i'm not a bad man

Chapter 192 This is my sin
Quiet, it was so quiet. For the first time, I felt flustered because of Quiet. I tried to say something to Zuo Xiaowei, but every time the words came to my lips, I couldn't speak...

When I was silent to the end, a heartbreaking cry suddenly came from downstairs. I leaned over and saw a drunk man. He was sitting under the billboard and kept using it. Hitting his head with his hand...

There are always this kind of drunk men in the small town who don't go home. Although I haven't been here for a long time, I am already used to it, and the meaning of his appearance seems to be just to break the relationship between Zuo Xiaowei and me. There was silence.

It was Zuo Xiaowei who spoke first: "Han Chao, if you are cruel to a woman you don't love, can you kill her?"

"will not."

"But what you did made me feel more uncomfortable than killing me... Can you tell me why you did this to me? You said you wanted to calm down for a while, and I let you calm down for a day before I hit you again. When on the phone, you can’t get in touch.”

I took a deep breath and replied, "I think there are a lot of problems between us."

"If you love me, there won't be any problems between us. If you don't love me, even a small thing will be magnified in your heart."

"This is not a small thing... Ever since I came to you, I feel like I have been living in the shadow of Guan Yubo. After I came to the small town, the first person I saw was him, and so did everyone. They are all talking about him to me, but it is not just about how rich he is. They will tie him to you and put it in front of me like a mirror, reminding me all the time that if you follow me, you will become a god. Big mistake."

After saying this, I finally turned around and looked at Zuo Xiaowei...

Zuo Xiaowei fell into silence at this time, and after a long time she replied: "Did you listen to someone else's nonsense again?"

"I don't think this is nonsense. When we had a relationship, it was not the first time for you, but to the outside world, you always said that you had never had a boyfriend, not in a small town, not in college, and not in college. Qingdao has never talked about... Will a woman's first time disappear out of thin air?... I am also a man with a past, and more than one past, so I will not make myself particularly immature to care about you. Who did I give it to for the first time? It means nothing to two people who have decided to live together... However, you can't cheat, let alone put me in a particularly embarrassing position in front of all your friends. On... I heard that you and Guan Yubo had a past. I am capable of thinking. I will connect these things and get an answer... Guan Yubo is your ex-boyfriend. You put me When I brought him to a small town, he not only did not avoid taboos, but also treated me as his best friend. He even wanted me to do things behind him. How do you want your friends to see me, and how do you want Guan Yubo himself to see me? This is not just a What a wrongdoer, what a fool!"

Zuo Xiaowei and I looked at each other. Her expression was extremely complicated. She replied with tears in her eyes: "I admit that he pursued me, but I didn't agree. Does this count as being together?"

"What about your first time?... This cannot be covered up by any lies. It is gone when it is gone... If you can name a name, and this person really exists, as long as he is not Guan Yubo, I will definitely I won’t mention this matter again, and we will live happily in the small town... Let me say it again, what I care about is not who you gave your first time to, but that you can’t have a past with Guan Yubo, but still want me to give him to you Let’s get along with each other as friends…”

Zuo Xiaowei stopped looking at me and replied in a deep voice: "Once suspicion arises, the crime has been established... This is what you did to me, so I called you more than 100 times, but you didn't answer any of them. , this is my sin!”

My heart became more and more irritable, and my voice became a few points higher unconsciously: "I don't want to talk about these dialectical things with you. Is it so difficult for you to name it?"

"I told you, I accidentally broke it while riding my bicycle."

"Absurd, bloody!"

I have never seen a woman who is more arrogant than Zuo Xiaowei, and her repeated evasions have completely confirmed my suspicions. I feel very disgusting. I actually had sex with this deceitful woman again. I How horny are you? …

Zuo Xiaowei didn't respond to me anymore. She put on her clothes silently, and then stood silently in front of me. She stared at me...and suddenly stretched out her hand to me...

I dodge subconsciously.

But she had no intention of attacking me. Her hand just hung in the air. Until I stopped dodging, she gently put her hand on my face and said with a tearful smile: "What if we have sex?" , I can go for a hymen repair surgery like your ex-girlfriend did, and maybe we won’t have the conflicts and quarrels we have today... I really love you so much... I’m leaving, and you will be fine."

I just watched Zuo Xiaowei leave this dilapidated room without saying a word, feeling dazed, surprised, having a splitting headache, and finally falling into endless emptiness...

He leaned against the window again and looked for traces of Zuo Xiaowei. She was nowhere to be found. There was only an empty street and no one knew where it was going.

……

That night, I didn't fall asleep again. I just sat on the bed alone and repeated the two things of being in a daze and smoking until dawn broke and the sun once again filled the small town...

After a day and night of melting snow, the small town is no longer as cold as yesterday. The vehicles coming and going on the street have also removed their anti-skid chains. Everything seems to be back to the way it was when I first came to the small town.

My depressed mood finally relaxed a little, so I went to drink the town's most famous tofu soup alone. After drinking it, I walked alone on the streets of the town.

Until now, I still haven't decided to leave the small town because I have always been a very tolerant person. In the process of falling in love, I don't want anyone to "die" in my hands.

After shopping around for a while, I received a call from Chang Yuli. He told me that he had prepared the 20 I wanted for me and asked me if I wanted cash or direct transfer.

I feel that no matter how embarrassing Zuo Xiaowei and I are, at least our friendship will not change, so I have no intention of letting go of the contract dispute from beginning to end, so I still have to borrow the 20. Yes, I asked Chang Yuli to directly transfer the 20 to Zuo Xiaowei's card. After all, in the end, Zuo Xiaowei still needs to sign a settlement agreement with Chen Linqi, so there is no need to spend more time with me. Go through it all.

While Chang Yuli was contacting Zuo Xiaowei, I was already thinking about how to repay the 20 yuan debt. I still have to stay in the small town and do something with Chang Yuli. If I can get it done, It was logical to return the 20 yuan.

At this time, Chang Yuli called me again. I thought the matter had been settled, but he said to me in a somewhat surprised tone: "Brother, I called Xiaowei, but her phone number The phone is turned off and there is no reply to the message. Why don't you go to her house first and wait until you find her and ask for the card number and then I'll call her; or I can just call her directly and put it on your card."

(End of this chapter)