i'm not a bad man

Chapter 591: Murderous intention arises

Because we didn't find any resonance, the conversation between Renran and I didn't go too deep. However, until the moment we ended the call, she still looked forward to my going to Phuket to reunite with them early. She even thought about some New Year celebrations. The thing is, this year, we must celebrate the New Year together in Phuket.

It's too far gone. When I was dominated by this terrifying state of mind, I only had the negativity of living one day at a time, and the ruthlessness of killing Guan Yubo.

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After closing the curtains, I sat back on the sofa not far from the bed again. The curtains were not drawn tightly, but there was still a gap that allowed me to see the outside world...

It's dark, and the night will always show a person's loneliness vividly; and the rain that started falling 10 minutes ago was beating the world "tick-tock-tock", which made me even more lonely, so lonely that I felt like I had Schizophrenia.

The Han Chao in front of me is a Han Chao that no one cares about. The Han Chao in the past was accompanied by Lu Xi, Qiao Jiao and the others.

Yes, I always feel that I have not been with them for too long, nor have I talked to them properly; but I don’t know whether I have separated myself or they have separated me; in short, I am now, very lonely……

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In order not to let this feeling of separation defeat me, I closed my eyes again and recalled for a long time, the days when I was accompanied by others, and the mental journey I once had. I feel that this kind of memory can bring me to the present. Although the stitching is very reluctant, it is still much better than being cut apart.

However, compared to the evil thoughts in my heart, these memories seemed somewhat boring.

So, I opened my eyes, lit a cigarette skillfully, and smoked it skillfully. When I was about to finish the cigarette, I picked up my mobile phone and searched for it in the address book.

I am looking for a person, and this person is also someone I met on the road. He calls himself Lao Wai, and I call him Brother Wai.

Lao Wai was once a gambler. Because he was too fond of gambling, his whole family was ruined. Finally, his wife couldn't stand the endless loan sharking. One night, she stood on the bridge and drank poison and committed suicide.

Only then did Lao Wai wake up and stopped gambling. He was full of guilt for his son. In order to redeem himself, he returned to his old job and was responsible for repairing tires at a local car repair shop. We met while working on tires.

He said he envied me for being able to take my girlfriend around, unlike him, who had been married to his wife for 15 years but had never taken her out of Chengdu.

Because of envy, he didn't charge me for repairing the tire that time, and because I felt bad about it, I invited him to dinner that night. We both drank a lot of wine that night, and he took advantage of the drunkenness to tell me that as long as I could make him He made a lot of money to compensate his son, even if he died, he was willing to do so; he said that just by repairing tires, he could only take care of his son's food for the rest of his life, and could not give him a better life. Therefore, he Not willing to give in.

To this day, when I think of this man, I still remember the look in his eyes when he said he was unwilling, full of regret and longing.

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I stared at Lao Wai's phone number for a long time, and even though I knew it was a road of no return, I finally dialed the number; over the years, I had gotten to know thousands of people because of my wandering, but after I moved At the moment when I thought about killing, the only thing I could think of was Lao Wai.

The unwilling and eager look in Lao Wai's eyes told me that if I could give him a generous enough sum of money, he would dare to kill someone.

I happen to still have some money, but I haven't spent it yet.

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Although we haven’t contacted each other for many years, Lao Wai’s phone number has not been changed. I got through, and he answered my call a moment later. I spoke to him first on the phone and said: “Brother Wai, it’s been a long time.” Got in touch, do you still remember me?”

There was some noise on his side, which seemed to be the sound of constant traffic, but I heard his voice clearly: "Remember, remember, you are Han Chao, right?"

"It's me, Brother Wai...where are you now?"

"Today isn't Tomb-Sweeping Day. Burn some paper for my mother-in-law...it will be ready soon."

After saying that, the sound of a lighter igniting came from the phone, and I realized that today is Qingming Festival, and it will definitely rain on Qingming Festival. No wonder it rained like this after a sunny day in the evening.

I got up again and walked to the window, then opened the curtains. Sure enough, somewhere in the street, someone was burning paper money. When the smoke met the rain, it seemed to form a channel, connecting the two worlds. , one inhabited by dead people, and one inhabited by living people.

I let out a heavy breath and thought of Zou Chang again. Last night, we talked on the phone, but today she is no longer here. She and Ma Guan died together on the Qingming Festival.Is this destiny?Or the entanglement of fate?Ma Guan's father killed her father, but in the end, she and Ma Guan died together.

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In a daze, Lao Wai finally said to me again: "It's done... I don't know if this woman has been reincarnated..."

I smiled and replied: "Brother Wai, do you also believe in reincarnation?"

"Trust...but I think she hasn't been reincarnated yet."

"why?"

Lao Wai fell into silence, and after a while he said: "Do you know why she stood on the bridge to drink medicine? She said that even after she died, she had to remember not to cross the Naihe Bridge, and not to drink Meng Po soup... She will hate me for the rest of her life... If she has been reincarnated, she should come to me..."

After being silent for a moment, I replied: "Brother Wai, are you still regretting it now?"

Lao Wai's voice was choked with sobs: "I regret..."

"Let the past go by. After all, time cannot go back..." After a short pause, I said again: "Say something happy, Brother Wai... How have you been these past few years? Is it still the same as before? , just like to drink a few sips if you have nothing to do?"

"I won't drink anymore... I'm afraid I won't have the chance to drink again in the future."

"what happened?"

Lao Wai sighed heavily and replied: "Maybe it's retribution. I was diagnosed with lymphoma last month... I don't know how long I can live... I'm not afraid of death, I'm just afraid that I won't be able to see my mother-in-law if I die... When she died, she couldn't leave anything for her children, so she hated me even more!"

"Lymphoma can be cured, right?"

"What to treat? If not, we can still leave some money for our children to go to college."

I was silent again, and then asked: "Are you still in Chengdu?"

"Well, I have been in Chengdu all the time..."

"Then you wait for me, I will fly to Chengdu the day after tomorrow at the latest, and we can meet."

"It's okay, you don't have to worry about me..."

"It's fate that we met. You wait for my crooked brother... I have some spare money here. I will send it to you. You can use it first."

Lao Wai didn't seem to have thought that we were willing to spend real money to visit him just because of our friendship. He was stunned for a long time before asking: "Has your kid become prosperous in the past few years?"

"I've made a little fortune...Don't refuse, Brother Wai, even if you can't use it, your child has to use it, right?"

Speaking of children, it seemed that he touched on Lao Wai's pain point. He finally whispered back: "Then...thank you."

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I just ended the call with Lao Wai, and then looked absently at the humid world outside the window. My heart suddenly became calm, and I calmly thought about how I should explain to him what I wanted to do after meeting Lao Wai. matter.

I want him to drive Guan Yubo to death, just like Guan Yubo hired Ma Guan's father to kill Zou Chang's father.

This seems to be a kind of God's will. I think Lao Wai will definitely agree, because he is already a dying man, but he has a son who can't let go of him life or death. If he can get a baby for his son before he dies, With the money, he can leave with peace of mind.

(End of this chapter)