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Chapter 82

Fan Wenbin said: "Xi Shi, can we find a place to chat?"

Pan Xishi looked left and right, then nodded, and led the way to behind a big tree at the corner of the road. She looked at Fan Wenbin and said, "If you have anything to say, say it!"

Fan Wenbin saw that Pan Xishi's expression was very calm, and he didn't sound particularly irritable like when he answered the phone before, he calmed down a little, and said softly: "Xishi, you haven't eaten yet, I mean find a place to sit Sit down, let's eat and chat."

Pan Xishi said: "Fan Wenbin, this is where I work. If it wasn't for fear of being pestered by you, I wouldn't even say a word to you here. Didn't I explain clearly enough on the phone? Why bother to meet again? Bring shame upon yourself!"

Fan Wenbin was stunned, his heart constricted violently, the lovers who used to be in love now communicate with each other with such words, his heart is colder than the weather at this time.

"Xishi, after we broke up, I have never had anyone else. I have been working hard, and I have always thought that I can't drag you down when I can't do anything. When I make a name for myself, if you are still alone, I hope I can be the best Compensate you as much as possible, double your happiness, and compensate you for what you couldn't give before. I just signed a contract with a private school, and then I came to you non-stop. You know how hard I have been working during this time Otherwise? Otherwise, there are so many teachers from various institutions, how can they give me such a high annual salary?" Fan Wenbin was not showing off, he spoke very eagerly, wishing to tell Pan Xishi everything he had done these days.

Pan Xishi said: "Fan Wenbin, we have been together for so many years, you were the most important person in my life, but before we broke up, I realized that we are not the same kind of people at all, we are not suitable to be together at all. Therefore, separation is the best care you can take for me."

"Xi Shi, I know you are blaming me. But my original intention is really for your own good, I think you should be considerate of me!"

"I really can't understand. We've been together for so many years, do you know what I hate the most? Do you know what I long for the most?" Pan Xishi smiled as the north wind whizzed by. It also became very cold, "What I hate the most is that anyone pretends to be good to me, and throws me away like a burden. What I long for most is that the family will share the joys and sorrows together and never leave. Every day Every family is each other's treasure, no one can be missing."

Pan Xishi recalled more than once when she was a child, Song Jiahui asked her whether she was facing her grandmother or her in front of many people at her grandma's house. Who did she think made sense?She was still underage at the time and chose to stand by her grandmother without hesitation. Perhaps from that moment on, her mother completely rejected her from the family and would never admit that she was a member of the family. a member.

But for a child who is not yet an adult, she and grandma are the closest. In this world, grandma provides her with life security, and her mother will only put herself in a complicated living environment , Let the underage girls face all the responsibility issues of the big family alone.As a mother, when you need someone to support you, you will use your identity as a mother to ask your child. If you succeed, such a mother will not give her daughter support in life, but leave her child alone after getting emotional satisfaction. Leave and continue to let the child face everything alone.

In fact, Song Jiahui once put the underage Pan Xihong at her grandmother's house, but Pan Xihong was ridiculed by her uncle's brother for not knowing how to eat pippi shrimp, and she cried all afternoon.When Song Jiahui came to pick up the child, she was so angry that she beat up her eldest nephew, but it was precisely because of that fat beating that the brother of the uncle's family no longer dared to bully Pan Xihong, but dared to continue to bully Pan Xishi .Later, under Pan Xihong's begging, Song Jiahui went to work at night and was afraid that her beloved daughter would be bullied, so she took the child with her.

At that time, Pan Xishi was standing in front of the balcony window, watching the moment when Song Jiahui and Pan Xihong merged into the night together, she yearned for it from the bottom of her heart.Ever since she was very young, she has longed for the day when there will be such a person, no matter how poor or rich, no matter what adversity or prosperity, she will regard herself as a part of her life and will never abandon her.

"At first, I thought you would be such a person, but later I found out that I was actually living in the illusion created by myself. When I realized this, I had already given up on you in my heart. Fan Wenbin, today you You should know that although you proposed to break up first, I was the first person to completely abandon the other party from my heart."

Fan Wenbin said: "Just because of this, you won't forgive me, will you?"

Pan Xishi nodded solemnly: "Yes, I will never forgive."

Time seemed to stand still, and the sound of the wind blew past the ears of the two of them, like whines.

Fan Wenbin's voice became low, and he said painfully: "But we have been together for so many years, but we have only been separated for such a short time, and there is no other person around us, don't you think it is a pity to be separated like this? We are both 30 years old now. It was because of a brief breakup, and the reason for the breakup was because I had no money at the time and couldn’t give you a good life. Now I think I can give you happiness, why don’t you accept it? ? Don't you think it's a pity to have such a relationship for so many years?"

"In love, there is a saying that you can look at ten thousand years, but there is another saying that you can miss a lifetime when you turn around." Pan Xishi calmly looked at his former lover under the severe cold, without any melancholy or resentment in his heart, as if he was really talking to himself An irrelevant past, "My mother said I was cold-blooded, my father said I was ruthless, my relatives said I was ungrateful, maybe I am such a person, but I don't want to change. I can't find a reason to convince myself, so I can't do something against my heart."

Fan Wenbin looked at Pan Xishi, he knew that he really lost the girl in front of him.

"Xi Shi, I can think that it is difficult for you to be alone during this time. I am sorry, I have loved you for so long, but I did not stay by your side during the most difficult time. I did not serve as your safe haven, but sprinkled water on your wound. A handful of salt." Fan Wenbin is not a scumbag, he really likes this girl, he always wanted to give her happiness, but often he couldn't do it, "I didn't have the ability before, but in the future, no matter what difficulties you encounter, you can come Find me and I will do my best to help you, even if you can't be a lover, you are the most important girl in my life."

Pan Xishi's expression suddenly became cold again: "You probably don't understand one thing. In this world, it is very difficult for many people to help others, but there are still some people who find it hardest to ask for help. It is not the person who thinks the most Those who are close to you will take care of yourself even if you encounter huge difficulties.”

"It's still the same sentence. Let's not meet again in the future, and don't make a phone call."

"We left each other's world cleanly and thoroughly, as if we had never known each other before."

"I won't say thank you for the beauty you gave me before, because the pain of breaking up with you has been offset."

"We owe nothing to each other now!"

"The relationship between us for so many years can only show that we are really not suitable, and it has always been a mistake to be together."

"This error has been dragging on for a long time, it is long overdue to fix this error!"

On the way back, there were numerous snowflakes.Pan Xishi remained silent.Shang Yunxuan, who had been waiting not far away, accompanied her and walked towards home.Pan Xishi suddenly said: "Do you think I'm ruthless? Breaking up is not enough to say such harsh words, nor is it necessary to deny the feelings of the past so many years. See, my parents and relatives are right, I'm just a cold-blooded and unsympathetic person, and I'm not very likable."

Shang Yunxuan said: "Before I didn't understand why we had to speak harshly when we broke up. I just saw you and him together, and I realized that when you want to be with others, you speak harsh words. It's not heartless, and you are all regretful!"

Pan Xi Shizi turned her head to look at the young man beside her, she suddenly felt warm in her heart as if she knew him for the first time.

(End of this chapter)