i'm not a bad man

Chapter 503 I'm sure

In a depressed and bleak atmosphere, Zuo Xiaowei and I just looked at each other. She seemed to have said everything she wanted to say to me, while my heart was filled with a chill, frozen. I wanted to say everything, so we just looked at each other and didn’t speak.

Gradually, there was a sour feeling in my nasal cavity, and gradually the corners of my eyes became warm, as if tears were about to fall...

I used to be a staunch non-marriage advocate. Not getting married means never having children. But when I listened to Zuo Xiaowei telling me all this, my heart kept trembling. I even imagined Now, if this child is born, what will it look like?
It may be a quiet little girl, or it may be a lively and active little boy, but Guan Yubo unilaterally killed his (her) chance of coming into this world. He (she) is my child, he (she) ) It is not up to Guan Yubo to decide whether he should come to this world or not. He is not qualified.

At this moment, I felt a cold light flashing in the corner of my eyes. I no longer looked at Zuo Xiaowei, but got up and walked to the window, lit a cigarette, and then looked through the dirt-covered window of the small hotel. Playing BJ in the early morning.

Spring in BJ comes later than in cities in the south, so on such an early morning, there is still frost hanging on the branches, and the branches are trembling by the wind, but the frost is still stubbornly attached, as if only sunlight can Let them disappear from this world completely.

In a daze, there was a sudden explosion. Looking down, I saw an elderly man playing with a whip. Looking to the east, the sun had already peeked out; this city was about to revive. , resurrecting in its own rhythm and manner...

……

After extinguishing the cigarette in my hand, I finally said: "If this child is still alive, he should be born in a few months."

"The due date is four months and five days away."

I turned around and looked at Zuo Xiaowei, but she lowered her head. She didn't raise her head until she felt that I was looking at her.

"Do you like boys or girls?"

Zuo Xiaowei looked surprised. It seemed that in her understanding of me, it was impossible to ask her this question; so, after being silent for a long time, she replied: "I like it all..." Pause for a moment. After a pause, she showed a look of fantasy again and added: "However, I still seem to like boys more, because boys are more likely to be talented and naughty than girls. When a boy is around, I won't be bored."

"I prefer girls. Girls are like water, smart and beautiful..." After a while of silence, I said in a lower voice: "Life has been too cold these years. I want to have a little cotton-padded jacket."

"So, if this child...if...if he is born, you won't want him, and you won't hate him and think he is a burden?"

I shook my head, indicating that what she had imagined would not happen and would not happen.

Zuo Xiaowei shed tears again, and the first ray of sunshine in the morning passed through the turbid glass at this time and fell among us; perhaps, this was the sunshine transformed by the child, trying to comfort us.

However, my heart felt even worse.

I closed my eyes and shook my head, then took the initiative to change the topic and said to Zuo Xiaowei, who was still crying: "By the way, I changed all the songs you wrote according to my ideas, see if you can It can’t be used.”

"Thank you."

"You're welcome, it's just for one night." After a short pause, I said to her again: "I should go."

"where to?"

"Don't be nervous, I'm not going to the small town... I'm going back to Qingdao."

"Are you going now?"

"Ah."

"I'll take you to the train station."

"No, you drank too much last night and the alcohol hasn't been digested yet. I can just take a taxi myself."

After saying that, I picked up my backpack from the chair, but Zuo Xiaowei put on her shoes in a panic and insisted on giving them to me.

……

I drove the Ferrari Zuo Xiaowei drove through the streets leading to the high-speed rail station. When I passed a kindergarten, I stopped the car in order to let these children pass first.

Zuo Xiaowei and I looked at these children wearing clothes of various colors, and we lost our minds again...

I'm not sure who came to his senses first, but it was me who spoke first: "Is the life you want now?" "It's not what I want, but I have accepted it... As for you, you must always Are you going to live in this state now?"

"For the time being, I don't know how to change it...Actually, like you, I can also accept this state, because this is how I have been living since our family went bankrupt."

"But it's different now. You have found your parents. They can no longer give you everything like before. Instead, they have become a burden on you."

"The reason why people are worried is because they think too much... If you don't focus on these things, you won't be worried."

Zuo Xiaowei fell into silence. She seemed to be making a decision. After a long time, she mustered up the courage to say to me: "Han Chao, just stay in BJ...I will rent you a house, and you can concentrate on helping me." I will make the next album, and from now on, I will give you half of my income."

"How much is half?"

"Now most of the income is taken away by the company, because a lot of expenses were spent on early packaging and publicity... However, if we measure it by the income standards of ordinary people, it is quite a lot for me..."

I smiled and asked, "How much is that half?"

"It should be over one million. If the commercial performances continue later, it will be more."

"That's a lot!"

Zuo Xiaowei looked expectant, and then asked me cautiously: "Then are you willing to stay at BJ, stay with me, and make music with me?"

"Ever since I came out to wander, I have never had more than 1 yuan... Only a fool would be unwilling to pay 100 million."

"Then...then I will rent a house for you... BJ is very big, which area do you want to live in?"

"Don't worry...I want to ask you a question first..."

"what is the problem?"

I opened the car window, lit a cigarette, and looked at the children playing in the kindergarten. After a long time, I said: "You said, if Guan Yubo knows that I am in BJ, you can rent it to me." Taking over the house...what will he think?"

Zuo Xiaowei looked at me in astonishment, as if I didn't remind her that she wouldn't even think of Guan Yubo.

I asked her again: "You two haven't broken up, right?"

"No."

"Then it's better to avoid suspicion. It can be seen that he is still very important in your heart...otherwise, when something big happens, he will always be the first thing you think of." Follow my feed Letter to the public account: ***, reply "B&B" to view the prototype of Tank Inn B&B.Reply "Lu Xi" and "Qiao Jiao" to view the character picture!You can also view the latest chapters

"You...are you blaming me for not keeping that child?"

I didn't answer Zuo Xiaowei's words. Finally, after stopping for a few minutes, I started the car again and left the kindergarten.

……

After the car got on the elevated highway, the journey was smooth and we soon arrived at the high-speed rail station. Before getting off the bus, I glanced at Zuo Xiaowei again. It was this look that made Zuo Xiaowei completely lose her mind. She pulled me on his arm, and said: "Without you, my career as a singer would never go far... You stay in BJ and help me make a new album... Guan Yubo will not come back, at least not in the next two years. ……and……"

"And what?"

Zuo Xiaowei's breath weakened. She avoided my eyes and said, "And it's just for work... Is there anything I can't do with a clear conscience?"

"Are you sure you have a clear conscience?... If you are sure, I will stay."

Zuo Xiaowei looked a little confused, but after a period of silence, she still met my gaze, nodded and said, "I'm sure."

(End of this chapter)