It's a diary

Chapter 121 3.7
I always thought that after this semester started, I would be busy all of a sudden.I am so busy that my feet are not touching the ground, I am so busy that I am in endless distress, and I am so busy that I don’t even have the energy to complain too much.

But this is not the case.

In these three weeks or so, I have lived quite comfortably and leisurely, not much different from the past six months.

Although I still feel unhappy occasionally and feel depressed because of other things...

Don't think about it once it's over. The more you think about it, the worse it gets.

A person's life is only so long, and there are many things that cannot be done.Learn to accept and accept your own mediocrity.

I'm actually quite lazy. I like this state of mind where I don't have to worry about anything.Just live every day like this.

Not fulfilling, but relaxing enough.

Leisure is good, but not that great.

If you are alone, it is definitely good to have some leisure time.But if you are in a group, among a group of people, then leisure is not good.

At that time, time will pass very slowly and life will become very boring. Others are in pairs and you are alone.

It was because I was too free that I started taking time to talk nonsense every day.

At first, I was afraid.

Distrust of oneself and others.It is also the fear of a strange environment.

What now.

The fear is gone.I live a life that is just like everyone else but with a few nuances.

But whether it is towards others or towards myself, I still look at it with suspicion.Life goes by like this, and lately, I feel an inexplicable sense of fear from time to time.

People are terrible.

There are no absolutely good people or absolutely bad people.The world is a mixture of black and white, and so are people.

I am not happy.

I am very depressed.

Everything is worth feeling sad about, everything is a tragedy.

Dusk is a tragedy; low tide is a tragedy; illness is a tragedy; old age is also a tragedy...

Cheerful?Tsk.

In fact, there is tragedy all around.Everything is like this.It's just a fact.

I don't know how to go in the future.I don't understand, I don't understand.

No matter how you choose, it doesn’t seem to be the case.

There are so many things to consider.

To this day, I have almost forgotten what my original idea was.

When I was in Beiyu, I thought this way: I would just go out to study for a few years and then come back for the exam.

At the beginning, getting out of Beiyu was my biggest wish.

After coming to Qingzhou, it became my new wish to take the exam and return to Beiyu.

After that, I wanted to go further.

Go to one of the best big cities in the region, a city with ginkgo...

I was talking about this with Arin.

I was shaken and I wanted to go further.After seeing a bigger and more exciting world, we returned to Beiyu.

Haven't made a choice yet.Someone again put a new road in front of me.

A coward like me has a lot to think about.

The results are out.

Out of 11 subjects, eight subjects were outstanding, with a score of almost [-].

For the remaining three subjects, the Chinese language is stable, the mathematics is not failed, and the operating system should be [-].

The total score cannot be estimated.Just wait for the results.

I want to show off, but I also want to compete for first place.

People are always like this.

(End of this chapter)