Turn the cocoon into a butterfly

Chapter 3
Sang Xiaoyu took off the fashion that was still considered a brand, and put on extraordinarily plain jeans, white sneakers, and a small brown trench coat with a high collar.

Pushing open the door, the oncoming air is cold.

The few pedestrians on the street are shivering in the cold wind, and pop songs are occasionally wafted from some house, and the beautiful melody is rippling around.

Sang Xiaoyu went out early every day, and then came back empty-handed. At first, her mother was still interested in asking her if she had borrowed money?

Seeing how listless she was, she didn't even bother to ask now.

For three days in a row, she returned empty-handed. She felt that the most difficult thing in this world was to make money, but the thing more difficult than making money was to borrow money.

She came to a cousin's house who was fairly close. The daughter of the cousin's house didn't even dare to open the door, only opened half of the door, and said how difficult their own life was, and Sang Xiaoyu didn't even have a word to borrow money. Spit out, and they closed the door.

Sang Xiaoyu burst into tears.

She stood in a corner of the street, not daring to go anywhere to borrow money. In desperation, she came to a cousin's house who is now wealthy.

When the cousin saw her coming, she didn't even have to greet her, and immediately said gloatingly:

"When you were beautiful in the past, why didn't you think of me? Why didn't you even notify me when you opened such a luxurious hotel? Now something happened and you think of me? It's too late!"

Sang Xiaoyu was ugly, and wanted to leave when she knew there was no play.

The cousin stopped her and said, "Let me tell you, I am living a better life now, not worse than you opening a luxury hotel.

Do you have any money?have!But I am under no obligation to lend you money.

Besides, even if I am generous enough to lend it to you, when will you be able to pay it back?I won't do things that are in vain. "

Sang Xiaoyu blushed and said nothing.She said relentlessly:

"Even if I lent it to you, how will you repay it? Is the relationship between us to the point where we can borrow money and not repay it?"

Sang Xiaoyu remembered that he had lent her money.

It was about three years ago. At that time, she was not as arrogant as she is now. She yelled at each other obediently, and finally took 3000 yuan from them. Asked her to speak.

Now she has long forgotten what happened three years ago, and Sang Xiaoyu doesn't have the energy to mention it.

Sang Xiaoyu was numb. If she had been so humiliated in the past, she would definitely fight back.The current her has long since lost her toughness, and her body seems to have been pulled out of her muscles and bones, limp and without any confidence.

It was getting dark, should we leave five or six houses?Sang Xiaoyu didn't remember, but she knew it well that she didn't get a penny.

34, one month.

I can't even borrow a penny, and a month will be up soon, what should I do when the time comes?She has already gone bankrupt, and apart from selling herself, she seems to have entered the path of extinction.

She didn't even have a meal at noon, and she was walking softly on the way home. On the way home, she happened to pass a section of railway. The long railway track stretched endlessly, as if she had borrowed money to no avail. to the end.

She was walking in the middle of the railway tracks, and the sections of sleepers used to be her childhood memories. At that time, she liked to walk among the sleepers, playing and laughing with a group of friends.

It was completely dark, and the stars hid themselves.She thought that if a train came at this time, she would definitely not hide.

She longed for it.Let the screaming siren cut through the darkness of the night, and let the endless days return to peace after the body is crushed.

Sang Xiaoyu walked forward numbly, without any vigilance, and when it was time to get off the track and enter the path, she still walked forward, like a walking dead.

After walking for an unknown amount of time, a siren blew, and Sang Xiaoyu stood numbly in the middle of the railroad tracks, looking into the distance unconsciously.

Just as she was standing against the wind, a figure rushed towards her, pulled her off the rails, and then burst into tears, saying that if you die, how will I live?
Sang Xiaoyu looked at the old face in front of her with trepidation, it was her mother.

The wind at night is a bit chilly. Autumn in the northern country comes early, clear, quiet, and sad...

Her mother supported her, and said that she felt something was wrong these days. She said that she went out to pick her up almost every day, because she was afraid that something would happen to her. She also said that if she was not here today, she would...

Finally arrived home, the son had already fallen asleep, the mother closed the door of the hut, and then suppressed her tears.

The mother cried and said: "Xiao Yu, if you really die, I will go with you. I can't control what happens to your son. I am over 60 this year. Do you want me to bring up your son?" ?"

Sang Xiaoyu finally understood what her mother said, her heart twitched, her nose was sore, and tears flowed down her cheeks.

The mother and daughter hug each other and cry.

Mother said: "You are not even afraid of death, are you still afraid of these debts?"

Sang Xiaoyu suddenly burst into tears uncontrollably, and said, "Mom, I'm not afraid, I really can't borrow so much money."

Her mother comforted her and said, "Don't be afraid, let's find a solution together. I have already called your uncle, uncle and relatives, and I will hear back in a few days.

Sang Xiaoyu was not optimistic at all, and said 34 with tears, which was too much.

My mother was ashamed, and said that we can only comfort ourselves, let’s borrow as much as we can, and if we really can’t borrow at all in a month, I will die with you.

Mother went back to the hut to rest, Sang Xiaoyu didn't even bother to take off her clothes, she held her head in her hands, not knowing how to live in the future.

The mother's empty comfort of "it will be fine" is meaningless to Sang Xiaoyu, who is suffering from a lot of disasters.

Death haunts her like a nightmare, but when she thinks of her son, she feels that she, like her husband, is an irresponsible person. No matter what, even if the debt is a mountain, she has to bear it on her shoulders.

When I thought of myself, if I really died, what would my son do?Should he be left to face all the horrors of the future alone?As long as I am there, my son and mother will have an extra barrier, and I am the only barrier to protect them.

Dead pigs are not afraid of boiling water, and they have learned from others. If they can't borrow them, they will kill them at that time.

Sang Xiaoyu only really felt her own pain at night. In order to avoid this pervasive fear, she always forced herself not to think about these unsolvable problems, and believed that there must be a way for the car to reach the mountain.

In the dead of night, she couldn't help but think of her husband's face. If he was there, wouldn't she be so afraid?
Every time she thinks of these things, she feels unspeakable pain and unresolved sadness in her heart.

No matter what, she couldn't fall asleep. She used to sleep well, but now she stared at the boundless darkness with her eyes wide open. She had been tortured by huge debts to the point of dying.

When the incident first happened, she often thought that her husband would suddenly fall from the sky one day and take out money to let her settle down. Since then, this daydream finally woke up. He ran away and would never come back again.

Sang Xiaoyu felt that she was broken. She was not broken by the things in front of her, but by the fact that her husband ran away.

Ten days later, Sang Xiaoyu raised a total of 18 yuan, and the 18 yuan was basically within the range of her closest family members.

The mother's pension fund is 6 yuan;
The mother-in-law brought 4 yuan;
The two sisters-in-law are [-] each;
Sang Xiaoyu's best friend Fei Jiani, Cheng Weize's two best brothers, and Cheng Weize's uncle and second aunt pooled in 18 yuan, a total of [-] yuan.

When the mother-in-law gave the money, the mother didn't have a good face.

The mother-in-law has always been very kind to Sang Xiaoyu, and the fact that her son ran away was a big blow to the old man. She was sick all the year round, and she spent 4 yuan on everything.

The mother insinuated with a gun and a stick, saying that what should be borne by the old Cheng's family, now it's all on her daughter's head.

The mother-in-law lowered her head, wiped her tears and left.

Sang Xiaoyu submissively advised her mother not to embarrass the old man. Her son ran away, and she was in a terrible mood. What's the use of embarrassing her?

Mother was furious, saying that Sang Xiaoyu was a scumbag, and when she saw Cheng's family, she lowered her eyebrows and pleasing her eyes, and she didn't know how to ask for an explanation for such a big incident?

Sang Xiaoyu said that now is not the time to vent anger on her own family, which would hurt both sides.

The mother immediately became furious and said that Sang Xiaoyu was an unfamiliar wolf who ate the inside and outside, and that Cheng Weize was not a good cake at all, and such things could be thrown to his wife, and he advertised himself as the best husband in the world every day.

The mother looked down on Cheng Weize from the very beginning. If it wasn't for the fact that his father was ill and Cheng Weize took care of him like a son, the mother's views would probably never change.

Just when she had a good impression, when she encountered such a thing, Sang Xiaoyu coaxed her mother out of anger, and she was exhausted physically and mentally for a while.

The mother hated Cheng Weize's escape deeply, and even said such cruel words as "he must die and let the car run over him to death".

At this time, Sang Xiaoyu comforted her mother, saying that Cheng Weize is also Ziqiao's father, he must have found a way to raise money, and he will definitely come back.

As long as the mother said a good word for her husband, she would not be angry, saying that she still spoke for such a man at this time, she really did not repent, she said, she still gave all her possessions over the years to her daughter , He also said that he would take it if he died.

Sang Xiaoyu burst into tears with her mother's 6 yuan, and her mother said that she should sell the house as well, or wander around together.

Sang Xiaoyu cried and said, Mom, will you let me live?I know how unfilial I am, but please give me a chance, please?
Mother also cried, holding Sang Xiaoyu in her arms.

With 18, Sang Xiaoyu suddenly gained confidence.

Behind the blind optimism is still nothing.

(End of this chapter)