i'm not a bad man

Chapter 340 I owe her a lot

I haven't completely gotten over the previous relationship with Lu Xi, so when we separated in the afternoon, I didn't make an appointment with her for the next meeting; in my subconscious, something very important must have happened, and we We just met each other, but I never thought that if we were in the same city and had nothing to do, we could make an appointment for dinner or something.

It is undeniable that Luan Yu's death has caused a great loss to my spirit, so there are some things that cannot be realized in a short while, such as the relationship between me and Lu Xi. The reason why we were inseparable before, It's entirely because the four of us have fallen into an extremely embarrassing state; now that Luan Yu has passed away, this embarrassing taboo has been lifted. The relationship between Lu Xi and I actually doesn't have that much mental burden... ...But I don’t know why, I don’t have the same impulse as before. It’s not that I don’t like her anymore. In fact, I still like her very much and like the feeling of being with her, but I feel that the price of this kind of liking has already been Beyond the limit of what I can bear...

If I could choose, I would rather Luan Yu was still alive.

This idea is of course useless, but living in this world, who can truly have the strength to fight against fate?
In the face of fate, I am not even a speck of dust, so I gradually developed the mentality of living with the flow. Once a person chooses to live with the flow, there is no need to be passionate and impulsive.

Yes, this is the change that happened to me after Luan Yu passed away. I am a little negative, a little decadent, and a little unwilling to touch the relationship between men and women, but my pursuit of career is higher than before.

My dad once said to me more than once: The sign of a man’s true maturity is to learn to re-divide the proportion of career and love in his heart. Naive men choose love, and mature men choose career. If one day, you can truly realize The importance of career to a man means that you are mature. Only mature men are qualified to have a mature love.

What is mature love?Of course, the purpose is to get married and have children, not to have childhood sweethearts, fight and fight, and end up in vain, leaving only regrets.

I'm probably mature. I don't want to be involved in a love that ends in vain, nor do I want to suffer the pain of separation easily.

Regarding love, I really have submitted too many failing test papers; therefore, I want to be a top student and make everyone happy and free from harm.

……

After taking a heavy drag on my cigarette, I finally replied to Lu Xi: "Qiao Jiao and I are already on our way back to the small town. Please tell me the name of the noodle shop. I'll try it next time I go back to Qingdao."

Lu Xi did not give me the name of the store. She just replied: "My plans really couldn't keep up with the changes. I originally planned to go back to the small town with you after breakfast, but I didn't expect you to leave overnight."

I was a little surprised: "Are you still going to the small town?"

"Well, Guan Yubo's promotional video was planned to be shot in two days. Previously, it only took one day to shoot, because Luan Yu was critically ill and returned to Qingdao, so he had to make up for the unfinished parts."

"You didn't tell me about this when we met this afternoon."

"You didn't even ask."

"So, the difference between people is that no one asked and no one said..."

"Isn't that right... So, I'm not going to tell you the name of the noodle shop. When we have the opportunity to meet in Qingdao and eat together, it won't be considered a miss... There must be this opportunity, right?"

Between the lines of Lu Xi's words, I felt a playfulness and liveliness that rarely appeared in her, and I smiled unconsciously, and then replied: "I didn't expect you to be a very ritualistic person... As long as you have this in your heart There will definitely be a chance for a sense of ritual."

While waiting for Lu Xi's reply, Qiao Jiao, who was lying on the bed, suddenly asked me: "Han Chao, are you laughing again?"

"Did I... laugh again?"

"Can you stop being so scary!" She paused for a moment and asked, "Are you still chatting with your first girlfriend?"

"No chat."

"Go to sleep quickly, I'm begging you... I don't know how to drive this manual car. If you don't keep your energy up, how will you drive later?... If I had known you were like this, you might as well have stayed in Qingdao. Have a night’s rest and set out comfortably tomorrow!”

When Qiao Jiao said this, I was a little confused. Although this happened not long ago, I really can't remember who made the anxious decision to return to the small town overnight. Now it seems that it's good to be here It is indeed much better to rest for one night in Qingdao than to rush back to the small town overnight!
Qiao Jiao was really sleepy, so after she complained like this, she quickly fell into sleep again, so that when I talked to her later, she didn't answer.

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After waiting for a while, Lu Xi finally replied: "There are many things you didn't expect... However, I am willing to give you a chance to get to know me again..."

"Did something open up your Ren and Du's second meridians?"

Lu Xi first made a smiling expression, and then said: "You are the only one who can open up the Ren and Du channels... After all, no one can be like you, drinking two kilograms of liquor when you don't agree... At that time, if If I give you a step to get to the sky, would you dare to soar into the clouds?"

I smiled knowingly, and then gave Lu Xi a dog-headed expression. She would talk to me in this way. It was indeed something I had never seen before. I don’t know which one is the real her, but if I think about it carefully, Perhaps the true expression of her true nature is now. The reason why she was cold in the past was just because she had the same burden as me. She didn't know how to get along with me in such an environment.

I felt a lot more relaxed because of this, and then sent her another message: "The Chinese New Year is only half a month away. If you are free during the Chinese New Year, we will choose to go to Hunan to see my godfather and godmother during the Chinese New Year... In the past few years, there must be no one to spend the New Year with them. If I can spend the New Year with them, they will be very happy." After the message was sent out, I felt something was wrong. I lost contact with my parents, and subconsciously I also felt that something was wrong. There is no concept of going home, but Luxi has a complete family, which is both emotional and reasonable. She should spend it with her family during the Chinese New Year, a festival of family reunion. How can I take her to Hunan? Woolen cloth?

Just when I wanted to withdraw, Lu Xi had already replied to the message: "Let me confirm with Sister Minhong. She called me yesterday and said that she wanted me to participate in a satellite TV station's Spring Festival Gala. It is estimated that the time will overlap. ...If she hasn’t signed a performance contract there, I’ll push the matter aside. If she’s already signed, it might be difficult.”

"It's okay, put your work first... I didn't think it through. Even if there is no Spring Festival Gala, you should celebrate the New Year with your family... Otherwise, I will definitely stay there for more time. , I will go over to spend the New Year with them first, and when you are not busy after the New Year, you can come find me."

This time, Lu Xi replied to the message after a while: "Don't make a decision in a hurry. There is still half a month before the Chinese New Year. Let me make sure first."

"Okay, anyway, don't force it, don't delay your work."

"Well, take a good rest and don't drive tired. I'm going to sleep first."

After saying good night to each other, Lu Xi and I ended our chat. This is also the longest-term plan we have made since we met. Although the time span is only half a month, for us, it is also A historic breakthrough.

I put out the cigarette in my hand, put my arms behind my head, and then looked at the starry sky outside the window in a relaxed posture. I finally stopped thinking about the past and started thinking about some things that might happen in the future.

Speaking of going to Hunan to visit my godfather and godmother, I still have some concerns, because I am not a particularly good liar, so in the face of two old people who care deeply about me and Luan Yu, I don’t want to You know how strong your psychological quality is to lie to them that Luan Yu married abroad and is living a good life...

Luan Yu may have asked Lu Xi to go with me because she knew me well enough. She hoped that Lu Xi could be by my side to give me some help and make this lie as perfect as possible.

Yes, I can only try to be as perfect as possible, because no matter how I hide it, my godfather and godmother will never see Luan Yu again in this life, who also worries them.

I felt a little sad because of this. After being sad, I imagined how they would feel after seeing Lu Xi. Although Lu Xi has a star aura and a good personality, can she really replace Luan Yu's position in their hearts?

Everything is unknown.

I was finally tired and tired, and as soon as I closed my eyes, I fell into sleep completely.

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After resting until 04:30 in the morning, Qiao Jiao and I continued to drive the RV on the road. At about noon, we finally returned to the small town. We did not go to our accommodation immediately, but went to the scenic spot first. Chang Yuli said that the scenic spot is in A lot has changed in the days we've been gone.

There has indeed been a change. After we arrived at the scenic spot, we saw a giant crane working to replace the previous signboard of the scenic spot. At this time, the word "Lover" had been successfully installed, only "Valley" was missing. ".

In addition to this biggest change, there are countless other changes in small details. Even the re-laid floor of the visitor center has the "Valley of Lovers" trademark printed on it, and the content on the scenic spot's publicity board has also been changed. It has become Lover's Valley, and even the platform sign of the newly opened bus line also uses Lover's Valley as the stop. All of this indicates that "Da Nangou" has become a piece of history.

At this moment, Qiao Jiao, who was standing next to me, couldn't help but sigh: "Brother Chao, I really want to know how you feel now after you single-handedly turned Danangou into Lover's Valley... Do you feel a sense of accomplishment after victory?"

"To be honest, no... because when I was beaten by them, I had already anticipated this result... What I want to do more now is to deal with the aftermath... Come on, follow me to the cigarette shop to buy some cigarettes and alcohol. Then fish them out and give them some trouble."

"Are you a dog-faced person? They beat you, and you still want to buy them cigarettes and alcohol to accompany them, right?"

I didn't have any emotional fluctuations, and just replied calmly: "What do you think business is about?... Isn't it just understanding human nature... Saying those unpleasant things to them was not my original intention at all, it was just for I have no choice but to do a good job in the scenic spot, so I don't regard them as enemies... As long as the scenic spot exists, these people and I have common interests. They don't have to have such foresight, but I must have... I will still deal with them in the future. Long, so they and I can only be friends, not enemies... Do you understand?"

Qiao Jiao pretended to be a fan of the girl, nodded and replied: "I understand... this pattern suddenly opened up!"

After saying that, Qiao Jiao followed my footsteps. She looked a little excited, and seemed to really appreciate such an enlightened me. And I became more and more determined. I wanted to do something that would not only make me successful, but also make me more determined. Also benefit others.

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In fact, it is not that easy to be a successful person, because it is difficult to figure out and control human nature. Although I have bowed my head to the villagers who beat me, they do not accept it and are still paranoid. They believed that the name change was done under my coercion, so when I gave them the cigarettes and alcohol, they smashed them all to the ground in front of me and threatened me a lot.

Of course I was very angry about this, but when I thought about my lofty goals, even if I looked down on it, the person who really felt uncomfortable was Qiao Jiao... She stared at the broken wine bottles on the ground for a long, long time...

Because she paid for these, and I have no money. As I said before, I can’t scrape out 1 yuan.

Watching her feel uncomfortable, I suddenly felt uncomfortable too. My discomfort did not lie in the tobacco or alcohol itself, but I felt that I really owed Qiao Jiao a lot... a lot...

(End of this chapter)