i'm not a bad man

Chapter 169 Let’s go to BJ together
I roughly told Chang Yuli how I met the ophthalmologist and his deeds in treating difficult and complicated diseases.As he listened, Chang Yuli's face lit up, and he confirmed to me again: "Brother Chao, can your friend really cure my strabismus?"

"I dare not give you 100% guarantee, but if even he can't be cured, no one in this industry can really cure him... Give it a try, give yourself an extra chance in everything, one Road, maybe a miracle will happen, and your disease is not an incurable disease."

"Okay, I'll listen to you."

"It's too late now. I'll call him when I wake up tomorrow. If nothing unexpected happens, we'll go to BJ in the next two days."

"It's not tomorrow, it's today. It's already past 12 o'clock."

I am not a person with physical defects, so I cannot understand how much trouble the strabismus caused to Chang Yuli, but I can feel his urgency from his words and deeds, so I nodded and said with a smile: "Yes. , today, the first thing I did after I got up was to call him."

"Then take note of my phone number and I'll wait for your call."

After saying that, Chang Yuli reported his phone number to me, and I also gave him my phone number. This was also the first time I exchanged contact information with someone since I came to the small town, so he was considered The first friend I made here.

Sometimes you have to believe in the fate and magnetic field between people. Those people at the wine table yesterday were all very close friends of Zuo Xiaowei. Only Chang Yuli and I have developed further. Maybe he He is kind to everyone, but as far as I am concerned, it is really because he came back to me, which made me feel warm in my heart, and then I had the desire to make friends...

To a certain extent, Chang Yuli and I are quite similar, because when socializing, I always give more care to those who are not gregarious, or temporarily unsociable, so even if Ba Xiaoguang is extremely withdrawn people are willing to be friends with me. I always believe that treating others well is to treat yourself well. As for people like Guan Yubo, I also have my own way of getting along with them. At least I must retain the ability to distinguish right from wrong with them, and do not flatter or cater to them. But you can't refuse it completely. This is a way of making friends with a certain amount of advance and retreat.

This kind of awareness was taught to me by my father; the strange thing is that when I was at home, I couldn’t listen to it, and I came out alone. Instead, I would often think of the ways of being a human being that he taught me, and unconsciously I would Turn these into your own rules of conduct.

Thinking about it carefully, my father's success was not accidental. He really saw human nature very thoroughly. His failure was not accidental either, because he never saw himself clearly, so when there was a gap in life, he put all his efforts into it. All hopes were pinned on me, and they forced me in extreme ways several times. Only then did the situation finally become uncontrollable.

Instead of trying to make me into someone else, why can't I seek my own breakthrough?To put it bluntly, I lost confidence in myself when I encountered setbacks. In fact, he is really a very good man. This is something I only realized recently, because the words he said to me were brought to my attention. It has been put into practice in the society, and it is so forward-looking and instructive!
Of course I have something wrong with me. Too often, I regard him as a towering tree, sheltering me from the wind and rain. When this big tree falls, I don’t know how to grow up. As for the fragile heart...

There have been gains and losses in the years since I came out, but I don’t worry about the losses anymore. At least my heart has been tempered like a stone.Speaking of this, I can't help but feel a little regretful. Because I am determined in my heart, I sometimes ignore it and hurt many people, such as Lu Xi, Luan Yu, Zuo Xiaowei now, Ren Ran before...

It’s okay if someone calls me a scumbag. In some respects, I am indeed a scumbag, but for other people, I always have a sincere heart. To be fair, of course I don’t like such a contradictory self, but It is precisely this kind of contradiction that makes me feel my own existence and reality. I do not have the light of Buddha filling the sky, nor do I have sins. I am just an ordinary person in the world. Sometimes I am good, sometimes I am bad, and I am not completely good. The bad ones are not thorough either, leading to constant controversy.

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Zuo Xiaowei took me back to the hotel. She was still living in that suite, but the two best friends who had been with her before were no longer there.Zuo Xiaowei said that they both had houses in the small town. She was worried about me and didn't have the time to talk to them, so after she sobered up, the two best friends left.

In the hotel room, Zuo Xiaowei was sitting on the bed, and I was sitting on the sofa chair opposite the bed.

I asked her first: "How did you know I was at Chang Yuli's place?"

"He sent me a message and said you were at his place, so I could rest assured...I didn't want to go at first, but then I remembered that he was also an alcoholic and was afraid that you would drink too much and be unable to take care of yourself, so I went over. I didn't expect you. Are you really drinking? If I don’t go, will you have to drink another bottle?”

"I stopped drinking. I've reached my limit... However, Chang Yuli is a pretty good guy. He was worried that I wouldn't have a place to live, so he came back to look for me."

"He is pretty good. Anyway, among our group of friends, if anyone has something, no matter how big or small, we call him for help, and he almost never refuses." "If he has any trouble, will you friends be there for you?"

"Well...we are all used to his kindness. It seems that no one has ever really cared about him."

I just nodded and didn't say much, but I understood a little more about Chang Yuli's situation. Maybe it was because he had physical defects and was afraid that others would dislike him, so he gradually turned into a pleaser personality.

He doesn't understand human nature. The more a person pleases, the more humble he becomes. These childhood playmates, as adults, do not know how to cherish them. In fact, if he can manage himself like Guan Yubo, even if he He has physical defects, and it is only his turn to please others. After all, he is the son of the richest man in a small town. Thinking about it again, you can’t blame him for being naive. He lost his mother’s love when he was in junior high school, and his father didn’t pay attention to him. If even the people around him If his friends are not well maintained, he really has nothing. Unfortunately, his loneliness is precisely given by the friends around him, because his efforts have never been responded to by his friends.

I couldn't help but be a little curious. If his strabismus could really be cured, would he be the same as before, or would his personality also change?
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In a daze, Zuo Xiaowei asked me again: "When you left at the end, what did you say to him when you ran back?"

"I know BJ, a top ophthalmologist, and I want to take him there to have a look. Maybe he can cure his strabismus."

After a short pause, I added: "The three of us will go to BJ together, and you should also go see Sister Minhong. As far as the current situation is concerned, there is no better choice than her."

Zuo Xiaowei's expression gradually became complicated. After being silent for a moment, she asked me in a very low voice: "What about our small town life?"

"I'm just giving you a suggestion. The choice is still in your own hands, and Chen Linqi is also in BJ. Even if you don't want to join Sister Minhong's company, let Sister Minhong be the middleman to mediate between you and find the best solution. The result is correct, right?"

"I don't want to go to BJ. If Chen Linqi wants to litigate, let him do it. I will also find a lawyer. It doesn't mean that I have to pay whatever amount he pays."

"But it is an indisputable fact that there are loopholes in that contract. No matter how good the lawyer is, he can't go against the will, right?..."

"I won't go, and I won't go at all. If you want to help Chang Yuli treat his eyes, you can go alone."

After saying that, Zuo Xiaowei lay on the bed and covered herself tightly with the quilt. Just when I thought she would not say anything more to me, she choked and said to me: "You can go to BJ , but you must come back and don’t leave me alone in a small town like Luan Yu left you in Qingdao, okay?”

I was calm at first, but suddenly I remembered the pain I felt after being abandoned by Luan Yu. Luan Yu abandoned me because he was disappointed in me again and again, but Zuo Xiaowei didn't do anything wrong, so what reason did I have to abandon her? Woolen cloth?
After putting myself in Zuo Xiaowei's shoes, I finally said, "Don't worry, I will definitely come back."

"Ah."

Zuo Xiaowei responded and said nothing again. The whole room was so quiet that I seemed to be the only one left. I couldn't help thinking about going to the BJ again: In addition to helping Chang Yuli treat his eyes, I It is necessary to meet Qin Minhong and Chen Linqi, because in the end, someone has to step forward to solve this matter. For me, the best result is to bring the compensation amount to a range that we can afford.

Yes, there is no need to fight over this matter, and there is no need to have bitter hatred. Under the premise that Zuo Xiaowei herself is not willing to return to this industry, as Zuo Xiaowei's boyfriend, adhering to the principle of sharing difficulties, this This is the best way to resolve conflicts.

(End of this chapter)