my reality with some autobiography

Chapter 141, Chen Xuan returns and reveals his true nature

"If it were Chen Xuan"

"If the speed of his attribute improvement can catch up with mine, it will really be a big help."

"Suppose that in the seventh life, Chen Xuan went to ask Chen Xuan for help."

"Then what will Chen Xuan do?"

Thinking of this, Chen Xuan subconsciously let the attribute panel open the autobiography.

He planned to read the previous chapter about Chen Xuan.

In order to calculate Chen Xuan's current attribute value.

After all, he has the original memory of Chen Xuan.

Of course I know, it’s been a long time since I wrote about Chen Xuan in his autobiography.

"If I remember correctly, Chen Xuan's position was originally assigned to the sports meeting plot."

"At that time, his attributes should not be all 4."

Chen Xuan looked through his autobiography, and what was described in the autobiography was exactly as he recalled it in his mind.

"At that time, Chen Xuan set the world for Chen Xuan at Human Limit 4, so Chen Xuan at this time could only be considered a strong ordinary person in that world."

"It's not a match for those top warriors yet."

"Wait a minute, did Chen Xuan write this paragraph originally?"

Chen Xuan looked at the last paragraph of Chen Xuan's autobiography:
[Zhang Yu’s eyes flashed with madness.

“Arrange some people for the evening”

"Arrange another heavy truck."]

Chen Xuan was stunned and turned back the page.

but.
"Gone?"

"Why did it end here?"

"Fuck, at least finish writing this plot, and then write about Chen Xuan."

"If you stop here, what will happen next in Chen Xuan's world?"

"If anything happens to [Tang Moxi], wouldn't Chen Xuan go crazy?"

Chen Xuan felt vaguely that something bad was going on.

Turn forward subconsciously
Comfort yourself at the same time
"On Blue Star, in reality, Chen Xuan's experience should have been confessed to Xixi at this time."

"Still together."

"So, the previous chapters should have written about this."

"Huh? Why just..."

"[Tang Moxi] was being bullied by the Internet and broke the women's [-]-meter record in anger, and she still said this in front of the interview camera?"

Chen Xuan was stunned.

Why do you write this?
This is completely different from Chen Xuan's experience sequence.

Shouldn't Zhang Yu confess his love first and then murder the people around Chen Xuan?

Why was this part of the confession skipped?
Why is the original Chen Xuan so critical of his autobiography?

I looked at the time when Chen Xuan’s chapter was released and recalled it in my mind.
At that time, what was the original Chen Xuan doing?

soon.

Chen Xuan's face darkened.

"At that time, Feng Dongdong was seriously injured."

"Chen Xuan was extremely angry, so he incorporated too many negative emotions when coding his autobiography."

"He actually skipped letting Chen Xuan confess to [Tang Moxi] based on reality."

"Go directly to attract [Zhang Yu]'s hatred and choose to kill [Zhang Yu]."

"This vents the frustration of not being able to use one's abilities due to the restrictions of the rule of law in reality."

Chen Xuan suddenly felt a headache.

If Chen Xuan wrote his autobiography like this, he would indeed be very happy.

Kill the enemy first, then embrace the beauty.

No more worries.

but….
"Hey, why do you stop here to attract hatred?"

"If it ends after Chen Xuan kills [Zhang Yu] and confesses to [Tang Moxi], then there will be a happy reunion."

"But now, it's decided to stop here."

"After the world bug is automatically repaired, are Chen Xuan and [Tang Moxi] together?"

"If they are together, then it should be easy for Chen Xuan to seek help from Chen Xuan in his seventh life."

"But if the plot doesn't develop in the direction of Shuangwen"

"Then Chen Xuan went to Chen Xuan, and Chen Xuan learned that everything he experienced was written by Chen Xuan. Wouldn't he hate Chen Xuan to death?"

Chen Xuan thought of this level, which was very reasonable.

Because the autobiographical protagonist may hate himself for his problems.

The original Chen Xuan thought about it before entering Chen Xuan's world.

after all--

Whether it's Chen Xuan or Chen Xuan.

It turns out that when Chen Xuan wrote about them, the beginning of the chapter was a bit abusive.

Chen Xuan was better.

Because it turns out that Chen Xuan wants to enter Chen Xuan's world.

If the torture is too harsh and the villain is too strong, then he will be a little tired to deal with it.

and so--

Regarding Chen Xuan, Chen Xuan only abused him slightly.

This bit of cruelty is more to drive Chen Xuan to follow the established plot according to his settings.

But when I think about it, Chen Xuan's description of Chen Xuan
Chen Xuan was silent.

Even the corners of his mouth started to twitch...
"Suppressing Chen Xuan is considered to be abusing the article."

"If after the bug in Chen Xuan's world is fixed, he and [Tang Moxi] are together, then there is still room for negotiation."

"If we weren't together."

"Oh, you also asked Chen Xuan for help. Chen Xuan didn't kill Chen Xuan in front of him, so he was already very polite."

Chen Xuan did not think in the direction that [Tang Mo Xi] was dead.

Because in his subconscious.

No matter who Tang Moxi is, she belongs to the heroine in all major worlds.

If you think about it habitually, you don't think that Tang Moxi will die.

But I didn't even think of it
He was going to kill Tang Mo Xi, so how could Tang Mo Xi not die?

not to mention.

Each world begins to run autonomously and bugs are fixed.

Just the protagonist.

Everyone will die.

Started again, Zhou Tian’s level 6 quadruple exercise.

Let's cultivate Chen Xuan's physical body.

At the same time, he observed [Tang Moxi] and improved his concentration proficiency.

As for the bewitchment against Chen Xuan.

In the past two days, Chen Xuan planned to take it easy first to let Chen Xuan's mentality relax.

Because of the experience of almost losing his virginity, Chen Xuan's mentality was very unstable and he was very frightened.

If you plan to go all out, just ignore Chen Xuan after blowing it up.

Of course, it would be best to take this opportunity to confuse him.

but--

[Tang Moxi] hasn’t taken advantage of it yet.

Chen Xuan also foresaw it and wanted to maintain Chen Xuan's trust.

So it was decided to give Chen Xuan a few days to rest.

after all--

The fist is retracted in order to strike out more powerfully.

Chen Xuan has had enough rest and his mentality is stable enough. If he deals with [Tang Moxi] again, he will definitely experience intense emotional ups and downs.

The operation of the four poles is completed.

After Chen Xuan regained his mental power, he continued to think
"Suppose that after Chen Xuan's world is automatically repaired, Chen Xuan and [Tang Moxi] are together."

"The seventh generation of Chen Xuan should have received help from Chen Xuan."

"Chen Xuan's World was written by Chen Xuan using Chen Xuan's handwriting."

"So Chen Xuan can also see Chen Xuan, and can also enter Chen Xuan's world and enter Chen Xuan's body."

"Chen Xuan has an attribute panel. As long as Chen Xuan cooperates, he can let Chen Xuan scan his body or inform Chen Xuan of the knowledge about the human body."

"Then Chen Xuan will be there in a very short time."

"Through the standards of the attribute panel, the attributes have reached the same level as Chen Xuan."

"In this case."

"Huh? And the eighth life?"

"Doesn't that prove that the seventh life also failed?"

"Chen Xuan with attribute 9, plus Chen Xuan with attribute 9, can't achieve the goal?"

hiss--

Chen Xuan took a breath.

"Impossible, absolutely impossible."

"If this still fails, then Chen Xuan can just lie down and die. There is no hope at all."

Chen Xuan immediately rejected this hypothesis.

"So the hypothesis is not valid. After Chen Xuan's world fixed the bug, he was not with [Tang Moxi]."

"Then in the seventh life, Chen Xuan should find a way to win Chen Xuan's hand."

"But the fight failed, and Chen Xuan chose to sit on the sidelines?"

Think of this.

Chen Xuan decided that this should be the case. Only in this way will the seventh life fail and the next eighth life will follow.

"In the eighth life, we will continue to fight for it."

"But the eighth life also failed. Could it be that he also failed to win, and Chen Xuan still chose to stand idly by?"

"Then the ninth life also failed. What's the logic?"

"Have you won it yet?"

"If that's the case, what's the use of Chen Xuan letting me come out in this life?"

"He didn't even give me the memories of previous lives. How can I fight for it? Wait a minute."

"memory?"

"memory!"

Chen Xuan suddenly woke up and realized something that he had always ignored.

"Yes, since Chen Xuan has been reborn 9 times."

"Then he must have the memory of the ninth life."

"But what about the memory?"

"Why don't I have any memories of previous lives in my mind?"

Chen Xuan came to his senses and tried his best to search his memory, but he only found it from this life.

There is no memory of rebirth at all.

"Why is such an important thing, I haven't thought about it."

"I should have thought of it when I discovered the rebirth cheat."

"It's Chen Xuan."

"It must be his fault!"

"He hid his memory and secretly prevented me from thinking in this direction!"

When Chen Xuan thought of this, a deep fear enveloped his whole body.

Fear of the original Chen Xuan.

At this moment, it turned into fear.

Everything that felt vaguely wrong before was now clear.

He opened his autobiography
It's turned backwards.

"Since I was born, except for what happened with Chen Xuan just now, I have never thought of reading my autobiography."

"never!"

"Is this possible? Absolutely impossible!"

"Obviously in my memory, the autobiography is automatically publishing warning chapters. How could I not have imagined that the autobiography will continue to be updated?"

"But I have never thought about it in this direction."

Chen Xuan looked at the back of the autobiography and saw the chapters that were automatically released.
Looking at the original Chen Xuan, I resolutely moved away from my own description.

Looking behind him, he saw everything he had done and everything he was thinking.

Everything is clearly recorded in the autobiography.

Even the latest chapter [First Six Lives, Reasons for Failure].

It is also clearly recorded
Everything he thought about the day before yesterday!
"I should have thought of it, I should have thought of it."

"No wonder I always feel that something is blinding my sanity."

"It turns out that you are the one playing tricks."

"I have been reborn nine times. If the memory is not reborn, then it is nothing like rebirth. It is just repetition."

"But the memory is reborn. How could you forget your knowledge of the human body?"

"Since I remember the cognition and attributes of the human body, how can it still be like this?"

"With the attribute panel, almost instantly, you can reach the peak of your standards, the peak of your first nine lives!"

Chen Xuan gritted his teeth and said the terrifying truth.

But after saying that, the whole mood calmed down.

Because he understood that he was dead.

He is not Chen Xuan's opponent at all.

How can he, who has less than 8 points of spirit now, be the opponent of Chen Xuan's consciousness who has 9 points of spirit and has been reborn nine times?

"Come out, how long are you going to hide?"

"What's the point of hiding if you continue to hide?"

Chen Xuan said calmly, resigned to his fate.

It's all in one.

When you still have the ability to struggle, you are certainly not willing to give up your freedom.

But knowing that he is no match, no matter how hard he struggles, he will only be destroyed.

the most important is.

His personality was once again replaced by the original Chen Xuan personality, seemingly dead forever.

But in fact.

It's just that he is hiding behind it, and he may make the decision again at any time.

Just like ordinary people, sometimes their tempers are aroused and they will behave completely differently from usual.

After waking up.

Can't believe what I did before.

It seemed like it was him who did it.

But in fact, at that moment, his personality was replaced by a hidden personality.

There are even some personalities that tend to split, or even have already split.

When you are angry or extremely emotional.

There will be a spectator's perspective.

There will be a strange feeling of "becoming a bystander, watching yourself and doing behaviors that you don't agree with at ordinary times"
"Come out and let me lose clearly. You can't even satisfy me with this, right?"

Chen Xuan frowned and was about to shout again.

Sudden.

All original memories are from a modified third-person perspective.
Again, change to No.1 scale.

But in the next moment, everything switched back to the third person.

Then, No.1 called again.

Even switching back and forth between No.1 person and third person...
Until, I couldn't tell whether it was No. 1 or the third person.

Chen Xuan was stunned. He couldn't believe it and couldn't laugh or cry.
"It turns out that I have always been me."

"The No.1 subjective perspective and the third-person onlooker's perspective are nothing but a fabrication that I deceive myself."

Subconsciously, ordinary people think that their memory should be No. 1, after all, they have experienced it before.

But just imagine, how do we feel when we recall?
Will you also see yourself?

See your own status.

See yourself in action.

For example, when you recall the scene you used to play, do you only have the defensive player and the basket in front of you in your mind, or do you have your own overall picture?

Can you remember clearly whether your pants touched your buttocks when dribbling?

I would like to ask, is this No. 1 pronoun or third person pronoun?
Therefore, memory is meaningless in the first and third persons.

It has No. 1 inner feelings and a third-person perspective.

But this feeling is your current psychological emotion when you recall it. It seems to be the same as your original emotion in the memory, but it is actually completely different, because you will attach many of your emotions in the memory based on the current situation.

For example, recalling the intimacy of a first love.

You may have the following emotions or thoughts right now: She is so beautiful, she is so well-behaved, and you are so happy to be with her.

But it is very likely that at that time, you only had her body, the emotions or thoughts of craving for her body in your mind.

Therefore, memory tends to be in the third person.

The No. 1 name I think is just the current subjective consciousness, which adds emotions to the memory.

In any memory of yourself, you can clearly recall the front, back, left, and right sides of your body.

But if it's No. 1, how can you see your butt when you raise your head?

and so--

There is no original Chen Xuan, and there is no Chen Xuan after the soul transfer.

"I've always been who I am, and my personality hasn't changed at all."

After Chen Xuan came to his senses, he smiled bitterly, "I'm convinced too."

"You lied to yourself, and you went so far."

"It turns out that I have been fighting wits and courage with the air."

"I made myself confused."

"It turns out that I didn't move my soul at all."

"It's just a psychological hint for myself."

"I suggest that my soul has been moved."

"And immediately after"

"Because I think I am the version of myself after soul transfer, I can abuse [Tang Moxi] and the others with peace of mind."

Chen Xuan couldn't help but hold his forehead.

His previous state, his mentality after thinking that he had transferred his soul
In fact, the mentality of some criminals is exactly the same when they make up a set of logic for themselves and they are not wrong when they break the law.

Think of this.

Chen Xuan took out the rebirth plug-in
"So, there is no point in nine rebirths."

"The rebirth function of the rebirth plug-in was regarded as a BUG and fixed."

"It was originally a false lie with too many loopholes."

"Without the memory of nine rebirths, the lie was exposed in an instant."

Thoughts turned around, Chen Xuan was silent...

"Now, what should I do?"

The answer is obvious, just do it according to your mentality after thinking that you have moved your soul.

Determination is made.

Chen Xuan looked at the beating spirit level and raised the corner of his mouth slightly.

"My psychology after soul-shifting is also a kind of me..."

"Getting to know myself again."

"Wait, then Chen Xuan..."

(End of this chapter)