the moon is not as good as you

"Why, do you care about me?" Jiang Ningyu asked back.

"I care about you." Lu Li said, "Seeing that you have nothing to do every day, you came to find me."

"I'm here to find you, aren't you happy?"

"No."

"Then don't ask that question."

Jiang Ningyu has always avoided the most important things in his explorations.

Because I can't guess her real thoughts, I can see the truth in practice.Lu Li often brought her supper, sometimes wontons, sometimes ramen, sometimes oatmeal and yam porridge, all of which he borrowed from the boss to cook himself.

He had some expectation in his heart, hoping that she really didn't like Lin Xuyue.But when he saw them hugging each other by the river, and flirting with each other at the ball, he couldn't convince himself that it was a normal friendship.

But she would still ask herself out to play, go skating, go to the secret room, and prepare sincere gifts on his birthday.

Lu Li couldn't understand her. He didn't know if she was so devoted to her friends, or if she wanted to mess with him too.

Although he likes her, he doesn't want to meddle in other people's feelings, let alone being deceived.

But the decision to stay away from her took a long time to build up.Until that day in front of her old classmates, they had an ambiguous interaction.

He couldn't help laughing at himself, "Without love, I'm just redundant."

But before leaving, Jiang Ningyu ran over to him and asked him, "Are you coming to our school for dinner tomorrow?"

No matter how ordinary and unusual the question was, Lu Li felt bored for the first time, so he told her mercilessly, "No, I, a tool person, also want to have some time for myself."

But at night, I received another message from her.

【What kind of girl do you like? 】

Without thinking, he replied with an answer that was unfamiliar to him.

【cool girl】

The other party went too far and even acted as a matchmaker for him.

[There is a cool girl in the piano department named Sherry, do you want to meet her? 】

Is this after he saw through his little thoughts and started to cover up?
At this moment, Lu Li's heart was cold, and he suddenly hated this little liar who loved to tell lies.

She is so capricious, what's so good about it, it's worth his effort to please her?
【OK. 】

[Is there any contact information? 】

Wanting to leave Jiang Ningyu's life, the mood to start over reached its peak.Lu Li tried his best to treat her as a normal friend and tried to get along with other girls.

He didn't reject other people's overtures.

However, the moment the girl confessed and kissed him, Lu Li just wanted to run away.

It is said that a wise man does not fall in love, it is just that he has not met someone who is amazing at a glance.

Thinking about it carefully, except for her capriciousness, she is fine everywhere.

It's just that the person is a little unfeeling, and he throws it away after pulling it, without leaving any sympathy.

From that day on, every night, Lu Li would go to the convenience store to buy that cheap beer, get very drunk, and then pass out on the table. The dreams he had were also about her—always at the door of the library, She is sitting with her back.

In the dream, he always asks: Are you waiting for me?

She always replied: Yes, I am waiting for you.

But every time he wanted to reach out and hug her, he woke up again.

Once he even knew that he was in a dream, resisted the urge to hug her, and said to her: You go, don't wait for me in the dream again.

It's amazing, I really haven't dreamed about her since then.

So Lu Li has always been superstitious.

He feels that there are gods in the world, as long as they are sincere enough, their wishes will always come true.

But he didn't expect that the feelings he had endured for so many years would collapse after hearing her words——

"High school is very vague in my memory. I feel like I don't remember anything, but I have a deep impression on you. Thinking about it now, maybe I was really moved at that time."

"When I was a child, I was very unhappy. Other children were having fun, but I have been taking extra-curricular classes and practicing piano since I can remember. When we were very young, we lived in a villa area, and I even sneaked out over the wall. Well, when my mother found out, it was locked in a small black room, and the piano could be played for two hours before it could be released."

"It may be a bit too much to say psychological trauma, but I seem to have a natural liking for sunny and cheerful people. Once you were late and rushed past our class door, muttering words, which was very interesting. Once it was raining, you mistook me for me Cheng Lin Xuyue, I heard you speak ill of the teacher, you lose face and want to hit me with a basketball."

"When you smile, you have beautiful teeth and a high spirit. At that time, I thought you were interesting. When I was sitting by the window, I would subconsciously look at the playground. It's okay if I didn't see you, but I felt relieved when I saw you."

At that moment, Lu Li felt that God played a huge joke on him.

"I do not remember."

He unnaturally avoided those deep memories, restrained and patient as always.But those words echoed in my mind, becoming more and more clear and lingering.

He couldn't help but rushed over and hugged her from behind.

Lu Li had heard a saying called the Proust effect, as long as he smelled something he had smelled before, the memory of that time would be activated.

And Jiang Ningyu's taste seemed to be engraved in his DNA, even if they were far away, he could feel it.

It seems a bit metaphysical to say so, but Lu Li somehow started to believe in past and present lives. Even if they later fulfilled them and traveled alone, he always felt that she was thinking of him.

It's just that the relationship between the three is too crowded, and he doesn't want to be a stumbling block between them.

The blessing card that she had written her name on and then erased was always carried by Lu Li close to his body. Together with the Pokémon box, he put it in his heavy luggage, and it followed his thoughts like a shadow.

After nearly 20 years of self-imposed exile, Xiao Yi is not lonely by his side. He almost thought that he was completely relieved day after day.

The woman who haunted him never fell asleep. Lu Li never thought that one day she would really appear, trot towards him, and happily say to him, "Lu Li, I'm here to find you." The joy of wishing.

It was a scene that hadn't appeared in his dreams for many years, but he had sketched and fantasized about it for many years.

On the day when the four of them went to search for the Phoenician ruins together, Lu Li gave Jiang Ningyu the Pokémon box as a birthday present on the shore of the Purple Red Sea.

"I've always wanted to say to you, thank you for participating in my life. If there is an afterlife..." Lu Li looked at the man standing quietly by the tent in the distance, paused for a few seconds, and said the truth as a joke Come out, "If I take the initiative, consider me."

Jiang Ningyu chuckled, "Okay, if there is an afterlife."

A crescent moon hanging on the coastline of a remote island reflected her face, bright as a dream.

She agreed, but turned around, went to another country, and fell into the embrace of the moon.