Reborn, I will never be a licking dog

Chapter 631 The person who missed the appointment was never An Xiaomi.

Since the end of this night, the relationship between Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi seems to have returned to the previous level.

Xu Zhimu also kept thinking about what An Xiaomi meant by what he said that night.

"As long as I can stay here for a day, I won't leave you..."

During this time, An Xiaomi would also help him with his homework, and the two families often had dinner together, and everything seemed to be the same as before.

But Xu Zhimu knew that An Xiaomi seemed to have been hiding something on his mind.

Xu Zhimu studied until the early hours of the morning almost every day. His foundation was not bad at all. In the last test, he returned to the top [-] in the class.

But with this score, it is still very difficult to get into the key high schools.

In the last month, Xu Zhimu was doing homework almost every day in the middle of the night, and fell asleep lying on the table before he knew it.

However, the homework of the past two years cannot be made up in one or two months.

After the high school entrance examination.

An Xiaomi's grades were still very stable, and she was able to pass almost all the high schools in the city.

But in the end An Xiaomi chose Zhengcheng No. [-] Middle School.

Although it was considered a key high school, she could have chosen a better one, but in the end, An Xiaomi filled in the Ninth Middle School with the reason that it was closer to home and could be a day student.

And Xu Zhimu's grades are much better than before, but his grades can only be listed in an ordinary high school. Among the key high schools, only the Ninth Middle School can find connections and enter as a special transfer student.

At first, Xu Zhimu's family was silent for a long time looking at the results.

In this case, the two children will be separated.

The two families have been friends for more than ten years now, and the matter between the two children is actually quite concerned by the old Xu family.

Sometimes even jokingly say about ordering a doll and so on.

But there was no difference before, but as time passed, An's father's official position became bigger and bigger, and the old Xu's family was just an ordinary working class.

This is actually nothing, but once the two children are separated during the critical period of high school, the gap during this period is self-evident.

But that night, when the two families were having dinner together, Father An offered to help Xu Zhimu find a relationship and go to the Ninth Middle School.

The reason given by An's father was: "The two children have been used to going to school together. After going to high school, they are a little far away from home, so they can look after each other on the way to and from school."

Xu Zhimu was stunned at the time, and his eyes turned to An Xiaomi.

An Xiaomi slightly raised her eyes, exchanged a glance with him, and then a little arrogantly avoided her gaze.

just know...

After dinner, Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi took a walk in the community.

"Xiaomi, thank you."

"no need thank me?"

"You should tell Uncle An about the school matter."

Xu Zhimu asked, An Xiaomi lightly kicked the stones on the ground, did not answer but did not refute.

The two of them walked on the dark path that had been walked countless times, and the night wind after June always blows, and there is a hint of sweet and sour taste that belongs to spring and summer in the bottom of my heart.

Xu Zhimu looked at An Xiaomi next to him, time was so fast, he still remembered the first time the two met, they were just kids hiding behind their parents, and now they were about to go to high school.

"Time flies, we are all going to high school, I still remember the first time I saw you for the first time, you were thin-skinned and shy hiding behind your auntie..."

Xu Zhimu sighed, looking at An Xiaomi who was wearing a small skirt at the moment, she was already slim before she knew it.

An Xiaomi raised her head to look at him, and snorted, "What do you mean, do you mean I'm thick-skinned now?"

"No, no, I just said... you, you are getting more and more mature now."

"You say I'm old?"

An Xiaomi continued to question him.

"It's getting more and more beautiful..." Xu Zhimu said with a hot face.

"Humph."

An Xiaomi slowly looked away, then subconsciously lowered her head and kicked the stones on the ground. Although she didn't speak, she could feel that she must be in a good mood by watching her kicking the stones.

The atmosphere at this moment suddenly felt a little special.

"Yeah, at that time, some people even brazenly said that they would protect me for the rest of my life..."

An Xiaomi suddenly pouted her lips and said.

This sentence, children may not feel that there is anything special when they say it, but they are already going to high school age.

This sentence seems very ambiguous.

Xu Zhimu scratched his head, and of course he couldn't forget the childish and serious vow he made that night: "I was young at that time..."

"But I think you're quite handsome when you say this."

An Xiaomi raised her eyes, and the girl's eyes flickered, causing Xu Zhimu to be in chaos at that time.

He blushed a bit: "Then, what about now?"

"Ask yourself, can you still keep the promise you made to me?"

An Xiaomi looked at him quietly, with a slightly reproachful tone.

Xu Zhimu was stunned, yes, if he couldn't be by her side all the time, what was the point of waiting for her?

Moreover, this time the senior high school entrance examination had already made An Xiaomi stop and wait for her once, so she couldn't keep making her wait any longer.

Those promises of growing up together, it is already unclear whether it is friendship or love.

"I'll try to prove it to you."

Xu Zhimu nodded heavily.

An Xiaomi looked at him, and finally sighed softly: "Idiot, I've said it a few times, not to prove it to me, but to make yourself well."

"But, without you, there is no meaning in the future."

Xu Zhimu gritted his teeth and said this sentence, this sentence even seemed to be a confession.

An Xiaomi was in a daze for a moment. This serious Xu Zhimu was actually quite handsome, but when she thought about the past, she still hummed.

"Then give you a chance to see how you work hard."

The two walked to the door, each facing their own door.

Xu Zhimu turned around and couldn't help saying: "Xiaomi, if I can catch up with you in high school...can you give me a response? Even if it's just to comfort me and lie to me once."

In response to what Xu Zhimu said, both of them naturally knew what it meant.

An Xiaomi's eyes moved slightly, and she also turned around slowly, looking at Xu Zhimu who was begging at the moment, she thought for a long time and finally opened her lips: "I... can consider it."

Xu Zhimu's eyes seemed to light up. He suddenly took a step forward and hugged An Xiaomi in his arms. He hugged An Xiaomi lightly, but he also felt his strong heartbeat: "I will work hard!"

After saying that, Xu Zhimu seemed to run away.

An Xiaomi froze on the spot, as if she hadn't reacted yet, she stood there blankly... This guy is really getting bolder now.

However, An Xiaomi didn't hate her.

She looked at the direction Xu Zhimu fled just now.

She gave a complicated smile.

But ah, I have never responded to you...

An Xiaomi returned to the room, her parents were already asleep, she quietly came to her father's study, in the safe, when An Xiaomi came to find a medical kit to bandage Xu Zhimu last time.

She found a medical record that was pressed at the bottom.

[Patient, An Xiaomi...]

She looked at the content above, and the corners of her mouth that were raised just now were already stained with tears.

……

Zheng Cheng, ward.

An Xiaomi coughed, her voice a little astringent, Liu Ningqing took out a glass of water, helped An Xiaomi up, and drank slowly.

"These are the stories I had with him before I really knew my physical condition."

An Xiaomi's eyes seemed to pass through countless times, and there was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth: "At that time, I really, almost agreed to him..."

Liu Ningqing looked at her silently. This belonged to An Xiaomi and Xu Zhimu for more than ten years.

It's like a short story of a youth story, no wonder he is so unforgettable.

Liu Ningqing also had an unknown feeling in her heart, just like what An Xiaomi said, in fact, she had countless opportunities to be with Xu Zhimu.

As long as she nodded, with Xu Zhimu's character, no matter how bad An Xiaomi's health was, he would never leave him for the rest of his life.

But because of this, this is the reason why An Xiaomi didn't dare to agree to him...

If one day she really leaves this world, what will be left to Xu Zhimu may be nothing but silence.

An Xiaomi put down the water glass, she gently held Liu Ningqing's hand, her cheeks were still weak, but she always had a quiet smile: "Sister Ningqing, I'm not saying this to show off, but the following story , not only for me, but also for him and you."

An Xiaomi's voice was also trembling. The nearly 20-year relationship between her and Xu Zhimu had a turning point in high school.

"Speak, I'm listening." Liu Ningqing nodded slightly.

An Xiaomi also took a slow breath with a soft tone.

"Later, we finally got our wish and entered the same high school"

But because of the difference in grades, they were in two different classes in the first year of high school, I was in the key class, and he could only be in the ordinary class..."

Although Xu Zhimu entered a key high school, he was looking for a relationship after all. His real learning ability could not keep up with the school's teaching rhythm at all, and his grades became the bottom of the class. At the beginning, he could continue to study hard.

But the two years of neglected studies in junior high school cannot be caught up in a short period of time. No matter how he studies, the final results are always unsatisfactory.

But An Xiaomi at that time was completely different.

When An Xiaomi was in high school, she became more and more slim. The girl's flawless figure, exquisite face, gently swaying single ponytail, and every frown and smile have become the unattainable youth fantasy of many boys.

Moreover, An Xiaomi's grades have always been among the best, and he has been able to maintain the top five grades throughout his age. As long as he can maintain it, the famous domestic schools are a sure thing.

Therefore, there will always be some boys around An Xiaomi who want to pursue her.

The students who can go to school here are either good in their studies, or they have some connections at home. They are considered good among their peers, and those who dare to pursue An Xiaomi are naturally the best among them.

What is the second generation of the rich and the second generation of officials, or some school grass and the like.

At that time, Xu Zhimu looked too pale in front of these people.

Even though An Xiaomi never responded to anyone's confession, Xu Zhimu's heart was in a mess.

The only way he could think of was to naively occupy more of An Xiaomi's time every day, and tell others that An Xiaomi was already famous.

Of course, this naive approach can often only backfire.

At the same time, Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi go to and from school together every day, sometimes ride a car, and always eat together in the cafeteria. The identities of the two childhood sweethearts have gradually spread.

One is the tail of the ordinary grade in the ordinary class.

One is a beautiful girl with both talent and looks in the key class.

It's like a cliched school TV show.

This pair of special childhood sweethearts naturally attracted discussions behind many people's backs.

What kind of toad wants to eat swan meat? How can a pheasant match with a phoenix?

Although he didn't say it in front of Xu Zhimu, many boys were very jealous, and some gossip would always reach the ears of Xu Zhimu and An Xiaomi.

Even the teacher said in the class that after class, you should review carefully, and don't go to other people's classes if you have nothing to do, and delay their study.

Everyone inside and outside is calling Xu Zhimu.

After all, for the school, An Xiaomi is the sign of a famous college student in the future. If being entangled in a relationship affects her study, the school will definitely find a way to get rid of some crane tails.

But the more so, the greater the psychological gap brought to Xu Zhimu.

Obviously before, no matter in the family home or in the elementary school, the two of them were the "little couple" that everyone was optimistic about.

But here, it seems that everyone wants to tear them apart.

Moreover, the reasons for others to break them up are all reasonable, making Xu Zhimu doubt himself

I have no intention of studying every day and fall into a vicious circle.

Of course, An Xiaomi knew all of this.

She talked to Xu Zhimu and told him not to focus on her when he was in school, but for Xu Zhimu who was sensitive, inferior and helpless at that time, these words would only backfire...

He even felt that I would leave him too.

Until one day, he got into a fight with someone at school, and was punished by the school and went home to reflect on it for a week.

And the reason for the fight was because a boy told him to stay away from me, which made Xu Zhimu, whose emotions had been suppressed all the time, completely lose control.

After returning home, my uncles and aunts also asked him the reason for the fight, but he never said it. After I got out of school, I looked at him with a bruised nose and a swollen face.

At that moment, I knew that I couldn't let him continue like this.

But at that time, Xu Zhimu's emotions seemed to have reached a critical point. Facing my words, he roared out aggrieved.

He said that I also want to learn well, but I really don't know how to catch up with you. You know, I really suffer from the feeling of not being able to get close to you even though I have tried my best. enough!
I remember, that was the first time he spoke to me so loudly. "

An Xiaomi said this with a bitter smile on her face.

Outside the ward, Xu Zhimu was standing outside the door with a fruit tray, listening along the gap by the door, memories of that day also appeared in his mind.

After he fought with that person, An Xiaomi came to the room to see him.

But my heart at that time was just an impulsive brat.

Facing An Xiaomi's words, Xu Zhimu broke out.

"I also want to learn well, but I really don't know how to catch up with you. Do you know that I have tried my best but still can't get close to you? I'm really fed up with that feeling of insecurity. Already!"

When I vented my emotions and said this sentence.

An Xiaomi stared at him blankly, she bit her lip, almost biting blood: "So, you go find someone to fight, so you don't study well every day, and you surround me after class, so you just Going over the wall and surfing the Internet with your friends, homework is always perfunctory, these are the ways you find a sense of security?"

At that time Xu Zhimu was stunned, and even he couldn't remember some things clearly.

An Xiaomi seemed to have seen through his thoughts, and showed a complicated smile: "Xu Zhimu, do you think I haven't paid attention to you? In your eyes, am I just so heartless?"

"I, no...Xiaomi, listen to me." Xu Zhimu looked at her tear-filled eyes, and suddenly panicked.

"Xu Zhimu."

An Xiaomi called his name, her eyes sparkled, and she looked deeply at Xu Zhimu, who had a bruised nose and a swollen face: "You once said that you will take good care of me for the rest of your life, but look at you now...you can't even care about yourself. How can you keep your promise if you don’t take good care of it?”

In a word, all the emotions in Xu Zhimu's heart were muted.

This memory, thinking about it now...Xu Zhimu stood outside the door and let out a soft breath.

That's right, I really can't blame An Xiaomi for what happened back then, and even most of the responsibility lies with me. I was like that at the beginning, but I just blindly wanted to get An Xiaomi's promise so that I could feel safe.

But he didn't consider what An Xiaomi was carrying in his heart.

At least, An Xiaomi will always be by his side, will silently accompany him to become better, and will refuse all the boys' attention for him, and will give him chances again and again...

Speaking of which, the one who missed the appointment first was not An Xiaomi, but Xu Zhimu.

These are all the details that Xu Zhimu, who was in love with his head before, didn't notice.

In the ward, Liu Ningqing was also in a daze.

She could also understand Xu Zhimu's feeling at that time, as if she always wanted to rely on her own efforts to support a family with Xu Zhimu, so that the distance between the two could be shortened little by little.

But in the end, Liu Ningqing had tried her best, but she still couldn't shorten the distance between the two of them.

This feeling of powerlessness is really uncomfortable.

An Xiaomi's eyes were also shining, she shook her head slightly: "Actually, I can't blame him at that time, I also had problems at that time.

An Xiaomi sighed softly: "Ever since I found out about my physical condition, I've been feeling uneasy, because I know that Xu Zhimu has a stubborn temper. If I promise him, I will really be with him." , and one day in the future I will leave suddenly, maybe I will also take half of his life.

So, from then on, I began to alienate him on my own initiative.

We will also go to and from school together, eat together, and sometimes go shopping with him, but in school, I will try to minimize meeting with him.

I also become more and more self-willed, even sometimes unreasonable, because I want to slowly fade out of his world, even if he hates me.

It's better than betting with me on a future that may be doomed to failure.

But, at that time, we all thought very naively, always thinking about what to do, and we made the choice for him without authorization, but this is actually unfair to him..."

An Xiaomi's eyes moved slightly, looking at the bedding and other accompanying things prepared by his parents beside him, and slowly said: "I know, in fact, Xu Zhimu's most important question is not my answer, but his inner inferiority and self-esteem. Not confident.

Just like when my father was chasing my mother back then, my father was just a poor and white boy, and the two of them met each other's eyes, but my father was so inferior that he dared not take the first step.

In the end, it was my mother who took the initiative to take the first step. Although my father still chased my mother in the end, he suffered all kinds of criticism and blank stares, and even my grandma's family objected at the beginning.

This kind of pressure almost made my father give up the idea of ​​continuing to pursue my mother.

There is no way, girls in this world can be tolerated without money or strength, but men really can't.

Therefore, I can also feel the emotions that Xu Zhimu is carrying now.

If I agree to be his girlfriend, it will only put more pressure on him.

Only when he really has the strength to shut everyone up, then he can really make his own choice. "

An Xiaomi's gaze also leisurely looked towards the direction outside the door, she bit her lip, and finally spoke softly.

"So, that night, I told him my first promise and also my first lie..."

　Come on, today this chapter has been revised back and forth many times, and it makes me want to hang myself.

　　In fact, the content is not difficult, but it is too difficult to tell in one chapter, but these contents cannot be disassembled, so the interspersed narration may look a bit messy.

　　In fact, the general content is also described in the previous article, which can be regarded as an explanation.

　　You can read the content of this chapter first, and you can make comments, which will be revised according to the situation in the future.

　　But it will not affect the following plot (originally these chapters are considered as another extra supplement)
　　The next chapter will introduce the main plot.

　　What follows is a little spoiler, another wedding.

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