Anorectal department met first love, my agency died

Chapter 59

Han Yixuan's eye sockets were a little wet, Song Shiwei took out a tissue and handed it over.

He took the tissue and said "thank you".

"When I saw you for the first time, I thought you were a bit like my sister, with big talking eyes like her." Han Yixuan looked at Song Shiwei, but Song Shiwei couldn't understand the emotion in his eyes.

"You haven't contacted me in the past few years, but I have never forgotten you. I was actually quite excited when I met you in the bar that day..."

Han Yixuan smiled and calmed down, "That's why I'm particularly concerned about how you are doing now. Don't worry too much."

Song Shi nodded slightly, "Thank you!"

"The person you mentioned back then that you wanted to hug..." Han Yixuan looked at Song Shiwei, "Is it Dr. Xiao too?"

When Song Shiwei came to see him for a doctor, he didn't say who it was, but said that there was a boy she liked, and when she saw him, she wanted to hug him and touch him, and she felt sick.

But it was not revealed who it was.

At that time, Han Yixuan thought he was her classmate, but she didn't expect him to be someone so much older than her.

That day he asked Song Shiwei if she had found the person she wanted to hug. He thought it was the person she met later, but now that he thought about it, maybe it was the same person.

Song Shi slightly lowered his eyes, hesitated in his heart, and finally nodded, "Yes, it's him."

Han Yixuan's eyes flickered, concealing his emotions, "In fact, people suffering from skin hunger syndrome have an illusion that they can get pleasure from hugging others, such as blushing, accelerated heartbeat, weak legs, and even orgasm."

"After getting that hug, she will be very satisfied and happy. There is a feeling of being filled in her heart, and it is easy to become dependent on that person. In fact, it is because of illness..."

The more Han Yixuan talked about Song Shiwei, the paler his face became. He was like this. Does this mean that he didn't really like Xiao Yi, but it was just caused by his illness?

"But didn't you say that if you find someone who wants to hug you and hug him more, you will gradually get better?" Song Shiwei asked.

"Yes, I said so." Han Yixuan nodded, "But you were young at that time, but now that you have grown up, I hope you can distinguish whether you really love him or just rely on him, and don't mistake your lover. "

Song Shiwei was suddenly a little confused. She felt that she liked Xiao Yi, but she didn't know if she had reached the level of love.

Some people say that if you love someone, you will give everything for him, even your life. She disagrees. She thinks that you must love yourself before you can love others.

So I don't really love him?
If your blushing and heartbeat when you see him are all caused by illness, then you won't even be sure whether you really like him.

"But you don't have too much psychological burden." Han Yixuan comforted Song Shiwei again, "You have a lot of time, you can think slowly, don't rush to give yourself up. Maybe he was very good to you when you were young, so you are attached his."

"Did you know him since you were very young?" Han Yixuan stared into Song Shiwei's eyes.

Song Shi nodded slightly.

"That's right, you have projected your desire for your parents' love onto him." Han Yixuan said. He had seen Song Shiwei, and naturally knew that her parents had not been around since she was a child, so she got this disease.

"Don't worry, I can continue to treat you. I know you don't have a job right now, so I can treat you for free. It's like treating my sister." Han Yixuan said.

Song Shi smiled bitterly, "How embarrassing is that?"

"It's okay, it just so happens that we both have secrets, we are in the same boat, and we can help each other." Han Yixuan's mouth twitched.

"But I can't do anything for you." Song Shi shook his head slightly.

"You don't have to do anything for me. When I am lonely, I ask you to have dinner with me. If you don't refuse, it will help me the most." Han Yixuan said.

Song Shiwei forced a smile, "Then I took advantage."

However, she was not very willing in her heart. She felt that she was fine alone and did not want a man to enter her life so forcefully.

Even if she was sick and couldn't be cured, she didn't want to hurt anyone, and lived alone.

She once saw a topic brought up by someone on the Internet, saying that those of you who are not married and have children will not be buried after death.

But now netizens are very powerful and live a very transparent life.

Some people say, "It doesn't matter, I signed for body donation."

Someone said, "If you bury your love or not, just throw it onto the street. It's not me who's scared."

"It's okay to paste on the wall, but if you want to paste on the wall, I'm introverted."

"Throw them into the mountains and old forests. They ate so many birds and beasts during their lifetimes. Let them improve their food after death."

"I'm dead, so why bother?"

"It doesn't matter, even if the corpse is exposed in the wilderness, it's okay, and it's not me who scared me.

"Find a feng shui treasure and bury it, can it be revived?"

"You are afraid of ghosts, but I am not, because I have joined the camp of ghosts, hahaha."

Song Shiwei also laughed out loud when she saw this at the time. After laughing, she really went to find out about the body donation.

Of course, that was the worst-case scenario. She had also thought about having a lover and a cute child, but if not, she still had to live.

She also has a brother, and she will not do stupid things for him.

But she will not marry for the sake of marriage, and will not have children because of the urging of others.

If she wants to get married, it must be because she loves that person, not because of other people's gossip, not because of social pressure and other factors.

Although she felt that she liked Xiao Yi, if it was really caused by her illness, then don't get him involved.

If you lose him because of this, you can't blame others.

Thinking of this, Song Shiwei was a little relieved.

Live in the moment, why think so much.

I don't know which will come first, accident or tomorrow.

Han Yixuan kept watching Song Shiwei, feeling that her facial expressions had changed in various ways in just a few minutes, and he didn't know what she was thinking.

"What do you think? You can tell me, and I'll analyze it for you." Han Yixuan was persuasive.

Song Shi smiled, "It's nothing, just let nature take its course. If the heavens prevent me from getting well, then so be it."

Han Yixuan was a little surprised, "Do you still believe in fate?"

Song Shi pursed his lips slightly, "So what if you don't believe it? It can't change anything."

Han Yixuan frowned, "Some things can be changed. If your illness is cured, you may have a different future."

"Really?" Song Shiwei continued to eat, "I am just an extremely ordinary person. What kind of different future do I have? Maybe if I recover from my illness and find someone to get married and have children, won't I still be an ordinary person?"

"If you die, you can only live in one urn, and even the urn can be used. It can be directly sprinkled in the sea or planted under trees. It is also good as fertilizer."

Han Yixuan frowned, why did he feel that she was so negative? This was not what he wanted to see.

(End of this chapter)