It's a diary

Chapter 102 2.13
I am really scared to the core of my being.

Originally, I thought that as time went by, my relationship with everyone would improve in a polite but non-intimate way.

But actually, no.

People are just terrible, everyone is.

Even sometimes, the person who scares and disgusts me the most is myself.

How did that happen.

Why did everything go so wrong.

Unfortunately, I am not a person who loves life very much. Many times in my dreams, I dreamed that I was walking towards my own ultimate step by step.

One night while I was busy dreaming, I dreamed of myself and a vibrant courtyard.On both sides of the chair in the garden are two-color camellias that bloom as red as the morning sun and as white as snow.A fat orange cat kept walking back and forth at my feet.Under the evergreen tree is a swing that is swayed in a small arc by the wind...

A small red and black snake wrapped around a hibiscus flower beside the fence was spitting out snake bites and making a "hissing" sound.

That dream ended here.

What was I doing at that time?Oh, I didn't even open the curtains to take a look. I just took the medicine on the bedside table in the dark and took a few pills.

That medicine is the most unpleasant medicine I have ever taken, even more disgusting than traditional Chinese medicine.

Why are there such Western medicines that melt when put in the mouth without drinking water, but get stuck in the throat after swallowing, and the bitter taste in the mouth cannot be dissipated for a long time?

I often dream about snakes and I can't figure it out.

I once thought about going to a mountaintop near a certain beach to find a fortune teller for a fortune teller.But this was just a thought. I went there many times, but never climbed to the top of the mountain.

A joke is called a joke only if both parties find it funny.It's just that one party thinks it's funny. It's not a joke, it's a hooligan, and it's shameless.

I always thought that I had done a good job by being careful in everything and never saying too much.

Gee.

In the past few days, I always tell Alin: Studying is so difficult and painful, but if you don’t study, you don’t know what to do.

But actually, I don’t find studying hard at all.real.

I think the most painful and difficult thing is getting along with people and living.

It's easier to live, as long as you hold your breath.

But when you get along with others, you will get bruised all over if you are not careful.

I really want to hide.

If I were a cat, I wouldn't have to think about these things.

I went to bed early last night, but I felt like I couldn't sleep well all night.I've been sleepy all day. I fell asleep so hard at noon that I didn't even want to get up.

Why do people always have so many worries in their lives?

In fact, I had an ordinary day, just doing what I needed to do step by step.Why are you making such a joke on me at the end of the day?

I am tired, have no energy, no thoughts, and no time to care about these things.

I hope that everyone can learn how to write the word "polite" and understand the meaning of the word "respect".

The first day has passed, and I hope the next few days will be better.

good night.

(End of this chapter)