Shepherd Tantra

Chapter 763 How I Love Him

When Aleister woke up again, she appeared in a familiar yet unfamiliar place.

The reason why it is familiar is that Aiwas used to come here often...and the reason why it is strange is that Aleister has never been here.

——This is the "Morgan Wonderful House" that Morgan gave to Aiwass.

When Aleister opened his eyes, he found Isabel sitting beside the bed, looking at him with some surprise.

Before Aiwass left for the Theocracy, he had shown Isabel these two forms of himself. That was why Isabel turned a blind eye to the scandal between Aiwass and "Aleister"... and because of this, Isabel immediately recognized Aleister's identity.

"Why did you come just now... You haven't come to see me in my dreams for so many days. It's already been more than half of the night, and you just came in..."

Isabel complained in a low voice, reaching out to touch Aleister's long black hair, which was as smooth and clean as a wig, with some curiosity. She was a little worried: "Are you drunk? Girls should be careful when they are alone outside."

“…I didn’t actually drink.”

Aleister subconsciously raised her head and rubbed it gently in Isabel's palm, but she herself was not even aware of this intimate action, just like she would subconsciously bend down and lower her head when passing by a low threshold that would hit her head.

She defended herself, "I'm researching a mysterious item that involves Tiansi... I just might have been put into a coma by it. But don't worry, I still have people around me who can protect me."

At this point, Aleister suddenly realized something: "Do you come here to wait for me every night?"

The ticket to Morgan’s House of Fun is to have a nightcap.

The reason why Aleister entered here after she was unconscious was probably because she suddenly became drunk after touching that strange liver. The strong intoxication entered Aleister's heart through contact, and she was probably in a deep sleep at this moment.

Suddenly, Aleister felt Isabel's touch on her hair turn into a slightly harder massage. She followed Isabel's movements obediently and made a sound as if in pain: "Ouch, ouch..."

"You have all the time to study that kind of stuff, why don't you come and see me."

Isabel rubbed Aleister's temple with some resentment, and whispered: "I have a lot of things to say to you... In order to avoid forgetting them when I get excited when I see you, I have to organize the outline every night after drinking. Now the words piled up have already written several pages..."

"Woooo..."

Aleister felt a little guilty for a moment and didn't know how to explain, so he could only make a sound as if in pain, hoping that this would make Her Majesty the Queen feel better.

But Isabel was reluctant to press Aleister's head hard - although Aleister himself might not feel it, Isabel, who was on the path of beauty, could clearly feel that Aleister was a part of Aiwass, just like the relationship between a person and his reflection in the lake.

"…How should I address you?"

Isabel whispered, "Is your name still Aiwass?"

"I'm…Aleister. Aleister Crowley."

Aleister stopped shouting, which might not be a very good acting skill, and was silent for a while before giving his name.

The moment she hesitated was when she wondered whether she was still Aiwass.

But in the end, Aleister made a decision - whether she was Aiwass or not, she didn't want to be Aiwass's substitute in Isabel's place. This was unfair to both Isabel and Aiwass. After all, she was just a fleeting phantom, a fuel thrown into the fire... that's all.

If Isabel had developed feelings for him, she might feel sad when they parted - even if you keep a pet for a few months, you will feel sad when the pet dies. Not to mention a living person with whom you have deep feelings.

And given Isabel's personality, her sadness might be even more difficult to contain.

For those who remember themselves and never forget, Aiwass is enough.

Aleister thought so in his heart.

Now that I think about it, this might be the underlying motivation for Aleister to instinctively escape from meeting Isabel - in this world, sleep is a very reasonable need. Although most extraordinary people do not have a rigid need for sleep, everyone needs to contact the dream world through the channel of "sleep".

——As we all know, it is difficult for people to dream when they are not sleeping.

Hearing this, Isabel just smiled mysteriously - unexpectedly, Aleister did not understand the meaning of Isabel's smile, which made her a little flustered.

Isabel climbed onto the bed, and Aleister subconsciously shrank back.

But she was quickly grabbed back by Isabel and hugged from behind. Feeling the hot air coming from behind, Aleister felt a little creepy on her neck for a moment - but at the same time, she felt a kind of attachment and familiar intimacy.

The moment Aleister smelled Isabel's scent, her abdomen and tense calves slowly softened. Although her upper body was still struggling, she seemed to have no strength to resist.

I am clearly an incarnation that transcends the Tao, but why...

Such a thought flashed through Aleister's mind.

"Why are you so nervous?"

Isabel whispered in Aleister's ear: "Aren't you a girl? Isn't it normal for girls to hug each other?

"...Or do you still think of yourself as Aiwass? But if you are Aiwass, why don't you dare to approach me?"

"I……"

Aleister was speechless for a moment.

But Isabel spoke her mind directly: "Are you worried... that developing feelings for me will be detrimental to your integration? Are you worried that I will be sad about your leaving?"

"…Indeed."

Aleister was silent for a long time, then calmly replied, "I am just a phantom after all, fleeting. No one can remember me. The only meaning of my existence is to promote Aiwass to a higher position.

"I am not a part of Aiwass - because he left me, but he is still Aiwass. He has Aiwass's appearance, Aiwass's personality, Aiwass's memories and everything. But my appearance is fake, my identity is fabricated, and even this face is just a replacement for someone else, and I don't even know her full name.

"So, you don't have to contact me too much, and I'm afraid I won't contact you too many times. You don't have to drink every day, it's not good for your health. We can set aside some time... For example, contact once every half a month or a month? If it's just to deal with important matters, I think the time is enough.

"We can actually be more businesslike - you tell me what needs to be dealt with, and if I can help you solve it, I will help you think about it. As for the really important things, I still have to pass them on to Aiwass... After all, my thinking is too advanced, and many of the strategies I proposed may harm you and Avalon..."

Aleister closed his eyes and suddenly said a lot of words with scattered thoughts and somewhat roundabout logic.

But Isabel just tilted her head and responded with a short half sentence: "What are you afraid of?"

For just a moment, Aleister was silent.

She was quiet, as if she was asleep.

The Path of Beauty's ability to perceive people's hearts is much stronger in the dream world than in the material world. Because there is no confusion between acting and expression here, there is no room for "lies". When Isabel and Aleister's bodies come into contact, Isabel can read all of Aleister's emotions.

——Emotions can speak.

Just like a perfect opera, you can roughly understand what story it is telling even if you don’t speak the language; an actor with abundant emotional tension can be felt without you having to understand what he says.

At this moment, Isabel felt a strong sense of loneliness and panic.

Aleister should be extremely powerful, because she is the half of Aiwass who is a transcendent. In other words, she can also summon that powerful phantom demon... a phantom demon that can easily kill a fifth-level upper demon. Even if she is not completely invincible in this world, she should be a rare opponent.

But on the contrary...Aleister's heart is extremely fragile.

This was different from the Aiwass that Isabel remembered.

"Since you said you are not Aiwass... can you listen to a story?"

Suddenly, Isabel whispered behind Aleister: "About...how I fell in love with Aiwass."

Aleister's body subconsciously trembled for a moment.

Without waiting for her response, Isabel spoke up, "In the beginning, in my memory... Aiwass was always calm, wise, knowledgeable, and convincing. His soul was bright, his mind was clear, and he would never panic, fear, rage, or get angry. It was as if all the despicable words could not be used on him...

"That posture is more like that of a god than a mortal - a god that people should stay away from."

(End of this chapter)