Deliberate and affectionate

Chapter 7 Diary
When Li Ming came back, he saw Lin Xi packing his luggage, "Where are you going?"

"I have something to do."

"I need to bring so many things to do something?"

"Maybe it will take a while, so be prepared."

"After half a month, there will be a meeting that requires you to participate. This is the designer's business card. You can contact her to order the clothes. Be grand." Li Ming handed her a business card.

Lin Xi took it and glanced at it. It was the clothing design company that Li Ming had been looking for. It seemed that this time was very important.After half a month, I should still be able to go. This is probably the last time, so let's go.

"I know, I'll be ready."

Li Ming felt a little strange, in the past when he came back, she would be very happy.Busy preparing for this and that, but today she seems to be too dull, and went back to the room to rest very early, it's not like her temperament.But he didn't intend to ask either.

Therefore, he also missed the opportunity to know Lin Xi's situation in advance.

Lin Xi's room was full of medicine bottles that he had taken during this time, and he could see them as soon as he entered.Some are finished, some just opened.

Lin Xi went into the room, put all these away, and put them in a discarded box, so that they could be thrown away when the aunt came to clean them next time.

Lin Xi took out a diary. He has been writing down things since a long time ago. The ones from his childhood are still in the box. This is the latest one, and he has only written a few pages.

Turning the pages of the book, Lin Xi sat quietly for a long time before starting to write:
"Suddenly I don't know what to write. I used to like to write them all down. Even if no one knows, I still have pen and paper to listen to my story.

Now, the habits of more than ten years have been lost.I couldn't hold the pen anymore, and now the words are written with trembling hands.

My health is not good, very bad.The doctor asked me to take medicine on time, maintain a good mood, and do some happy things.

I am taking medicine well, I am maintaining emotional stability, and I am working hard to make myself happy.But it didn't seem to help, and it was getting worse.

Maybe I misunderstood what the doctor meant. The doctor probably wanted to say that time is running out, so what should I do?

I'm still very upset, but there's nothing I can do.

Goodbye, dear friends, you have been with me all this time, you will not object to anything I want to say, ah, why would you object, you are just pens and paper, and you will not become a master, I started babbling again.But if I don’t talk about it, I may not have a chance in the future. Thank you for being with me for so many years, thank you for being willing to listen to my heart, and thank you for not despising me.That's all for now, then, goodbye. "

Lin Xi also put the diary in the suitcase. Of course, she will not keep these things here, including the things she used, and she will take them away one by one.

Lin Xi lay on the bed, his mind was in a mess, as if everything was running around in it, trying to sort out his thoughts, but the more he thought about it, the more messy it became, and the more he thought about it, the more he had a headache.

Lin Xi always advised himself: "Don't think about it, it's already late, go to bed."

But it didn't work, she couldn't control it.

So always at night, open your eyes until dawn.At first I took sleeping pills to help me fall asleep, but later the pills didn't work anymore.

For a period of time, Lin Xi couldn't sleep for several nights in a row, and then fell into a coma because he couldn't support himself.

Perhaps the coma is also a kind of recovery for the body. After waking up again, there will be no such fatigue.

Later, as if it had formed a habit, I suffered from insomnia for a few days, then fell asleep once, and the cycle repeated.

(End of this chapter)