It's a diary

Chapter 29 You need to have a good sleep

I thought I would finish writing this chapter in a coffee shop.In fact, it has been delayed again and again, until now.

It's really a bad habit.

My head is still groggy, and the words I speak and the sentences I write may not be particularly positive.Please excuse me.

What does it feel like to be in a dormitory with so many people?

I can not say.

Just know that this will not break my inner peace.

It's only a matter of time, just face it sooner.

Still went out.

Wearing that khaki windbreaker that I don't hate, I tied it with a bow that looked pretty good.gone.

Wait for the bus, get off at a suitable place, and walk around.

I didn’t eat last night or this morning, and it was almost noon when I went out.No matter what, you have to eat some whether you want to eat or not, otherwise you will faint from low blood sugar while walking, which is fun.

I walked a few streets and didn't see wontons.

There are others too, including breakfast shops, milk tea shops, and many of those messy fast food restaurants and powder shops.

I just don’t want to eat it.

Early in the morning, I wanted to eat something light.

I don't really like the heavy flavor, and until now, it's almost too greasy and spicy to eat.

Recently, I feel that I am really unlucky.

I won’t go into details with you, for fear of infecting you with bad luck.

I feel like all my luck has been used in the game - on the day I moved to the dormitory, I drew a card for free and got a card with a drop rate of less than [-]%.

At that time, all of a sudden, I really didn’t know whether I should continue to be sad.

Other than that, it’s this wonton shop.

real!tasty!
The quantity was so large that I was even afraid that the boss would lose money.

Next, it’s all kinds of wandering.

I walked to the park, where there were groups of old people playing chess, playing cards, playing piano and singing...

Anyway, very happy.

Why can't I just live a retired life?

The sun is so warm and the park is so interesting.

A young girl mixed in there was a little out of place, but I really wanted to understand what the opera was about!

An old man came and asked me why I was staying here. I said, "Listen to them singing."

Him: "Can you speak the vernacular?"

Me: "I can't speak, but I can understand. I speak Hakka."

Him: "Is it from xx?"

I was stunned for a moment, tsk, all of a sudden, I was guessed.

He asked me again: "Aren't you going to class?"

"today is weekend!"

He obviously didn't react at first.

I repeated again, "Today is Saturday, no classes! That's why I can go out for a walk."

I'm jealous.

How can you not be envious.

I also want to be like this, just enjoying life, eating, drinking and having fun every day, so happy that I don’t even need to know what day it is.

But no, I am still a student studying hard.I can only look forward to Monday being later and the holiday being longer every day.

I suddenly wanted to learn to speak vernacular.

It's very interesting to talk and chat with the elders. They can always tell me a lot of things that I didn't know before and that are not written in the textbooks.

Listen to them talk, talk about the past, talk about the principles of life, talk about the essence of things...

But I also said that I am actually very timid.

At first I didn't know how to socialize, then I didn't dare, and now I'm lazy.

My family would all say it.

Woo woo woo.

However, I am always embarrassed to speak out.Afraid of speaking poorly and losing face.

I have always been clear that for this kind of thing, you just have to open your mouth to say it and find people to practice with each other.

But no, I'm still too timid.I will still be embarrassed and afraid of losing face.

After that, I ran to the park and played with the children on the rides.

Funny.

Later, when I passed by a large square and saw a carousel, I really wanted to sit on it.

But when I think about it, my cousin asked me to sit on it several times. After I came down, I couldn’t even tell the difference between up, down, left and right.

Scared.

I walked along the Qingjiang River and sat on a bench under the willow tree.Watching the occasional white birds flying on the Qingjiang River, watching the vehicles passing by on the other side of the river, and listening to the sound of the water lapping at the parked boats.

When you've had enough, keep walking forward to see the river view.Look at the flowers.Watch other people fishing.

After that, I walked a few kilometers from there to another large mall.No reason, I’m too free and just want to take a walk.

Can't tell why.

To put it bluntly, I just want to find some guilt for myself.I want to make myself tired.

A little crazy, just to go there and buy candied haws.

I really want to eat something sour and sweet.Such as sour mango, such as hawthorn, such as strawberry...

I bought hawthorns, but not strawberries.

Also, it's not the strawberry season yet.Be colder, colder.

Although I'm not particularly happy, at least I don't feel anything else.

But when I walked back, I saw dead animals in the trash can.

Not the mouse kind.

Then, there was an indescribable feeling.

It's not that I'm sad.

Just keep your inner peace, you can't be happier.

I walked back, passed the traffic lights, passed many roadside stalls, and bought grapes.

Grapes are also sour and sweet.

I went to a coffee shop. The shop’s signature product was lemon tea. I thought about it but ordered a raw coconut latte.

The weather here is still hot. More than 30.

I didn't listen carefully, and then I made it into ice.

Wearing short sleeves under the windbreaker, drinking iced latte in the windbreaker.

Thinking about it now makes me want to laugh.

After that, I was in a daze. I stopped touching my phone and leaned against the window, looking outside.

Watching workers unloading goods from trucks, watching trucks backing up to let cars pass...over and over again.

Until, on the wall of the opposite building, the reflection of the trees planted in the coffee shop building appeared.

Looking down, I don’t know how many customers were taking pictures and checking in at the door.

I only remember that the guests who came at almost the same time as me left, and the guests who came much earlier than me also left...

The whole building fell silent.

I also closed my eyes and tried to take a nap.

In fact, I couldn't sleep at all.I just close my eyes from time to time.

The original idea of ​​being a coder diligently did not work out.The pen in my pocket was of no use at all.

Just walked with me for so long.

I didn't leave until after five o'clock.

Go, still go.

walk on my own.

After walking through this business, arriving at the gate of the supermarket, I encountered a bunch of commercial shops...

After thinking about it, I entered a certain fast food restaurant and ordered fried chicken and Coke.This is my dinner.

Next to that store is a bus stop.Convenient to wait for the bus.

Actually, it's not that I can't walk back to school from there, it's just that I feel really tired, not physically.It seems to be mental and psychological.

I ate slowly and leisurely upstairs, taking my time.

It's still early, isn't it?
Even if you don't have a car, you can just walk back by yourself.

It took a long time to eat.

You can't say that other people's food is not delicious.It’s just that I don’t really feel anything.

I didn’t think it was very special, nor did I think it was delicious.

It seems that eating has always been to maintain the safety of life and the health of the body.

Don't feel happy.

Later, I lived a life where I could eat instant noodles at will, drink milk tea at any time, and eat fried chicken and Coke without anyone caring about me.

But somehow, I don’t want anything anymore.

Why!

very strange.

Is it because it's too easy to get?

The people around me seemed not to be doing very well.It seems a bit inappropriate to say this, but at least, it's not very happy.

All are.

me too.

This is what I said in the circle of friends:
"I watched her leave. Her figure shrank smaller and smaller in my eyes, and finally disappeared completely among the crowds of people. The sky suddenly became dark, and the wind was slightly cool. I can still remember that cup of coffee. When it was first brought to my table, it was so hot that it was hot to the touch. It was not considered a good day, but because of the joy of the mood, it became a chapter of wonderful years."

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In the above text: "I" is "she", and "she" is "I".

In reality: the coffee is not hot and the journey is not finished.

Tired, so tired.

I have a splitting headache, which I don’t want to talk about. I hope I can have a good sleep without dreaming.

(End of this chapter)