35 this year

Chapter 40 Mom, I'm Sorry

Xu Hong went to Chang Qing at night after An Jing left.

Xu Hong sat downstairs in Chang Qing's house, seeing the lights in his room turned on, Xu Hong wondered, does he come home on time after work every day, and what does he do in the house?His bedroom has never been seen by Xu Hong. Is there any secret hidden there?Xu Hong, very little is known about Chang Qing.

When Chang Qing received Xu Hong's call, he was in a daze in the room.The newly purchased coffee table arrived, and Chang Qing placed it in front of the sofa, constantly adjusting the position, and sat there when he felt comfortable.He is good at waiting, but the days of waiting are too boring and too frustrating.The phone screen lit up and the ringtone rang, and Chang Qing saw the exclusive title "girlfriend" he gave Xu Hong.

Chang Qing answered the phone and said hello, Xu Hong sighed and asked, "Are you busy now?"

Chang Qing shook his head and said in the negative, Xu Hong said, "Then can you listen to me?"

Chang Qing asked, "Where are you now?"

"Your house is downstairs."

"Wait for me to come down." As Chang Qing said, he went to put on his shoes, and when his hand touched the doorknob, Xu Hong said, "Can you not come down yet?"

Xu Hong's words made Chang Qing's heart tremble, and Chang Qing asked, "Are you here to break up? I don't agree, Xu Hong, let me tell you, I don't agree. You think it through, and you play this trick with me again." , I will never forgive you."

Xu Hong breathed a sigh of relief again and said, "Ah, sure enough, his temper is not that good..." Chang Qing walked to the balcony, and saw Xu Hong sitting on a rest chair, a small person with his head raised, as if Looking into his room.But Chang Qing also knew that Xu Hong couldn't see him because the floor was too high.

"Chang Qing, do you really want to be with me? It's troublesome to be with me, and you will have a hard time."

"Ok, I know."

"So, even if you know, you still want to be with me?"

"Well, I like you." After Chang Qing finished speaking, Xu Hong's chuckle came from the phone. The breath was slightly weak, and Chang Qing saw that Xu Hong seemed to lower his head.

"Chang Qing, do you want to try it with me?"

"No one confessed on the phone."

"Then you come down." After Xu Hong's permission, Chang Qing went downstairs and took a coat when he went downstairs. He felt that Xu Hong didn't seem to be wearing much.

Seeing Chang Qing coming out of the unit door, Xu Hong waved at him. When Chang Qing walked in front of her, he realized that she was well dressed, but she had become thinner recently, making her look even weaker.

Chang Qing stood in front of Xu Hong, and Xu Hong said, "Can you sit down, you are so condescending." Chang Qing knelt down on her knees, and Xu Hong looked at her and said, "Qi Chen that day Did you see you? She said you are still a handsome guy." After speaking, Xu Hong held Chang Qing's face and said, "Ah, you are so old, why are you still so young? Is there no woman tormenting you? ?” After finishing speaking, Xu Hong smiled again, deliberately making a teasing smile on his tired face and asked, “Do you want me to torture you?”

Chang Qing nodded, and said with a tolerant smile on his face again, "Welcome."

Xu Hong looked at him and said, "That's not okay. With your smile, it's easy to abduct women home."

"Then do you want to go home with me?"

"You hug me, and I'll go back with you."

Chang Qing smiled softly, and really hugged Xu Hong, Xu Hong asked, "I made you sad, didn't I?" Chang Qing nodded, and Xu Hong said, "But what to do, I am also very sad, I will get better Yes, you can give me a few days, can you, just a few days, I can adjust very quickly."

"Okay." With Chang Qing's promise, Xu Hong really followed him home.

After returning home, Xu Hong saw that Chang Qing really bought the tea table she recommended, and then looked at Chang Qing and said, "Is my vision good?" Chang Qing nodded, helped her take off his coat and said, "Well, it's very Beautiful." Then, Chang Qing asked her, "Do you want to change clothes, I bought home clothes for you." After speaking, he went to the cabinet to get them, and continued to say, "It has been washed and can be worn."

Xu Hong wondered how this person could be so thoughtful, and then said, "Then I want to take a shower before changing clothes. Can you cook a bowl of noodles for me while I'm taking a shower? I want to fry a burnt poached egg." Chang Qing stroked her Chang Qing liked to touch Xu Hong's neck. Xu Hong used to have a round face, but now the entire jaw line is obvious, and Chang Qing felt a little pitiful when he touched it.

After Xu Hong took a shower, changed his clothes, and ate noodles, the two of them lay on the sofa. Chang Qing took a thick blanket and covered them. The TV was turned on, and a short TV series played by a parent was played casually, so that There was some noise in the house.Xu Hong didn't seem to find a comfortable position. He leaned against Chang Qing's arms for a while, lay on his chest for a while, turned over and lay in his arms for a while, and finally listened.Chang Qing stroked the hair on her forehead and kissed her again.

Feeling that he found a comfortable position, Xu Hong stopped moving, and then stared at the ceiling, but his mind was empty, and then Xu Hong asked, "Chang Qing, can you ask for leave tomorrow and stay with me for a day?" "Yes." Chang Qing nodded, and Xu Hong asked again, "Excuse me, will your boss disagree?" Chang Qing smiled and said, "No, he is my cousin, not so strict."

Xu Hong nodded, hummed and said, "My boss is not so strict anymore, she hasn't scolded me recently." After speaking, Xu Hong asked again, "You seem to have many brothers and sisters..." The company is a cousin Yes, the western restaurant belongs to my cousin, and my cousin helped to pick out the bag.

Chang Qing gently stroked her hair and said, "I told you, my grandfather had many brothers in his generation, seven or eight. My grandfather was the youngest of the brothers, and my father was the youngest of their brothers, so I almost And the youngest of our siblings."

"Isn't that very favored?"

Chang Qing nodded and said, "Well, I have a preference."

"I used to not feel that I was favored by others, but recently, I feel that my luck is not bad. I am always favored by others, favored by you, favored by Minmin, favored by Yuhe, favored by Jingjing..."

"Well, there is also Huang Guanyang." When Chang Qing said this, Xu Hong gave a questioning hum, looked up at him, and Chang Qing touched her head again and said, "Huang Guanyang scolded me that day, saying how could I be treated like a fool?" boyfriend."

Displeasure appeared on Xu Hong's face, and he put his head back into Chang Qing's arms and said, "I must sue Minmin some other day. He thinks he has done a good job, so he dares to call my boyfriend." There was a little anger on her face, Chang Qing looked and looked softly with her eyes, and touched and touched her head with her hands.

Maybe it's because Chang Qing's room is too soft, or maybe it's because Chang Qing is too soft, or maybe Xu Hong is really exhausted to the extreme, Xu Hong's eyes gradually lose their luster, staring at a place absently, and his eyelids gradually fade away. There was a fight.

Xu Hong said, "Chang Qing, can you not call me tomorrow?"

"Well, you can sleep as long as you want." After Chang Qing answered, Xu Hong really closed his eyes, and when Xu Hong fell into a deep sleep, Chang Qing carried her into his bedroom.Looking at Xu Hong, Chang Qing felt distressed, touched her head again and again, kissed her on the forehead and said, "It will get better." In fact, Xu Hong underestimated Chang Qing. Chang Qing had experienced death. When his "ex-girlfriend" died, so did Chang Qing.At that time, he also shielded everyone from the outside, thinking that it was his own problem, that he was the one who promoted the death, but death is a momentary thing, and the living will always get better, so Xu Hong will get better sooner or later.

Because of Chang Qing's relationship, Xu Hong slept a little deeper, and slept until noon in a daze. If it wasn't for the physical difficulty of going to the toilet, she thought she would still sleep.When Xu Hong opened her eyes, the curtains in the room were tightly drawn, and the light-shielding effect was very good. The light coming through the edge of the curtains told her that it was getting late.

Xu Hong got up and drew the curtains to see the layout of Changqing's house. It turned out that besides the bedroom, there was also a small balcony with a small table and rocking chairs, and some books on the table.Xu Hong flipped through the books one by one, and she had read most of them.

Xu Hong came out of the bedroom, and Chang Qing, who was half lying on the sofa looking at the phone, looked away from the phone. Looking at her, Xu Hong took a look and thought that the sunshine outside was not bad.When Xu Hong came out of the toilet, he lay on Chang Qing's body exhausted again.Chang Qing still stroked her hair and asked, "Are you feeling better? What do you want to drink?"

Chang Qing's room was warm, so Xu Hong was very thirsty, Xu Hong said "Ice." "Okay." Chang Qing moved away, went to the kitchen refrigerator to get a drink for her.When Chang Qing came back, Xu Hong was flipping through the book on the back of his sofa.

Chang Qing handed her the drink and said, "This looks pretty."

Xu Hong nodded and said, "Well, I have read most of Yiyi's books, and I like "The Demon Fox of the Heavenly Emperor" the most. I even recommended it to Minmin, but she couldn't read it."

Chang Qing sat down next to her, and said, "I like "Waiting in the Dark" the most." Xu Hong turned his face, looked at him and said, "You will really like it." After speaking, Xu Hong leaned on Chang Qing , Said, "When I read his books before, I always felt that all his content had the same theme. Human beings are so lonely, really so lonely."

"What else do you like?"

"Hmm... I don't like anything in particular. I can't understand it. At first I couldn't understand Akutagawa Ryunosuke. His "Hell Change" and "In the Bamboo Forest" are very good, but I like "Fool" the most, I remember What touched me the most was the envy of the fool looking at the dead body. Later I went to see Yasunari Kawabata. At first I watched "The Dancer of Izu", but I didn't feel it. I didn't understand the girl's mind until I saw the face of Miura Yuka What should the male protagonist’s face look like? Later I went to watch his "Snow Country", it was futile, everything was in vain. Later I went to see Izumi Kyoka and "Yasha Pond", I always wondered who Snow White was Didn't he know the young master from Thousand Snake Pond before he died, or else one couldn't get out of Yasha Pond and the other couldn't get out of Thousand Snake Pond, how did they love each other, how did they love so deeply... and Edogawa Ranpo , there was a woman named Ashi in it, who suffocated her husband to death in a box, and then took her son and her inheritance and flew away... I also read a poison handbook, saying that women use poison to kill people, and I also think there is something wrong with it. It makes sense... Later, I got tired of reading these, so I went to watch domestic ones. A few days ago, I told Qi Chaoli, my boss, "is it right that it has always been like this?" In fact, Lu Xun's favorite is that The sentence, "In the world of life, it is possible that sometimes it is inevitable"... Ah, Qi Chaoli should listen to it, she always said that she likes women who have studied, and I probably didn't pass her. "

Listening to her nagging, Chang Qing felt that he probably could understand why Xu Hong was so sad, it was so sad, the life written in the text was too sad, and when people looked at it, they all followed along Sad up.

Xu Hong also said, "I, there is a picture book I like the most, called "Energy City", in which there is a gray-headed and gray-faced gray-hearted rabbit, in order to save his lover, he broke into the energy city, and was transformed into a The mechanical rabbit who only knows how to earn batteries, even forgot why he came to work to earn batteries, and even his lover... I still have a little rabbit like that, I think I am a gray-headed, gray-faced, gray-hearted rabbit. After finishing speaking, Xu Hong looked at Chang Qing again and said, "Quiet told me that I have serious character flaws, do you mind?"

Chang Qing shook his head and said, "No."

"Then can we go out to eat? I'm hungry, and I want to drink a glass of mulled wine and go for a walk in the park." Xu Hong didn't know whether Chang Qingai liked to listen to her nagging about the above, ordinary people, Especially men, hearing what she said should be boring, even bored, thinking why this woman is acting like this, as if she had read a few books.

Chang Qing drove Xu Hong to a more prosperous street. The two parked the car and walked through the crowd. Xu Hong held Chang Qing's arm tightly, and Chang Qing got closer to her.

Chang Qing asked her what she wanted to eat, Xu Hong said whatever she wanted, and the two of them really ate some soup like wonton in a small shop. After eating, Xu Hong seemed to have regained some strength. The two went for a walk in the nearby park.

The weather was fine today, and there were a lot of people walking. Chang Qing led Xu Hong, and Xu Hong held his arm. The two walked slowly.Chang Qing's cell phone would ring from time to time, Xu Hong asked him if he had work to do, Chang Qing said it would take a few minutes, and Xu Hong sat on the bench and waited for him.

When Chang Qing was dealing with work, Xu Hong wondered if he was so busy, shouldn't he ask for leave to accompany him.After Chang Qing finished processing, he saw Xu Hongqing's cold face.Chang Qing smiled gently at her and said, "What's wrong?"

Xu Hong said, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

Chang Qing held her in his arms, kissed her on the forehead and said, "It's okay." Chang Qing looked at Xu Hong and said, "Xu Hong, I hope we can walk in the park like this when we are old."

Xu Hong smiled and said, "Then you must live a long life, I may not be able to. I used to think that life was very boring. Didn't you always say that I worked hard for me? It's really hard work." Xu Hong couldn't help but shed tears again as he spoke.Xu Hong continued, "I always feel that life is aimless, and I don't know when I will be the leader, so I thought about an age for myself before. I want to live until I am 60 years old. As long as I am 60 years old, I will go to euthanasia. ..." In fact, Xu Hong hadn't thought of this "idea" for a long time. After all, she just wanted to relieve herself when she was irritated by work, but now she understands the possibility of ending this aimless life. Only death, she remembered again.Xu Hong thought in his heart that death is really contagious.

Chang Qing gently patted her head and said, "It doesn't matter, anyway, we still have half the time, we can take our time and love each other well." Does it matter, Xu Hong thought, Chang Qing also rarely heard her After this remark, people who told her that it didn't matter, in the past, whether it was Yuhe, Sheng Min, or other colleagues, said that she was thinking wildly. Xu Hong felt embarrassed, but now Chang Qing told her that it didn't matter, just like when he told Xu Hong that smoking is your freedom, Xu Hong felt ashamed of him in his heart.

The two were sitting, and Xu Hong saw that there was a seller of candied haws. This is a common snack in the northern winter, and it is also a favorite snack for northern children like Xu Hong.Xu Hong said, "Chang Qing, I want to eat candied haws. I must eat this in winter, the one with the core removed, the most common kind." Chang Qing smiled and said, "Okay, wait a minute."

Watching Chang Qing go to buy what she wanted, Xu Hong thought, I really can't go on like this... Mom, I'm sorry, I have to let you go and move forward, my lover is waiting for me, I let him I've been waiting for too long, I'm afraid he'll be sad, so I don't want him to wait, I can't let him wait...

(End of this chapter)