i'm not a bad man

Chapter 493 Getting More Lonely
The night was already deep, and the rain still showed no sign of stopping, and I had already stood under the eaves and smoked several cigarettes. The eaves were not big, and the rain falling diagonally had already wet my trouser legs.

I was made uncomfortable by the cold and wet feeling. Just when I was about to leave in the rain, my phone vibrated in my pocket again, which made me stop...

This is a call from Zhao Yingrou. Speaking of Zhao Yingrou, it seems that we haven’t contacted each other for a long time. The last time she called me was about Xiao Chen and Jiani.

After answering the phone, she asked me first: "Where are you?"

"Qingdao, is something wrong?"

"It's nothing special. You have forgotten that I just like to call you in the dead of night." After a pause, she asked me again: "Is it raining over there? It's raining so loudly. .”

"Well, it's been raining for almost an hour."

I heard the sound of opening the curtains, and she seemed to be observing the outside, and then said to me: "The weather is nice here in Tianjin, the moon is bright and the stars are few."

"You really know how to find topics to chat about..."

"Otherwise, do I expect you to take the initiative to find a topic to talk to me about?"

"I really have something to ask you... What was the final word about Jiani?"

"Xiao Chen did what you said and narrated the incident painfully on the short video platform. However, within two days, the video was taken down, saying it violated the platform's rules."

"and then?"

"Then someone called him and warned him not to talk nonsense."

"And then what?"

"Then, he still did as you said and went directly to Yang Yiming's company to unfurl the banner... For people like Xiao Chen, he had already risked his life and death for the hope of Jiani's survival. He ignored them, so in the end, a situation was formed where he was barefoot and not afraid of wearing shoes. No matter how they threatened him, he would not compromise... In the end, Yang Yiming had no choice but to agree to continue treating Jiani, but now she has been transferred to our hospital... …This is what I asked for, because the fight with Yang Yiming was so ugly, and I’m not sure if Yang Yiming’s doctor is still willing to try his best.”

"That's good. How is Jiani's current condition?"

"It's okay...I'm going to arrange a bone marrow transplant tomorrow...so..."

"That's why you called me, right?"

"Yes, I can't understand you a little bit. You really put Xiao Chen and Jiani aside. You haven't asked about them since the last phone call... You were not like this before."

After a moment of silence, I replied: "Does it matter what kind of person I used to be?"

"Of course, all your previous relationships were established because you were such a Korean wave. If the Korean wave from the past ceased to exist, it would be difficult to maintain your previous relationships."

"Really? Then tell me, what kind of person was the Han Chao in the past?"

Zhao Yingrou seemed to be reminiscing, and after a while she said to me: "He is a good person, and a very interesting person."

"What's so good about it?" "You are very generous to everyone. Every time there is a class reunion in class, you are always the treat."

I smiled and replied: "I don't know if generosity is a good thing. I only know that those people who I have treated with generosity, after something happened to my family, they called me the most worthless." A group of people, and my generosity turned into showing off in their mouths, saying that everything that happened to our family was because I showed off too much."

"This... I don't know."

"Of course you don't know, because you have never fallen from a height, so you can never see other people's gloating faces."

Zhao Yingrou fell into silence. I felt impatient because of her silence, so I said again: "If you can't feel the same as me, don't judge me and what I have done, and don't miss the Korean Chao from the past. , that Han Chao has been labeled as incompetent and cowardly."

"But I am your first love. We have been separated for so long. The only thing I can think of is the Korean Chao from before... Do you still remember? Every time it rained, you would call me out and let me sit with you. We were walking for several streets in the rain... I thought you were pursuing romance. Later you told me that you are most inspired to write songs when you are wet in the rain... I thought you were very It's interesting and very childlike. You seem to have a world of your own, and you enjoy this world very much, so you never care about other people's opinions, and you don't care about gains and losses."

"Stop talking, let alone trying to impress me with these memories...I don't want to hear it."

After saying that, I hung up the call from Zhao Yingrou. I became more and more irritated because on such a rainy night, there was another woman who missed the past. However, the Han Chao of the past had been killed by me decisively. In the unbearable past, I can no longer look back.

Women are women. With their poor eyesight, they can only think of these. They will never see how I brought down two big men in this small town. It was precisely because they were big men that I no longer had any body parts. With the possibility of retreat, the only thing I can do now is to completely replace them and do better than them. Only in this way can I win the hearts of the small town and gain a good reputation.

I am almost successful, so I will not allow anyone to shake my will at this time. Whoever dares to do so will be my obstacle.

……

Back at the hotel, Ren Ran and Wu Luoge were still drinking. They said they were drinking, so they should talk more, because in such a long time, they had only drank three to five bottles of beer each.

Seeing that I was back, Wu Luoge took the initiative to greet me and asked me to drink with them.

I didn't refuse, because on a night like this, I really needed a drink to fall asleep.

I asked the waiter for another dozen beers, and after drinking a bottle, I asked Wu Luoge and Ren Ran, "What are you two talking about? It's such a good conversation."

Ren Ran replied with a smile: "Our topic must be all about you... Your brother is particularly interested in your experience in Qingdao. He doesn't believe that you are a person who would misbehave in a bar."

Wu Luoge nodded in agreement, and then said: "Han Chao, you are going to Phuket soon, which is a place full of bars... Then, you can show off your abilities so that your brother can trust me. Everything you say is true.”

"What kind of ability is this?"

"In the bar, I will take the initiative to strike up a conversation with girls, and sing on stage. My singing is better than the resident singer. For people who hang out in bars, this is the greatest ability..."

I looked at Ren Ran and felt sensitive again. I felt that she was deliberately talking to me about the past again and trying to arouse my nostalgia for the past.

This time, I controlled my emotions and did not let myself lose my composure, but I felt increasingly lonely in my heart. Is there no one in this world who would recognize the current Korean trend?
I put down the wine bottle in my hand and looked into the distance. I unconsciously thought of Lu Xi. What about her? Will she approve it?

I don’t know, or even be sure, whether she has forgotten me. The only thing I still remember is the morning after she left. The pain was so heartbreaking, and the Han Chao who was once missed by others, He died that morning.

(End of this chapter)