It's a diary

Chapter 35 a2
Only later did I realize that I was really good at walking [-] steps yesterday.I walked twenty kilometers abruptly.

At the end of the day, I did nothing serious.

After eating, you can go shopping, and when you are tired, you can stop.Occasionally, I would look at the passers-by in a daze.

It was a bit cool the day before yesterday, but yesterday, it was just hot.

It’s already 32℃ today. Wow, autumn has failed again.

It is autumn in the central region, and the leaves should be falling incessantly; winter has already entered in the northern region, is it snowing every day?
One of my cousins ​​went there to study. I don’t know if he could bear the cold winter.After all, here we are warm as spring almost all year round.

Not, more accurately, hot!
Sometimes during the Chinese New Year, everyone wears short sleeves.

Not so in the past two years, it has suddenly become a lot colder.

I remember two years ago, I was running around and shopping in short-sleeves during the Chinese New Year.

By the way, are the ginkgo trees turning yellow now? Are the maple leaves turning red?
There are no ginkgo or maple leaves in Qingzhou or Beiyu. Maybe they are, but I didn’t find them.

The trees planted in the green belt here are generally green all year round, and they do not turn yellow and lose their leaves in autumn like the trees in the north.

Therefore, when I was a child, I didn’t believe that autumn existed.

The trees here generally only lose their leaves in late winter and early spring.

Because new leaves will grow in spring, you have to make room for them.But even if the leaves are fallen, they are still green.

After coming back yesterday, my appetite was not very good.

I almost threw up before I came back.

Can't figure out why.

In the afternoon, I strolled around the mall.

When I wanted to eat candied haws on a stick, she told me, "The candied haws on a stick costs ten yuan, and the strawberries cost fifteen."

It's too luxurious and I really can't afford it.

I passed by a certain store and went in for a wander.I saw Rio’s cocktails, picked them up and put them down.

I didn’t buy it in the end.

After eating, keep walking and keep walking.

The wind is not strong, but it is slightly cold.

The sun was blazing, and I walked on the road under the shade of trees.

Because I was carrying something, I pulled off the hair tie after my hair became loose and did not tie it up again.

The road is long, one after another, never ending.

What a pity, life has an end, and we have to stop when we reach it.

I walked a long way until the soles of my shoes were worn flat, the skin on my heels was broken, and I couldn’t help but doze off...

Very tired, but the journey has not been completed.

The road is endless, and the road that is endless can still be walked next time.

I wore a windbreaker that day. When I got to the back, I almost kept holding that windbreaker in my hand.

It was too hot.

It was 14℃ on Wednesday, 19℃ on Thursday, 26℃ on Friday, and 32℃ on Saturday... strange.

That day I sat by the Qingjiang River for almost an hour.I finally understand why my idiot sister likes the willow trees here so much, and I seem to like them too.Willow branches sway in the wind.

I didn’t fold it!

Vandalism of public property is not advisable.

I can’t go back, I can’t go back to Beiyu.

Is it normal to feel homesick?

Don't think about it, life here is not good, and I miss the years in my comfort zone.

There are too many things that happen to me, and they are too bad. I don’t know how to express them, or what to say.

It's like escaping, but also facing.

Walking the distant [-] kilometers was to escape, taking the return bus was to face.

As I said: There is no end to the road, but there is an end to people.

I am very afraid of the coming of winter, but I know it will only happen sooner or later.So I try to cherish the present, occasionally miss the summer that has passed, and moreover, look forward to the distant spring.

At the end of the summer, I left too.

At that time, was summer really over?
At the end of August, in fact, for Qingzhou and Beiyu, which are located in the tropics and are both on the 21°C latitude, summer seems to have just begun.

At least, summer has not left for the whole of September.

It is now almost the end of October, and although I can occasionally smell the breath of autumn, it is still as hot and unbearable as ever.

It’s true that I left, it’s false that summer is over.

Those bad things, I haven't sorted them out yet, and I'm still running away from them.Give me some more time, a little more time, wait until I recover, wait until I no longer have to open my eyes and pretend to be blind, then I will tell you.

Not now, too angry.There is little sense, little self-cultivation, and only disobedience and resentment.

Isn't the purpose of walking so far just to make yourself tired?I did it, I was tired yesterday and it hurts today.

No regrets, I will do the same thing again.

Otherwise, I don't know what to do.

I feel like crying whenever it's quiet, and I feel like crying when the surroundings are noisy. I don't know why.I just felt extremely scared.

The school rule that compulsory education does not dissuade students from expelling students only exacerbated my fear.

Although I also know that my thoughts are ridiculous and my fear is meaningless.

But I just couldn't help it.

While I affirmed myself, I fell into endless self-doubt.

I'm busier, I'm not that busy.It was me who found ways to keep myself busy.

Watching the sunset, blowing the evening breeze, writing more words and reading more books... In a sense, it is meaningless.

But, it's okay, I know myself.

This is good, this will be good.

You can see the results later.

(End of this chapter)