i'm not a bad man

Chapter 538
The night wind rustled the branches and leaves outside the wall, and the moonlight seemed even more deserted. I just looked at the teapot that I broke, and the tea flowed all over the floor, just like my uncontrollable anger; On such a night when I thought nothing would happen, I actually lost even my last trump card. What else could I use to check Guan Yubo and Yang Yiming who was hiding behind him?
I sat back down heavily on the chair and covered my face with my hands. After a long time, I looked up at Zou Chang. She still didn't dare to look at me...

I finally asked her, "When are you going to leave the town?"

"Just these two days."

"I once traveled in Yunnan. It's quite a big place. Which city do you want to live in?"

Zou Chang then looked up at me with a surprised look on his face. He probably didn't expect that I would be so concerned about her whereabouts...

"Don't be afraid, I won't pester you. I just think I can give you some advice."

Zou Chang then said hesitantly: "I...I want to go somewhere old."

"Gejiu!" I said with a look of reminiscence on my face, and said after a long time: "In that place, the housing prices are very cheap, the whole city is built along the lake, the scenery is good, and it is a good place for health... However, the city body The quantity is too small, not even in a decent shopping mall, so you might not be used to it.”

"Brother, have you really been to Gejiu?"

"Except for XJ, I have visited almost all cities in China... It is not appropriate to say that traveling is not appropriate, it is just an experience, more like wandering."

"I'm quite afraid of being bored, so what other good places can I go in Yunnan?"

"Apart from Kunming, the most famous places in Yunnan are Dali and Lijiang...Lijiang's winter is quite cold, and the climate is not as good as Dali's, but Dali's wind is very strong, especially in winter, but in these two cities, You won't feel bored in life, because you will meet many people traveling every day, and there are new faces everywhere..."

"I'm afraid of the cold, but I don't care if it's windy or not, so I'd better choose one of the two cities, Dali and Gejiu."

"Go to Dali. You will always make money. You can also open an inn or something in Dali. If it runs well, you can develop it as a stable career... Now that you have decided to be a good person, you can do it wherever you go. Live a good life and stop taking shortcuts like this."

Having said this, I finally smiled, and then said: "When I decided to come to live in your small town, there was someone who worried about me, fearing that I would not live well here, because I have always been a person who does not strive for progress. She is a person, so she gave me a pair of bracelets. She said that when I feel that I can’t survive, I can sell them to protect my life... Before you leave, I will also give you something. When you go out, everything is Strangers will feel much more at ease if they have something to know.”

After saying that, I looked down at the Rolex watch Zuo Xiaowei gave me at BJ, then took it off my wrist and handed it to Zou Chang, motioning for her to take it.

Zou Chang kept looking at it, but didn't dare to reach out to take it. After a while, he shook his head and said to me: "Brother, it's too expensive. I've seen customers wear this watch. It costs more than 30 to buy it. I really can't have it." .”

"It's okay. I always forget to wind the watch. It won't do much good if I keep it here. Just think of it as a souvenir to commemorate our acquaintance. When you see this watch in the future, you should also Remember my expectations for you, you must live a good life and don’t let yourself down anymore.”

After saying that, I took Zou Chang's arm and put the watch on her wrist. I smiled and said, "Don't tell me, this watch is really suitable for both men and women. You can wear it very well." good-looking!"

Zou Chang lost control of her emotions suddenly, and she lay on my lap and cried bitterly...

I suddenly thought of the dream I had not long ago. In the dream, I found a barmaid. I didn’t go to bed with her, I just asked her to accompany me. I invited her to a high-end restaurant and gave her flowers. ; Later, she became a good person and looked for me all over the world.

This artistic conception is so similar to this moment... I didn't mean to deliberately compare it. I just thought of this dream and suddenly felt that the woman in front of me looked even more pitiful. I didn't want to embarrass her anymore...

I pushed her away, then looked at the mess in this place, and said softly to her: "I'm leaving, you clean up this place... don't contact her again in the future."

"You can't get a taxi here... When you sober up tomorrow, wherever you go, I'll take you there."

"In life, you always have to try to explore your own path and hope that others will send you. After all, there is a difference. How far can you send me?"

After saying that, I smiled at Zou Chang, then opened the courtyard door and walked out of her old house.

The first thing I did after walking out of the old house was to put her phone number on the blacklist and then delete it completely. Of course I am a man who can afford to let her go. Since I have decided to let her go, I will definitely do it. Let her go.

……

The small shop at the entrance of the village was still open. I bought a pack of cigarettes, a pack of peanuts, and a few cans of beer. I kept walking and kept walking, running counter to the prosperity of the city. Finally, I arrived at a township under the small town. This township is called Chishui, I don’t know why it is called Chishui. Instead, there are several rivers running through the town. It doesn’t look like there is a shortage of water at all.

The small town is very deserted late at night, let alone the towns below. There is no one on the entire street, and the street lights are dim. Everything seems so lacking in life. The whole town seems to have been frozen by magic. Only the occasional barking of a dog would break this dead silence, but after the barking, it felt even more dead!
I finally looked up and saw in front of me a cultural square with the characteristics of a small town. There was a display screen in the center of the square. Various advertisements related to the small town were scrolling on the screen, but there was no sound.

I tore open a can of beer, took a sip, and watched with some fascination...I actually saw Luxi on this display screen. It was Luxi's advertisement for Guan Yubo Scenic Area.

Time and space seemed to have overlapped. I seemed to have returned to that night in Qingdao, drinking beer and sitting under an advertising screen, where a commercial film shot by Luxi for a luxury brand was playing.

Loving someone is really a long process, from falling in love at first sight, to pursuing, and then falling in love with each other, and finally being deeply integrated with each other but having to separate...

After separation, will she still be my woman?
As I was getting drunk, I just thought like this, then shook my head and smiled bitterly...

I can't figure out this love at all, so I'd better not think about it too hard. However, when it comes to career, I'm really upset. I think that I have reached the limit of what an ordinary person can do. But in the face of capital and power, it is still so powerless.

In this situation, what should I do to open up the situation and preserve a glimmer of hope?
I have no clue, at least not a clue at this moment... And the helplessness in my heart is not the helplessness of this real world... Zou Chang has given up, which means that the truth about her father will be completely covered up, but I knew clearly that her father was killed by someone hired by Guan Yubo, but I couldn't change it.

Sure enough, knowing more but not being able to see through and accept it is the most painful thing in the world. I don’t want to be a messenger of justice, because when I do this, I have selfish motives and my own purposes. , but I just feel very uncomfortable, like a fish bone stuck deep in my throat.

……

I just lay down on the lawn completely, no longer thinking, just staring at the deep starry sky, feeling that I was getting smaller and smaller, becoming more and more insignificant.

(End of this chapter)