i'm not a bad man

Chapter 338 Are you laughing?
The nature of an RV is still mainly a means of transportation, so it is different from a house where people can easily develop a sense of territoriality. They can only live with their own family. If there is a social relationship in an RV, it can only It is the relationship between passengers and drivers, or passengers and passengers, so there are not so many gender barriers. This is easy to understand. It is like taking a train with sleepers. Many of them are mixed with men and women. Everyone understands that this It's just a bed on a journey, with no contracts, no responsibilities, and no restrictions.

Based on this understanding, I didn't think too much. After washing, I lay down on the other end of the bed. Qiao Jiao didn't seem to think too much. Seeing me lying next to her, she settled down. Then he picked up his phone and started watching short videos, and fell asleep after a while.

I also wanted to sleep, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't really calm down. I would always uncontrollably think of the things that happened in this RV, and then I would feel mixed emotions.

I have the heavy responsibility of driving. When I can't fall asleep, I can only force myself to close my eyes and rest my mind, trying not to let my mind be too active, so as to ensure that I can still be energetic and rush on my way after a few hours.

……

I don’t know how long it took, but my phone suddenly made a vibrating sound. In order not to wake Qiao Jiao up, I quickly picked up the phone and turned it into silent mode. Then I opened WeChat and looked at it. It was my first love girlfriend Zhao Yingrou again. She seemed to be used to doing this late at night.

"I guess you're not asleep yet."

I ignored it, and after a while she sent me another message: "Come and chat with me, working the night shift is really boring!"

"I'm not in the mood to chat with you. Don't send me messages if you have nothing serious to do in the future."

"Hey, do you need to be so cold? After all, we have been together for so long. Even if we break up, you don't have a girlfriend and I don't have a boyfriend. It won't become the kind of relationship where we can't even gossip. Bar?"

"Not everyone has a night shift to work, and it's break time."

"For a person like you who is obsessed with all kinds of worries all day long, can you sleep at the right time like a normal person?...Actually, I don't want to chat with you. I don't know what's wrong. Lately, I always I will think of you, your character, and your world view, and I can't help but wonder, what kind of life are you living now? Because you seem to be really different from others. At that time, except for We also have other couples who are in love, but when we are together, we only talk about happy things. Every day we get tired of it, but you are the only one who always talks to me about some philosophical issues, about life, and about the value of human existence. , at that time, if I hadn’t seen you as rich, I would have dumped you. I felt like you were just a second-rate person... However, since I chose the profession of doctor, I have actually started to think like you... I My mood is really heavy now. Two hours ago, I saw with my own eyes a six-year-old life disappearing on the hospital bed. A super, super cute little girl... chronic myeloid leukemia metastasized to lung cancer. Her parents died for I treated her, sold all my property, and borrowed countless debts, but in the end I still couldn't save this little girl's life... Do you know, two weeks ago, this little girl secretly sent me a bouquet of flowers, telling me I must cure her disease so that her parents don’t have to sell their home. She wants to go home, miss her toys at home, miss her classmates and friends... So, what is life? What is the value? Is the value of this little girl’s existence just to bear the most unbearable pain in this world in her limited life?... Han Chao, in your eyes, I have always been a top student and a good student. Student, but now I will be like you, secretly smoking a few cigarettes. I don’t know how to deal with those heavy emotions. It seems that I am really not a competent doctor. I can’t look down on the relationship between people. The separation of life and death!"

Zhao Yingrou's words aroused all kinds of emotions in me towards Luan Yu, and then I wanted to smoke for no reason; but listening to Qiao Jiao's even breathing, I resisted the desire to smoke, and then wrote a long reply to Zhao Yingrou. It was a long message, but in the end, I deleted the long message and just replied: "I don't have to smoke secretly in private anymore."

"That's right. We have been separated for almost seven years. You are now a mature man. I shouldn't keep my knowledge of you at the time when I was in high school... Where are you now?"

"On the way."

"Can you please stop being so perfunctory? We broke up peacefully and agreed that no one should have any grudges. Since there is no grudge, at least we are still friends. This is not how friends communicate with each other, right?"

I opened a corner of the curtain, then took a photo of the service area and sent it to her to prove that I was indeed not perfunctory, and she was not exaggerating. It was indeed us who characterized the separation as a peaceful breakup. , I'm not a person who can't afford to play, so I really don't have any particular resentment towards her. I just don't like that she always sends me messages late at night, because I am a person who finds it difficult to deal with mood swings. She fell asleep again, but she always wanted to talk to me about things that would cause my mood to fluctuate, such as the little girl she just talked about...

...In a trance, Qiao Jiao, who had fallen into a deep sleep, began to become dishonest. She turned over, pressed her legs on my legs, and pulled the only quilt on the bed to her side. At the same time, I tried to pull the quilt back, but found that the quilt was completely buried under her. As long as I made a big move, she would definitely wake up.

Fortunately, I was lying on the bed with my clothes on, so I just endured it. I didn't want to wake her up. She had hardly slept well these days and had been running around with me.

……

After making sure that Qiao Jiao had not been awakened, Zhao Yingrou sent me another message: "She is really on the way!"

"Well, we'll stop at the service area to rest now."

"I guess you're pretty sleepy then... I'd better talk to you about business... I'm working in Tianjin. I've been with my parents this year. You know who my parents are, so it's nothing. They are mean-spirited, but they are very talkative. My work pressure is already high enough, so how can I bear it when they whisper in my ears every day... So, I recently planned to buy a house near the hospital and move there. Go out and live by yourself... Tianjin's housing prices are now ridiculously high. I have just started working and don't have much savings... I was wondering if I could borrow some money from you to make a down payment... If you have a lot of money, just borrow I'll order it, and when you come back to Tianjin next time, I'll treat you to a nice meal..."

I was dumbfounded, and after a long while I replied: "If the mountains are flattened and the sea dries up, your character of enjoying food will not change!"

"Why are you so literary and artistic? If you just say that I can't change my attitude, it will be over."

I actually laughed out of anger, and this was the first time I laughed since Luan Yu passed away. Although I didn’t think it was a laugh, more of an anger, but it was indeed a smile. How can a woman be so thick-skinned? Being like this, fearless and daring to laugh at yourself, you are truly invincible!

"If you don't have money, can't you just rent a house honestly?"

"Don't you have to buy a house sooner or later? Moreover, house prices are getting more and more expensive. Why should I spend money on renting a house while watching house prices soar? I'm not a fool!"

"Am I a fucking fool?... If I have this spare money, why don't I buy a house myself? I have to lend you money to buy one... Besides, I don't have any money now. If you can If you get more than 1 yuan from me, you will win."

"Are you kidding me? In high school, your pocket money sometimes exceeded [-]!"

I really lost the desire to continue chatting with her. I didn’t want to have another kind of anger in my complicated emotions. Of course, anger. Seven years have passed and the love I once had has ended long ago. She is still the same. Treat me as her cash machine and don't care about my life or death at all!
I threw my phone aside and didn't look at it at all. It was at this moment that I heard Qiao Jiao's timid voice: "Han Chao, did you laugh just now?... You... are you possessed?"

(End of this chapter)