i'm not a bad man

Chapter 155 Is she the only one missing?
A gust of wind blew over, and Zuo Xiaowei's white gauze and red dress fluttered in the wind. While stunning everyone, it also blocked my view of Luxi. We were almost on the same level, as long as If Zuo Xiaowei moves, I will not be able to see Lu Xi clearly, not to mention that the veil and long skirt on her body are lifted up. At this moment, Zuo Xiaowei in the disguise of Zixia Fairy is indeed better than Zuo Xiaowei who has bowed her head and remained silent. Lu Xi has been with Lu Xi for a long time. Even if she is a star, if Zuo Xiaowei does not decide to return to the small town, she may become a star-studded singer in the future. Therefore, there is absolutely no one in this world who can steadily overpower Zuo Xiaowei standing on the stage. Wei.

"The past is now gone and will never come again. The red fallen leaves are buried in the dust. The beginning and the end are always the same. You in the sky are drifting outside the white clouds. My lover will never come again after leaving. I sit alone and look out at the world without words. Although the flowers will wither. , but it will open again, and the love of my life is looming outside the white clouds..."

"Yesterday and today have passed and will not come back. The beauty has faded and the color has turned pale. From the past until now, love is still there. You are far away and drifting beyond the white clouds. Love makes people sad. Destiny in this world cannot be changed. Let go and you can no longer love each other. Is this God's arrangement..."

Zuo Xiaowei sang the Cantonese version, and I responded with the Mandarin version. Her voice was high, and mine was low. Gradually, we didn’t seem to be singing, but became two people having a conversation, telling each other what was in their hearts. Sadness and regret…

What exactly is the love of your life?

Bai Jingjing loves Sun Wukong, Sun Wukong loves Zixia, Zixia loves Zhizunbao, and Zhizunbao loves Bai Jingjing. They seem to be the same person, but there is a 500-year time difference in between. I thought that the Moonlight Treasure Box can make up for this. It's a pity about time, but when we really started this 500-year time travel, it turned into a tragedy beyond tragedy.

At the end of the story, Zixia did not get the Supreme Treasure, the Supreme Treasure did not get Bai Jingjing, Bai Jingjing did not get Sun Wukong, and Sun Wukong did not get Zixia.

At this moment, I seemed to transform into the protagonist in the story. I am the Supreme Treasure wandering on the road, and I am Sun Wukong who displays my musical talents... However, I can't tell who is the Zixia Fairy in my life, and who is. Is it Bai Jingjing in my life?

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Unknowingly, it was the last song of the concert. I chose "Don't Say Goodbye" by Gao Qi. The reason why I chose this song as the ending song was because I wanted to express myself before leaving Qingdao. emotions, because this time, I have to say goodbye to too many people, including Ren Ran, Qiao Jiao, Tu Lin, Sao Zhu, Brother Shanhe, Ba Xiaoguang and the group of workers who agreed to do something together , and finally Luxi. Together they constitute my life in Qingdao for the past two years. I will say goodbye to countless people in my life. I hope that what we say goodbye to is only our bodies that can no longer talk to each other. Our spirits will always be We will never say goodbye, and we will always remember the time we experienced together, no matter happy or sad...

"Light this cigarette and let the light explode into this dark night; in the silent world, not a word is spoken; my hands are touching, the feeling of falling from a high place, but my heart is still flying upward; cover me, protect me, lead me to climb The higher the highest peak, maybe heaven is at the moment you touch it; the night is lingering, the wind has quieted, the beautiful lie melts the blood, at the boundary between night and dawn, don't take my heart away, don't let this dream slip away, Don't say goodbye... I'm eager to start this journey from my eyes to your heart, but I can no longer move forward. My dear, don't cry. Just like you, my fear of tomorrow comes from being tired of today..."

After playing the last note, I lit the first cigarette of this performance, and then I felt my mood gradually calming down between puffs and puffs. This charity performance almost exhausted all my enthusiasm and energy, and I was about to collapse. , I did too many things at this concert.

When I was about to finish smoking a cigarette, I suddenly remembered that according to convention, as the lead singer, I should thank every member of the band before the concert ends.

Before it was too late, no one had left yet, so I quickly put out the cigarette in my hand, stretched out my hand to Tu Lin who was nearest to me, and said thank you for your hard work, followed by Saozhu, Brother Shanhe, Laoyang...

Finally there are two backup singers.

Just when I reached out to Zuo Xiaowei, she was filled with a happy smile and hugged me tightly. It was this hug that made me lose the opportunity to say thank you to Lu Xi; so, I hugged me like this Holding Zuo Xiaowei in her arms, she watched Lu Xi walk behind the scenes...

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The crowd had dispersed, the truss used to build the stage had been almost dismantled, and the music equipment had been put back into the truck from which it came, and everything gradually returned to calm.

While Zuo Xiaowei was changing her clothes, I stood in the middle of the square and lit another cigarette for myself...

"Han Chao, are you going a little too far today?"

I turned around and saw that the person talking to me was Qiao Jiao.I didn't know what to say, so I asked, "Why did I go too far?"

"Do you know why Lu Xi crashed her car? It wasn't because she wanted to help you deal with the performance company as soon as possible. She was so impatient while driving. Although she was injured, she still reluctantly came to your concert; what about you? , in front of so many people at the scene, you broke off the relationship with her, what did you make her think?... Also, can you not be so bitter, saying that she is a big star and you are a nobody... You After being with her for so long, don’t you know in your heart, when did she ever act like a celebrity with you? Not only has she never acted like a celebrity with you, she has never acted like a celebrity with our group of friends. In private, She is just a normal girl, why do you create a character for her?... I really can’t stand it anymore!”

I was stunned, and then replied after a period of silence: "That incident brought a lot of trouble to her career. Today, she came to my concert, and the same incident was trending on Weibo again. , I am about to leave Qingdao. I just don’t want my appearance to affect her future career, so I took this opportunity to completely clarify the matter... Besides, she is indeed a big star, I He is indeed a small person. Only when everyone accepts the disparity in our identities, will they believe what I say more... This time, I really don’t have any malice." "You don’t have any malice? You don’t have any malice, why should you be so? In front of so many people, do you think Zuo Xiaowei is your girlfriend?"

"Isn't this also true?"

Qiao Jiao was speechless, and after a period of silence, I said: "The reason why I said this is to completely cut off my thoughts. I don't like to get entangled in one thing repeatedly, so as long as it is my decision, I won’t leave any escape route for myself.”

"Then you are really cruel!"

"Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain."

"If you talk to me from such a moral high point, then I really can't speak to you."

"It has nothing to do with morality, it's just a decision, a choice."

"Okay, if you have the ability, you can live in that small city for the rest of your life and never go back to Qingdao again."

"Being able to have such a concert and such a special experience before leaving Qingdao, I feel that I have no regrets, so it's okay if I don't go back."

After saying that, I took out another cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it. After just one puff, I saw Lu Xi walking towards a white car parked on the roadside...

Qiao Jiao also saw it, and she said to me again: "You organized the concert. She has helped you so much. You have thanked everyone, is she the only one missing?"

I subconsciously squeezed the cigarette in my hand. After a mental struggle, I finally decided to chase Lu Xi. But just as I started running, the door of the white car suddenly opened, and then I saw Luan Yu walking from inside. Come out...

She was indeed very kind to Lu Xi. She came out just to take over the heavy objects Lu Xi was carrying. And the reason why she came to this concert was also for Lu Xi, so that it would be convenient for her to take Lu Xi home.

I froze in place, feeling that Luan Yu was my inner demon...

Faced with this inner demon, I was not able to say thank you to Lu Xi after the concert, let alone "thank you", we didn't even say a word.

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Regarding Qingdao, I said I had no regrets, but in the end I left with regrets, not only because of Luxi, but also because of Ren Ran. Before I left, I was not able to meet Ren Ran, because during our event On the day of the second concert, Ren Ran took Ba Xiaoguang to Foshan. They had to select lamps and furniture for the inn. Ren Ran said that this was something that could not be postponed because the design drawings of the inn had already been released. Yes, many things need to be done simultaneously.

Before leaving, I only met Brother Shanhe once. I signed a sublease contract with him and told him the password of the house. The next day, Zuo Xiaowei and I left Qingdao before dawn. .

Zuo Xiaowei said that if there was no traffic jam on the road, we would be able to reach her small city around [-] p.m.

(End of this chapter)