even if she endured hardships and gave birth to me, even if she thinks she has to compromise for the sake of her child, I still don’t want to be her.”

"So, because of this, you have to work. Can I ask a question that may embarrass you? Please answer me truthfully. If you meet Chang Qing while you have a job, will you like him?"

Xu Hong was silent for a moment, then Xu Hong said relievedly, "Who knows, the world is the most unpredictable, and I never over-speculate. I admit that I have a little affection for him, but it's just that little, then A little favor isn't enough for me to give up anything."

"Well... even if it's just a little bit, you really have a heart for him, right? I understand that, it's okay, right? In this case, you have a job now, why do you still have that attitude towards him? You don't intend to Give each other a chance?"

Looking at the quiet and innocent face, Xu Hong said, "On the night when I decided to accept the current job, Chang Qing told me that he had a girlfriend. Maybe the timing was really wrong. I just met his At that time, I didn’t have a job. When I got a job, he had a girlfriend again. I was pursued by someone who had a girlfriend, and I was chased by someone’s girlfriend, what can you do... I have seen There are too many women’s pains, no matter whether the society admits it or not, women’s lives are harder than men’s, it’s already like this, I don’t want women’s pains to come from the same sex, at least it shouldn’t come from me, so I will never Don't allow myself to be the same-sex victimizer, and if my heartbeat is going to hurt another girl, I'll stop it."

"What if, my girlfriend, leave? Doesn't anyone get hurt?"

"Huh? Why?" Jing Jing said decisively, and Xu Hong became confused.

Quietly said "Because I don't know what liking is, you might laugh at me, I've never been liked by anyone, and I've never liked anyone, I don't seem to be interested in anyone, but I don't think so either. There is nothing wrong with me like this. But now in front of me, people I know are actually performing so-called love, and I just want to see what it is. To be honest, compared to Chang Qing, I care more You. Every time they tell me, I'm curious, and this is the first time I've been curious about people, so I want to see what this is, okay?"

After An Jing finished speaking, Xu Hong showed an unpredictable expression on his face.Before coming here, Xu Hong made all the preparations, but now those preparations are useless. This innocent girl has seriousness written all over her face.

Xu Hong thought, what does she mean by this?She asked me to fall in love with her boyfriend?Immediately, Xu Hong's whole body showed resistance, and his chin was slightly lifted up.

"Can you?" Seeing Xu Hong's expression, An Jing begged her again.Xu Hong yelled out.

(End of this chapter)