It's a diary

Chapter 34 a1
It was already 08:30 when I returned to the dormitory from the classroom.I always think that I can be more diligent and update early, but this is not the case. As I said before, I am just a lazy person.

Speaking of new roommates, there are no major problems and few minor problems.

No one is perfect, and I’m not picky, so that’s it.

I accepted it, but that doesn't mean I like it.I'm not picky and chose to leave.

The school is so big and there are so many classrooms, there is always a place where I can stay quietly!
Yesterday was considered a real typhoon.But I didn’t feel anything bad, it was just that the wind was a little stronger and the rain was a little heavier.

Not updating is just because of laziness and coldness.

Even if it’s not updated, it’s almost the same. Those who want to see it will glance at it, while those who are not interested will just ignore it.

I always feel sad for no reason.

Nothing seems to make sense.

I don’t want to say too many sad words anymore, and you probably don’t want to hear them either.

But my life is really boring.

Classrooms, dining halls, dormitories.Three points and one line, lasting for one week.

I just go out and wander around on the weekend. I don’t know where I’m going, but I just want to go out.Otherwise, what can I do, and what’s the point?

Everyone around me is busy, so I can’t disturb them.

I dare not even send a greeting.

I am always afraid that I will disturb them, affect their lives, and make them more worried.

It rained all day yesterday, and my heart was at peace.

You don't need to think too much, just pay attention to whether the sky is sunny, whether it's still raining, whether the wind is strong... that's all.

Actually I like rainy days.

When I was young, I would often run into the rain, not because I was stupid in middle school, but because I didn’t bring an umbrella.

I often get soaked by sudden heavy rains.The weather here is very strange. Sometimes, the sky is clear and clear while walking on the road, and then it rains heavily without any warning.

I queued up to do nucleic acid tests today. After being blown by the cold wind for nearly two hours, I caught a cold again.

I often say that I have a cold, but I don’t know how to say it.

It's fine at first, but after a few gusts of cold wind, it feels like a runny nose, but after a while, it'll be fine if you drink a pack of 999.

I've been drinking 999 lately, and it's still the same to this day.I don’t want to say 999 anymore, I just want to keep deducting 666.

……

Maybe I didn’t drink 999 today, so my nose was always stuffy and itchy.

Just like last week, I just returned to the dormitory after school in the afternoon and did not run to eat.

I don’t want to eat it, I really don’t want to eat it.

No appetite at all.

I think it is a great torture to feed a person who has no appetite.

Finally, belatedly, I went to the dining hall.

I can't stand it without eating and my stomach hurts.

I don’t want to get up early to eat tomorrow, so I might as well eat.After I went to the classroom, there was no one, let alone our room, even if it was on the first floor, no one was there.

Slowly go upstairs and open the door gently.

Oh, actually no one is there. The reason why it is so gentle is because the iron door and the door bolt are also made of iron, so they will make noise, which is noisy.

I first read the book on the podium, and when I had enough, I wrote and drew by myself.

I don’t know why, but I cried a lot while I was there.

No reason.

Maybe it’s because I’m tired, maybe I want to go out, maybe I’m remembering something, maybe it’s because I’m in pain…

I wandered down from the classroom, then slowly wandered to the supermarket and bought a bottle of iced black tea.

During this period, I kept holding the copy of "Wake Me Up When You Leave" tightly.

Later, a friend told me that one of her relatives had tumors and liver cancer.

I couldn't help crying.

I thought of too many regrets.

Life turns out to be so short, life turns out to be so insignificant, life turns out to be so terrifying...

We were still talking about a place in Beiyu in the afternoon, with a sea view and a high price.

At that time, we all had a special tacit understanding of emo and crying.

No reason, just out of reverence for life.

She called me: "Xuji"

I replied to her: "What are you doing!"

"Peace and success every year."

"it is good."

Many things are not our turn to think about, it is our turn to talk about them.It came in a hurry and didn't give anyone any time to prepare.

Everyone knows that they are going to die, but why do they still work so hard to live?
Because in the process of life and death, there is a period of time that is neither long nor short.This can be understood as a buffer period.

But, suddenly, just so suddenly, there was no time at all... I don't know how to describe it, I can only say: "It was too hasty."

To be honest, I'm not afraid of death.

But I'm afraid someone will grieve for me.

Although I always belittle myself and say it’s not worth it.But I also know for sure that if I am really gone, let alone my relatives and the people who love me.

Even a random passerby, A, B, C, D, or netizen Zhang San, Li Si, Zhao Wu, will feel more or less sad and regretful.

Isn't it weird.

But all of this is completely traceable.

It's just because people have a reverence for life, that's all.

Because of the reverence for life, we praise the birth of every baby; because of the reverence for life, we respectfully mourn every passing away.

(End of this chapter)