It's a diary

Chapter 120 3.6
When I returned to the dormitory, I looked up from downstairs and saw the moon in the sky.

Very big.Very bright.

I mentioned before that Hippo set another password for wx and qq, but then she forgot it... so we could only chat on zfb.

More than 20 days... She finally remembered that password at around [-]:[-] this afternoon.

Very 6.

It’s so rare, almost a month.At first, I urged her to try it every day, and then...she got tired, and so did I.

When we were about to give up, she actually remembered.

Monday was over in a daze, and it felt like the day had passed without doing anything.

Then it’s Tuesday and Wednesday…

My head hurts.

I re-copied a quarter of "Shanglin Fu" during my self-study tonight, spent some time practicing my spoken English, and took some time out to relax.

The weather is very comfortable and everything is just right.

I don’t want to do anything.Well, life goes by like this.Whether you are happy, sad, or confused...

Just pass it.

When I woke up this morning, I was full of energy. It was as if I had eaten something I shouldn't have.Then I saw my classmate and she was like this too.

When she saw me, she even said, "Hi, are you okay?"

The two people stared at each other, then stood and raised the flag.

Emmm...

I felt sleepy after raising the flag.

I took a nap at noon and didn’t get enough sleep.I really didn't get enough sleep. When I woke up, I felt like I couldn't even stand.

When I got to the computer room, I fell asleep until it was almost time for class.

The teacher in this class really likes to randomly select people to answer questions.It's scary to do something like this.

They don't dare to fish for fear that if they don't listen, they will be drawn and they won't be able to answer the questions.

However, the good news is that I am not drawn to answer questions today.

But, the bad news is, it’s still the same class on Wednesday afternoon.

It's a brain-burning thing. It's a brain-burning thing.

I saw a new path, but I didn't know which one to choose.I can't make a choice yet, and I don't want to make a choice that I will regret.

There is still time, I can think about it slowly and consider it slowly.

Just like when I was considering whether to leave Beiyu.Once I think about it, I will do it at any cost.

However, I am afraid that I will be greedy and swallow the elephant.

People, there are always many things to be afraid of.

afraid of anything.

All cowards.

Go to a concert, go to a concert, wait for a movie to be released, think about what happened in the past, look at the people around you... I can't explain what I have learned from these meaningless things. What.But every time I think about what happened, I can't help but laugh or cry.

It turned out to be the case.

When school was over, my classmate who stayed out told me that she was very unhappy and sad.

I half-jokingly asked her what was wrong, if she had been bitten by a fish ball.

While she was depressed, she was still defending the fish balls.

"No, fishballs don't bite. It's so stupid, how could it possibly bite?"

yes.How could a stupid dog bite? Only a mad dog would bite.

She said it was a feeling of suddenly not wanting to study.

How normal.

It's so normal to have this thought.

I often think so too.

But I am more extreme than many people.

My family is actually not stupid, and we also know that studying for a few more years will not make our future smooth and smooth, without any bumps in the road.But they are still willing to let us come to school.

why.

Maybe it's because of love.

Seriously, it's great.

Even if it just makes our future path a little easier than some people's.They are still willing to let us come to study.

In addition to this reason, another reason may be that they do not want us to suffer the hardships of society in advance.

But why don't you want to study?

Are you sensible?Maybe.

But what is more likely to be confusion and numbness.Day after day, I learned everything in detail, so I became numb.

It's like I can't run or jump.When I see the people around me being healthy, I can't help but feel envious, and I can't help but look at their figures running away.You may sometimes feel very conceited and feel bad about yourself.

But as time goes by, it won’t always be like this.

It’s not that I don’t envy it anymore, it’s that I accept it.Accepting such an unhealthy and imperfect self.

As long as you stay in this state, you'll be fine.

But the body still has flaws, and the envy is real.

Although I still feel sad about it from time to time, it's better after it's over. After all, no one is perfect.

If one day, someone suddenly says to you: "Everyone else is running and jumping, why don't you join in."

All I can say is that at that moment, the world collapsed.

Suddenly I felt that I didn’t want to study anymore.That's it.

It makes me sad when I think about it for no reason.Very sad. Very sad.

(End of this chapter)