It's a diary

Chapter 36 a3
I still don’t know how to talk about those bad things, it’s so confusing.It's too much. If you say it, it's not good. If you don't say it, nothing will happen if you don't say it.

I really want to eat candied haws now!
I was very envious today when I saw students who were sleeping out bring sugar-coated haws to eat.

Hope this year will be a warm winter.

Fortunately, we are in the south, it’s not autumn yet, so it’s not too cold.Otherwise I wouldn’t even have the right clothes to wear.

When I was studying in Beiyu, I needed to wear school uniform every day.

Therefore, this includes the year I took a break from school.I haven't bought much clothes for four years.

It's not cold in Beiyu. If you stuff a few sweaters into your school uniform jacket, you can get through the whole winter.

Generally speaking, you only need to wear down jackets for more than half a month in a year.

It was different last year, it was too cold.

Forget it's cold, it's still raining.

It’s been raining in Beiyu for more than a month, and I haven’t been able to see the sun.I was also quite cold.

On National Day, I didn’t even pack my suitcase back home.

It’s because the teacher said that I will be given school uniforms when I come back.I thought that I would wear school uniform every day and there would be no need to bring so many clothes. (The main reason is that I don’t want to carry a particularly heavy suitcase during the winter vacation.)
As a result, it has not been released until now.

Fortunately, it is over 30 degrees every day, otherwise I feel like I would be cold washed.

Also, I would like to remind you that if you have something to do, don’t walk too far at once.After taking [-] steps on Saturday, today, I feel pain every step I take.

But a certain friend also passed away so much, but she was fine.I don’t know if it’s a problem with my body.

Although now, it hurts so much.But I still want to go, I'm such a fool.

If you don’t know what to do, then just live by it.

My family naturally hopes that I can learn something, but most of them just want me to be healthy.

Especially after I experienced an accident and nearly died, no one would say anything.

I don’t even know about some of my relatives, even my grandparents.He didn't say anything because the former was rude and the latter was afraid of scaring them.

If you want to learn it, learn it, maybe seven or eight.

I dare not say it is the best, but it is above average.

The longer I stay here, the more I understand why my parents don't want me to come out to study.

They are afraid that something will happen to me again.When I was in Beiyu, it was very uncomfortable.The reason I was so stubborn about coming out was because I heard this school was good.You can't smoke or drink here, the management is strict, the young man has no energy.

At first, I often brainwashed myself, saying that I wanted to give it a try and get a better school.Then, when the time comes, go back to Beiyu to go to school.

Look now, it’s fake, it can’t be fake anymore.

It’s true that this guy came here because he has no energy, but it’s false that he wants to get into a lot of good schools.

Obviously, my current behavior and life don’t seem to be learning regularly.At least in my opinion, I haven't done enough.But there is no way, I can only do so much.

I cherish my life.

I tried so hard to convince my family and deceive myself into coming here, but it was actually just because I figured it out.

Beiyu is pretty good, but I couldn’t get out in the past.Everyone around me was urging me to get up and move my feet, but I couldn't.

But when I left, no one wanted to leave me.

I suddenly want to pray to Buddha, even though I don’t believe in this.

Monday is over.

How come the days go by so fast?

The courses I took were not difficult. Most of the time I took classes in the computer lab, so I felt quite comfortable.

I don’t know what others think, but for me, I don’t think it’s difficult. They are all basic operations.

I'm too lazy to worry about what courses are available next semester or next year.Anyway, for this semester first, we can just muddle along.

Hum, I am not the kind of girl who is sunny and positive like the sun.I am timid and crybaby. When I encounter something difficult, I will try it several times. If I don’t see the future, I will give up.

It’s nothing. I love crying, being timid, and giving up. But at least, it didn’t hurt anyone, and it didn’t harm anyone’s interests.

It's okay to be a crybaby, so that when you cry over trivial things, you can confidently say: "It's nothing, I just love to cry."

Hope, tomorrow can be a good day.

I also pray that I can sleep well tonight.

I never want to take medicine again.

May no one in the world get sick again.

(End of this chapter)