It's a diary

Chapter 98 2.9
My mind is so messed up and I don't even know what to say.

I recently returned to Nantian, and everything was wet. As I drove around, I saw that many green trees had begun to sprout tender green shoots.

A new coffee shop opened near Bian Bian's school, and the raw coconut latte inside is delicious.

Next to the coffee shop is a bridal shop. I don’t know how many years it has been open, but it was there when I came to Beiyu to study nine years ago.

I went to pick up Bianbian for several days. 1. She came out really slowly. 2. The snacks outside the school gate are delicious, especially oden. 3. There are many handsome boys and beautiful girls in her school. 4. They were really young and energetic. The moment they passed by me, I felt so much older.

A little above her school, someone set up a stall selling breakfast seven years ago. The fried dough sticks and soy milk at that stall were really delicious.

It's a pity that half a year later, due to city construction, stalls were not allowed to be set up.

I can't remember the smell, but I can't forget it.

I have a classmate who dropped out of school last year for some reasons that I don’t know how to explain.

False, tell me yesterday.Said she didn't want to study anymore.

I asked why.

She said she couldn't hold on any longer and felt that this path was not suitable for her.

I hesitated for a while before answering her: "It's okay. There are so many roads in the world that exist just to allow different people to walk."

What a pity, what a pity, she is so good and beautiful.

So good that I liked her from the first moment I saw her, so beautiful that when she said the words "I don't want to study", my heart twitched and hurt.

I remembered a girl I knew before. We were tutoring at the same institution. She was always late, occasionally late, but she almost always arrived.

I remember that day when she was going to take a grade exam, she was pressing her legs on the corridor outside the classroom and practicing turning circles. At that time, I was thinking: She really looks like a swan.

The sun fell on her body, making her already beautiful even more eye-catching.

I can feel that she really loves dancing.When she danced, her eyes seemed to be twinkling like stars.

Let’s talk about another friend of Alin.A Lin has a friend who took the art exam, but has now given up.

She said that studying was too hard. She didn’t want to suffer mentally or suffer from mental exhaustion.

Before I dropped out of school, I had a classmate who had studied violin for more than a year. When I chatted with her about related topics, she only said that she felt very tired and had to memorize the music scores until early in the morning every day.

I didn’t understand it at the time, so I just said: “I’m tired of everything I do. I chose it because I like it. No matter how difficult it is, I’ll try to keep going. When you’re alive, you always have to have something to look forward to.”

"Yeah, gotta look forward to it. But I don't like it."

It went so far all of a sudden, and I don’t know why.

As if to express that they have all found their own way.But I seem to be still confused and confused.

very messy

Everyone is working so hard.It’s so difficult for everyone.Why can't I just be a cat who doesn't have to think about anything.

I really want to cry, why is it so difficult.

Life seems to be about enduring and accepting suffering.

It would be better to be a gust of wind, a cat, or a sand crab that keeps digging in the sand.

They all said that the schools in Qingzhou were good. I felt that at first, but later I felt that I might feel more comfortable staying in Beiyu.

Now I finally understand what’s so good about Qingzhou’s schools.

The best thing about it is that even those who come to hang out will respect the rules, behave peacefully, and live out the past few years obediently.

I have never regretted leaving Beiyu and going there.Now, I am even more fortunate.

However, it is true that I am annoyed, but I can’t tell what it is.

(End of this chapter)