Reborn, I will never be a licking dog

Chapter 632 Please take this memory with you and live happily ever after with him. (7k [-]-in-[-]!)
An Xiaomi, to be precise, is An Xiaomi from the previous life.

He once made promises to Xu Zhimu three times, but also lied three times.

When I was a sophomore in high school, I faced Xu Zhimu who was inferior and paranoid, and even fought for her.

An Xiaomi knew that he couldn't be allowed to continue like this.

At that time, An Xiaomi was not only worried about her body, but also had some arrogance in her heart.

After all, An Xiaomi's parents are the best among ordinary people.

Xiaomi's mother runs her own dance organization, and An's father has climbed from a young policeman to the position of deputy director.

At the income level of that era, An Xiaomi's family was considered wealthy.

After all, in a few more years, the per capita salary will be less than one or two thousand dollars, and it is petty bourgeoisie to have a small million in savings at home. Even Wang Jianlin's level says that he can retire if he can earn a small goal.

If it wasn't for An Xiaomi's illness, she would have lived a life that many people would envy.

Of course, the most important thing is the life of An's father, just like the hero of Shuangwen in an online novel.

Born in poverty, with no strength and no background, but with his own efforts, he lost the school beauty and won a scholarship.Prior to graduation, they have already been focused on training.

He has been on the front line all the year round, "scraping dungeons to fight monsters and upgrade", and he has climbed up to the position of deputy director in just six or seven years with the military exploits accumulated in the battle.

For a person with no background, to be able to get to this point must have extraordinary firmness and pride, and the obsession to do everything to the extreme and change his life.

An Xiaomi was influenced by her father's thoughts since she was a child, and she is actually a very proud person in her bones.

An Xiaomi still remembers that on the night when they met for the first time, Xu Zhimu stretched out his hand to herself, and said in a childish and firm voice, "Sister Xiaomi, I will take good care of you for a while!"

That was Xu Zhimu's promise to An Xiaomi, and An Xiaomi has been looking forward to the day when the two grow up.

At the beginning, they were all children and couldn't see anything, but gradually with their studies and the awakening of gender awareness.

The gap between Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi has actually been slowly widening since elementary school.

An Xiaomi may not care about other people's opinions, but she cannot look at Xu Zhimu a little bit, and give up her life and ideals because of herself.

Because she knew that Xu Zhimu's potential was not limited to that.

Loving someone doesn't have to be done wholeheartedly.

But you must always be able to protect the people you like.

If this continues, Xu Zhimu's future may only become more "ordinary".

If it is true that Xu Zhimu can only be admitted to an ordinary undergraduate in the future, the two people will be separated from different cities and different universities, no matter how much they like each other, the distance and level will always cause some rifts between the two.

As long as you are human, you cannot avoid it.

Therefore, An Xiaomi didn't want to see that day, and she also knew the feeling of being ridiculed when two people didn't match.

After all, when Dad was courting Mom, he was often talked about behind his back as a toad eating swan meat, eating soft rice, etc... Even Xiaomi's mother's family members were not satisfied.

It wasn't until An Xiaomi's father successfully entered the establishment and was promoted all the way that these voices disappeared completely.

So An Xiaomi didn't want Xu Zhimu to experience what his father had experienced before.

And at that time, An Xiaomi was only a girl of sixteen or seventeen, just in puberty, no matter her appearance, figure, study, or even family, she was much superior to most of her peers.

Naturally, the girl still had some arrogance in her heart. Xu Zhimu, who couldn't even fulfill her own promise, was inferior and paranoid, did not meet her expectations.

However, she is still willing to give Xu Zhimu opportunities again and again, and wants to become better with him.

Because at that time, she also had a little fantasy in her heart, if... she can survive the future disaster, then the two of them can really fulfill the promise they made when they were young, to be with each other forever.

Therefore, the first promise An Xiaomi made to him was that as long as he could enter the key class when he was re-classified in the third year of high school, then he could give him an answer.

In fact, this sentence was a powerful medicine that An Xiaomi gave Xu Zhimu.

One can imagine how difficult it is to go from the end of the crane to the key class within half a year.

But what An Xiaomi didn't expect was that Xu Zhimu actually improved his grades a lot in one year. When he was re-segregated into classes in the third year of high school, he successfully entered An Xiaomi's key class.

This made An Xiaomi more certain that Xu Zhimu's potential was more than that.

So, when Xu Zhimu nervously and excitedly mentioned the promise he had made to An Xiaomi.

"Xiaomi, what we said before...is it now..."

An Xiaomi looked at him for a long time, but finally said softly: "Xu Zhimu, although you passed the key class, the final university is our final goal."

Xu Zhimu was stunned for a moment. In the past half a year, he hardly slept before twelve o'clock. He was often sleepy in the middle of the night pinching his face to try to refresh himself. Now he finally arrived at the key class, but the answer he got was...

"Xiaomi, I just want to ask you now, do you like me a little bit after all? I'm talking about the love between men and women."

Xu Zhimu finally couldn't help asking. He seemed to have exhausted all his strength. Although the two of them knew each other well, they really pierced the window paper.

An Xiaomi looked at him. During this time, Xu Zhimu's spirit felt a little haggard. An Xiaomi saw his hard work, but she finally shook her head slightly.

"Zhimu, what I can tell you is that if I, An Xiaomi, would choose someone to accompany me, that person must be you, but I can't promise you yet."

This sentence is like agreeing, but also like rejecting.

Even giving Xu Zhimu a feeling of being a good guy, Xu Zhimu suppressed his emotions: "Not now, when will it be?"

Xu Zhimu looked at An Xiaomi. He really couldn't control his emotions. He was about to be in his third year of high school. In a blink of an eye, he might go his separate ways after college.

He couldn't wait any longer.

"Xiaomi, I like you, I want to be with you, not a childhood sweetheart, not a brother or sister, but a real love, Xiaomi, can you be my girlfriend?"

When Xu Zhimu said these words tremblingly and excitedly.

An Xiaomi thought blankly for a while, her bright eyes carried emotions that only she could know, her lips opened slightly, but she hesitated to speak for many times.

She knew that Xu Zhimu had held back these words in her heart for more than ten years. If she didn't agree to him now, he might become decadent and paranoid again.

But if she promises him... An Xiaomi doesn't know if she will be able to fulfill the promise she made to him today.

Finally, she gently raised her white neck, trembling with pride that no one else could hear: "I want to be your girlfriend, okay, I will agree when you are admitted to Binhai University with me." you."

At that moment, Xu Zhimu froze in place.

Although Xu Zhimu entered the key class, in the key class, he was still the tail of the crane.

Maybe if you work hard, you can get into a good university, but it is almost impossible to get into a first-class university like Binhai University like An Xiaomi.

During that time, Xu Zhimu did enter a period of confusion again.

But An Xiaomi didn't reject him completely, she would still help him with his homework every day, and even when Xu Zhimu made great progress, she would reward Xu Zhimu to go shopping with him...

During this period, Xu Zhimu mentioned the relationship between the two of them several times, but An Xiaomi always used various excuses to evade it.

Finally, in the second semester of the third year of high school, the school began to organize a weekly mock sprint exam.

Although Xu Zhimu's grades have improved a lot, he can be stabilized at about [-] in the class, and it is not a problem to get a similar one, but he is still a long way from going to Binhai University.

And An Xiaomi's grades to be admitted to Binhai University is already a certainty.

Seeing that it was only the last semester, Xu Zhimu couldn't restrain his heart from layer upon layer of panic.

Especially after class, people who are about to take the college entrance examination will always gather together to imagine their future college life.

"I'll be happy when I go to college, and then I can fall in love with whatever I want, and I can't control if I don't know if I live together at home."

"It's just that if you fail to get into the same school as your partner, you will suffer old crimes. Long-distance relationships must be a couple in a different place."

"Isn't it? Even if you can guarantee that you will not change your mind, you can still guarantee that your partner will not change his mind? The dating teachers in college don't care, and the strong girl can't stand the hooligans."

"Haha, it's better to be single, even if you're in a long-distance relationship. After breaking up, it's better for all four of you."

"Look, July is the breakup season every year. If you want to confess, you have to take advantage of the last few months. Otherwise, she really went to another school, and you have no chance of long-distance relationship..."

Xu Zhimu listened occasionally, feeling more and more uneasy.

He knew that no matter how much he studied, Binhai University was out of reach for him.

As for An Xiaomi, she had already stopped to wait for herself once in high school.

Can't let her be wronged, and accompany me to an ordinary book?
If that was the case, Xu Zhimu would not forgive himself.

But at the age of seventeen or eighteen, how could he completely control his emotions.

Yes, I'm about to graduate soon, if I don't seize the last chance to confess my love, I may really have no chance in the future.

That night, Xu Zhimu prepared a love letter, which was the first among the several love letters he had written in the past ten years, and he dared to put his name on it.

When An Xiaomi came to ask him to review his homework.

Xu Zhimu was clutching the love letter under the table, his palms were sweating a lot.

"What's wrong with you, why are you so hot and sweaty?"

An Xiaomi looked at his nervous appearance, picked up a tissue and wiped him gently.

An Xiaomi had just taken a shower, and her whole body was fragrant, especially in loose pajamas, with a large expanse of snow-white skin, Xu Zhimu, who was in puberty, couldn't help but swallow her saliva.

He said nervously: "Xiaomi, when school is over tomorrow, can you leave a little later?"

"what happened?"

"It's nothing... It's just that I may have to do some errands and go home later."

"Oh, yes, take out today's test paper, and I will tell you..."

The next day, when the school bell rang, An Xiaomi began to organize her things. She picked up her schoolbag, but suddenly found a letter in the middle of the schoolbag.

To be precise, it was a love letter, and the name on it made An Xiaomi's eyes widen suddenly.

"Hi everyone, I'm Xu Zhimu from Class [-], Grade [-], and I want to announce something..."

Suddenly, a familiar voice came from the campus radio. It was just after school, and most of the students were still in school.

At this moment, the students in the class also pricked up their ears one by one.

"Damn it! It sounds like Xu Zhimu's voice?"

"Isn't this a campus broadcast? How did Xu Zhimu get in there?"

"Could it be that he was punished for fighting with someone again, and was asked to review in school again?"

The people in the class were not in a hurry to leave, and many people in the school listened with interest.

But An Xiaomi felt something was wrong. She looked at the love letter in her hand, stood up in a panic, and walked to the window.

The sound of the radio continued.

"In fact, I have been hiding this matter in my heart for more than ten years. From the first time I met you, I knew that I could not avoid you in my life..."

Xu Zhimu spoke slowly in the radio room, and everyone in the school could hear it. I'm afraid it was just to confess.

"Fuck me? Who is this Xu Zhimu? He's really brave enough to confess his love on the radio?"

"This young man, did he become stupid because of too much pressure in the third year of high school?"

At the same time, the school leaders also heard these voices, and the dean walked out of the office.

Looking in the direction of the broadcasting room, the broadcasting room is usually locked, and no one uses it after school, and students usually dare not go in at all, let alone sneak in and use the broadcast to express their love.

"Who is so good at riding a horse?"

The dean was cursing. If something happened, he would lose his bonus for this month.

Trotting all the way to the door of the broadcasting room, he saw Xu Zhimu through the door and window, and immediately became furious. He knew this guy, and he only entered the school after looking for connections.

The black sheep really showed its tail.

"What's the matter with you student, turn off the radio immediately!"

He patted the window and scolded, but Xu Zhimu just glanced at him, put his hand on the switch, not only didn't close it, but turned the volume button to the maximum.

This scene is like a confrontation between Andy and the warden in Shawshank's Redemption.

The dean knocked on the door angrily, but it was already locked.

The whole school was excitedly listening to Xu Zhimu's confession.

In the end, the dean called the security guard and planned to break the door directly.

Xu Zhimu also said the last sentence.

"I know, maybe today is a confession doomed to failure.

However, I also know that if I don't say it, I may not have a chance. Forgive my waywardness, but I must say it.

An Xiaomi from Class [-], Grade [-], I, Xu Zhimu, like you! "

As the confession sound fell, the door of the broadcasting room was also knocked open.

Everyone in the class looked at An Xiaomi by the window.

Holding the love letter in her hand, her body trembled slightly, and a tear fell from the corner of her eye.

"Fool!"

Under everyone's eyes, she also ran out of the classroom.

Everyone knows what happened after that.

Xu Zhimu was almost expelled. It was An's father who came forward to find the school leaders and finally let Xu Zhimu continue to go to school.

Xu's father also directly invited the seven wolves out. If Xu's mother hadn't stopped them, they would probably have been cut off.

And Xu Zhimu, An Xiaomi, seemed to be in a very awkward situation. An Xiaomi didn't say a word to him for half a month.

This confession, which was doomed to fail, naturally failed in the end.

It's just that Xu Zhimu at that time was only concerned with worrying himself secretly, and never paid attention to a single detail.

Even if An Xiaomi was angry again and had a cold war with him, she wouldn't even review her homework with him at night.

But An Xiaomi never refused the love letter he sent.

The story is very long. Since this confession, it seems to have become a new garden.

The end of that story is the beginning of today's story...

……

Zheng Cheng, in the ward.

"This is me and him. It's been nearly 20 years. Everything happened... Sister Ningqing, you should know everything about it."

An Xiaomi finished the last word slowly, her voice was a little dry.

The relationship with Xu Zhimu for nearly 20 years is the biggest hole in her hand.

Now, they have all confessed without reservation.

Liu Ningqing's mind also seemed to have gone through a very, very long movie.

Like an absurd youth comedy, the ending seems regrettable...but it also contains infinite possibilities.

Because the hearts of two people have never left each other behind.

It can only be said that it is impossible for most of us to have youth and feelings about youth at the same time.

Those regrets and misses of youth, wait until a certain day in the future, after a cup of long-time wine, a certain ordinary cup of tea, a piece of familiar music, a bunch of morning sunshine, a drizzle of rain...

We might suddenly smile.

Finally shook his head and sighed softly: "It's so silly, so good."

Liu Ningqing stretched out her hand and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of An Xiaomi's eyes.

An Xiaomi was stunned for a moment, and unknowingly, she cried.

"I'll go get you a glass of water."

Liu Ningqing's voice was gentle, and she went to pour An Xiaomi a glass of warm water. When she came back, she looked at the door for a moment, then turned around slowly, and returned to An Xiaomi's side.

"Then you said at the time that you would agree to him if he was admitted to Binhai University. Did you really think so?"

Liu Ningqing suddenly asked this question softly.

An Xiaomi held the water glass, her eyes flickered, and after a while, her cheeks had a look of nostalgia: "At that time, I really wanted to promise him."

Liu Ningqing's eyes moved slightly, and she lightly looked in the direction outside the door.

An Xiaomi turned her head to look at her, and suddenly smiled: "Sister Ningqing, has he ever told you the story of what he is... a reborn person?"

Liu Ningqing was in a daze for a moment, then smiled lightly: "I said so."

Every time Xu Zhimu told this story, he always had a good look, although their rationality told them that such things did not exist in this world.

However, for Xu Zhimu's words, they will always choose to believe unconditionally,

"It's true, every time this guy talks about these things, it's like it's true."

An Xiaomi couldn't help but smiled, her eyes were dark.

"If according to what he said, in his last life, he chose to repeat his studies and was finally admitted to Binhai University, but I missed the appointment at that time... Maybe in his heart, I was just perfunctory him, and even abandoned him in the end .”

Liu Ningqing was silent, if according to Xu Zhimu's previous statement, An Xiaomi in the previous life had indeed abandoned him suddenly and went to a foreign country.

She looked at Liu Ningqing: "Sister Ningqing, do you still remember that when I was a freshman, I was admitted to the hospital twice?"

Liu Ningqing nodded. Of course she remembered that the first time she found out that An Xiaomi was hospitalized, she was the one who asked Xu Zhimu to visit her in the hospital.

An Xiaomi pursed her lips lightly: "Actually, during the winter hospitalization, I already felt that my physical condition was getting worse and worse. My parents always said that it was because Binhai's winter was colder than Zhengcheng's." The reason, but of course I know my own body, just a few degrees of temperature difference, it is impossible to have such a big effect, the only reason is that my own body is worse than before."

An Xiaomi said with bitterness on his face: "If what he said is true, and I have already spent the first winter in Binhai when he repeats his studies for a year, maybe at that time, I will know my own strength. My body may be even worse than I imagined, so I can only miss the appointment again..."

An Xiaomi shook her head, and finally showed a relieved smile: "Actually, what he said is not bad, no matter what the purpose is, in the end, I did miss the appointment."

Listening, Liu Ningqing felt distressed in her heart. She touched An Xiaomi's cheek lightly: "I don't blame you. If this happened to me, maybe I would make the same decision as you."

In this matter, in fact, no one is wrong. They all want the other party to live better, but ignore the other party's mood. It's just the final ending, which is a bit regrettable.

An Xiaomi smiled and shook her head. She felt the warmth of Liu Ningqing's palm: "Actually, when I first found out that you were together, I was really unwilling. I even thought about telling Xu Zhimu the truth and taking him back to me." next to..."

Liu Ningqing looked at her softly, and remembered the first time the two met in her mind.

In fact, at that time, he and Xu Zhimu hadn't really confirmed their relationship. If An Xiaomi took the initiative to reveal everything at that time, Xu Zhimu would never let her go.

Liu Ningqing's gaze was complicated, but after a while, it finally turned into a gentle tone: "What happened later."

"Later, I was in a hurry and was admitted to the hospital. He came to see me in the hospital. Later, I also knew that it was Sister Ningqing who agreed to him to come. From that moment on, I knew that this guy who was hurt by me, Finally found a gentle girl."

An Xiaomi looked at Liu Ningqing lightly: "I am not reconciled, but at the same time I persuade myself to be reconciled. After all, he can walk with a gentle girl like you, Sister Ningqing, and his life will be happier in the future. Even if one day , I really left, he won't be too sad."

An Xiaomi's words were like confessing his last words.

Liu Ningqing's chest was stuffy, she stroked Xiaomi's cheek: "No, you will be fine."

"Sister Ningqing, you don't need to comfort me. In fact, I have already prepared for this moment."

An Xiaomi gently held Liu Ningqing's hand in her own: "Sister Ningqing, I told you this today to tell you.

Xu Zhimu is indeed a very greedy person, but he is also a very serious person, he will definitely find a way to make the decision he makes in the end.

He will do what he promises you. "

An Xiaomi looked at Liu Ningqing, and she showed a relieved smile: "Sister Ningqing, I know that you have always been inferior in your heart, and you are always afraid that one day you will get farther and farther away from him, but I can be sure now Tell you……"

An Xiaomi put one hand gently on her chest: "Use my nearly 20 years of memories with him to promise, that greedy guy, he will never leave you in his life."

Liu Ningqing's body trembled slightly. In fact, when she heard what Xu Zhimu did for An Xiaomi, she knew that Xu Zhimu was indeed greedy, but he would always use actions to prove himself.

Liu Ningqing looked at An Xiaomi and nodded slightly: "I believe in you, and I believe in him."

An Xiaomi looked at her. At this moment, she seemed to have fulfilled some kind of wish, her bright eyes lowered slightly at this moment.

"Tired?"

Liu Ningqing looked at the time, it was indeed late at night.

She gently supported An Xiaomi to lie on the bed. An Xiaomi's face was still weak, and complex and relieved emotions appeared in her eyes: "Sister Ningqing, can I ask you to promise me one more thing?"

Liu Ningqing held her hand and said softly, "Speak."

An Xiaomi raised her head and looked into her eyes: "What I told you today, the memories with him, is not to show off, but if I... really can't hold on anymore...
Then trouble you, take these memories for me, and accompany him to live happily ever after.

Don't let that promise to spend your whole life together... go back. "

As An Xiaomi spoke, her eyelids became heavier and heavier, and the hazy mist gradually encroached on her eyes again.

Liu Ningqing held her hand, took a deep breath, and finally said softly: "I promise you, but... some promises, let's wait for you to fulfill them together."

In the second half of the sentence, An Xiaomi didn't know if she heard it, but with a relieved smile at this moment, it seemed that she could finally sleep peacefully.

Liu Ningqing gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, and tucked in the quilt for her.

Turning his head, he looked at Xu Zhimu who had already entered the ward.

"Did you hear those words?"

Xu Zhimu didn't answer, he looked at An Xiaomi who looked weak on the hospital bed.

Finally, she gently hugged Liu Ningqing's soft body.

"Thank you……"

　Here we come, two-in-one today is the end of this story.

　　There are also directions in which the heroines can make concessions and harmony.

　　Continue tomorrow, thank you for your support.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)