My life has a narration

Chapter 170 Letter

A rain has not stopped for a day, the light rain falls, hits the leaves, and falls in the Qinghe River, causing little ripples.

The Qing River runs through the city of Jiang, and is the main source of drinking water for the entire city. At a quiet river dam, Xu Yuezhen sat quietly by the side, with a black umbrella beside her, letting the rain fall.

He was holding a letter wet with rain in his hand, while the farewell video of Meng Ziming and Su Qing was playing on the phone.

A pair of black headphones hung around his neck, and in his arms were a small speaker, a keychain and a yellowed phone case.

This was a gift specially given to her by Su Qing and the others before they left after dinner. It even included a total of five videos from three years ago and today.

After the separation, she walked aimlessly and found this remote place without knowing it. She watched the five farewell videos and the letter in her hand over and over again, and there seemed to be no sad expression on her face. The rest is just numb.

It was said that it was four years in college, but in fact the two had only been classmates for one year. In the remaining year, Meng Ziming fell ill and took a break from school. During this period, the two only communicated through WeChat.

At that time, she didn't know what kind of disease the other party was suffering from. She only knew that it was not serious, otherwise she would not have dropped out of school, but she never thought that he would die.

Until a while later, Meng Ziming suddenly lost contact one day, and disappeared from her life in an instant.

She was terrified, uneasy, and went crazy and asked people, but the two were just classmates at the time, and she only knew that the other party was from Jiangcheng. Besides, she was just a student at school, and she was powerless in many things.

Just when she was at a loss, a courier came to the school and asked her to sign for it. When she opened it, she found that it was actually a letter.

That's right, as Meng Ziming's favorite girl, she didn't receive a farewell video in the end, only a letter.

These days, with the popularity of mobile phones, no one has contacted by letter for a long time, without a signature, but she still couldn't wait to open the letter.

She recognized Meng Ziming's handwriting at the beginning of the letter.

"Xiao Xu, seeing a letter is like a face
Sorry, I may not be able to go back to school. I should have gone to another world when you received this letter. Although I know it is not good to disturb you like this, I still decided to send this letter because In my limited life, there are not many things I can do.

Until now, I still remember the moment when I saw you for the first time. As described in the novel, a tsunami occurred in my heart, but I just stood quietly without letting anyone know.

Secret love is really an unknown landslide. During the year of college, I became a thief, always secretly paying attention to your daily life, although you have been walking alone because of your face, like a You are as small and transparent, but in my heart, you seem to be a big sun.

In those ordinary and unsurprising days of the year, you shone into my world like a ray of light. I should thank you, although we didn't have a story to happen.

Although I don't want to tell you all this in this way, but I have no time and my body can't support it anymore. I liked you, but you don't need to feel bad about it. I just want to tell you that there was a person who liked you once .

It's funny, I recorded farewell videos for everyone around me, but I didn't have the courage to face you, maybe I don't know how to say goodbye to you, this is the best way I can think of .

I hope you don’t feel inferior because of the birthmark on your face. I’m very happy to see you gradually becoming more cheerful in the past year. Persevere. It doesn’t matter even if you don’t remember me. I believe that you can live very well even without me in the future. it is good.

I really want to see the snow with you again, even once.

Meeting you is the proudest thing in my life. Unfortunately, I just walked with you on a fruitless journey. I will not bother you for the rest of my life. Thank you for putting an end to my youth.

The last sentence, girl, good night, there will be no good morning in the future, I wish you no illness, no disaster, and peace in the future. "

The letter was not signed, let alone signed, but there were traces of dried tears on the paper, which made her heart feel like a knife was twisted.

She likes him too, just a little bit, just a little bit away from catching the light in her life.

Her family conditions are very poor. There are three children in the family. Her parents divorced, and each of them took one away, leaving only her and her grandfather to depend on each other. Because she had a red birthmark on her right eye when she was born, which made her originally delicate face suddenly become It was a little scary, because of this birthmark, she had low self-esteem since she was a child, she had almost no friends, and even felt disgusted and disgusted by others, so when she grew up a little, he covered one of his eyes with his hair.

She almost couldn't even make up the tuition fees when she was in college. She thought that she would be like this in the future, but she didn't expect that a boy stumbled into her world in the first year of freshman year.

Boys would deliberately find her, a transparent person, as a dance partner in the pas de deux class. Whenever she cared about her hair, the boys would always comfort her and say it was okay.

The boy's family background is very good, at least for her, but he will still go out to work with her every day after school, saying that he wants to work and study, but she knows that he wants to be with her.

After a year of getting along, the relationship between the two became better and better. Not only did they earn enough tuition, but her personality became more and more cheerful. With the encouragement of the boys, she even tied up her hair, and she also fell in love with this guy. Boys, just because of the low self-esteem in the past, dare not express it.

Just when she was looking forward to everything, the world seemed to have played a joke on her and took away her only light. At that moment, her sky collapsed.

Even though I have never owned it for a moment, I feel that I have lost it thousands of times.

Since then, she has become taciturn again, using her hair to cover the birthmark on her right face again, only thinking about earning more money after graduation, so that her grandfather in her hometown can live a better life, but just this year, her dependent grandfather also left up.

For a moment, she couldn't even find a reason to live, so she wanted to come here to see him.

Through letters, she learned that Meng Ziming had left farewell videos for others. For three years, she came here every year. She also asked many people, but none of them had the so-called videos, and even Su Qing and the others did not. appeared until today.

Seeing the person she has been thinking about for three years, it seems that everything has nothing to do with her. She knows that these few videos are the last traces of him in the world, and she has no regrets.

So when she separated from Su Qing and the others, she didn't ask the other party to see her off. She said she wanted to go back to the hotel by herself and leave tomorrow so that they didn't have to see her off.

But she didn't book a hotel at all, and she didn't want to leave. Before coming, she quit her job.

There were drops of water running across her face, and she couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears. She used earphone cables to string several gifts together, tied them firmly to her hand, and then wrote the letter she had read many times. The letter was folded solemnly, and she put it in her arms. Finally, she glanced at the brightly lit city in the distance. She smiled and said softly:
"Don't go, this place is very good, I like it so much, this city with you is really beautiful!"

A gust of wind blew up the girl's bangs, revealing a dark red birthmark. Even so, the girl's eyes were full of tenderness and light. At this moment, she was extremely beautiful.

This city is huge, although she doesn't belong here, but this kind of quiet corner should be able to accommodate her as a foreigner.

Just when she wanted to stay here forever, a series of 'da da' footsteps sounded behind her, that was the sound of leather shoes landing.

"Fortunately, you chose to jump into the river at this place instead of running to the viaduct or jumping off a building. Otherwise, I really don't know how to persuade you"

At this moment, a voice came from the shadow behind her.

Xu Yuezhen turned her head and found a person standing not far behind her, watching her quietly with an umbrella in his hand.

"It's okay, just jump, I can swim!"

(End of this chapter)