i'm not a bad man

Chapter 611 Please listen carefully

Lao Wai just disappeared into the night, leaving only a painting given to me. I spread the painting flat in my hand and looked at it again and again. Suddenly, I seemed to have lost all my mood. There is a beam of light that may not exist at all, shining directly into the ocean of my thoughts, filled with infinite warmth, all because of the scene Lao Wai described to me before leaving...

Yes, I have taken my own path to such an extreme, but I am not married yet, and there is no one who can continue my life. I have some regrets in my heart, so I put all my attention on this painting. Only then did this illusion arise. In this illusory world, it seemed that there was already such a woman beside me. She gave birth to a little boy for me. At this moment, this little boy was riding on my neck, and the three of us were together. I just face the sunset and breeze, walking on a road that never needs to see the end...

The reason why there is no need for an end is because I don’t want to be separated from them. I just want to be on this endless road, free from the shackles of grains and grains, and wander infinitely...

Soon, I woke up again, and with the wakefulness came a deeper night; I stood at the window again and looked outside, and the farms had returned to their previous silent appearance...only the air remained. There is still a slight smell of barbecue. In addition to this smell, there seems to be some smell of engine oil...

Obviously Lao Wai has been gone for such a long time. This misunderstanding probably stems from the reluctance in my heart. Although Lao Wai and I are only connected by a few drinks, I always feel that on such a night, we are so different from each other. I seem to have some things I haven’t had time to say to him about the regret of never meeting him again.

Based on this regret, after I lit a cigarette, I stared at the painting left by Lao Wai. Until I was sure that it was deeply engraved in my mind, I burned the painting with a lighter, so this There is another smell in the small room, the smell of paper burned to ashes... The ashes are very much like Lao Wai's life...

When he gave me high hopes, he was also reflecting on himself. At least, he had a son and a wife who loved him very much, but he chose to gamble; until he was finally plagued by illness, he could not do anything for himself. He has found a path to redemption in his life. Since there is no redemption, it can only be burned to ashes.

And I don’t want to leave such evidence on my body that I have been with Lao Wai; therefore, I am not another Lao Wai, and there is no trace of beauty left around us.

……

I finally closed the window when everything fell silent. Just when I was about to close the curtains, I inadvertently saw Guan Yubo's dual-color Bentley Bentayga. He hadn't left yet, almost At the same time, I saw him, who was drunk, walking towards the hotel with Zuo Xiaowei in his arms...

As soon as I fell into a trance, I had an image of a heavy-duty truck roaring past and smashing him into pieces, and then I suddenly woke up...

Although this is not even a hallucination, it is just a prediction, but I still broke out in a cold sweat because of it...

The psychological pressure caused by depriving a person of his life, whether he is a good person or full of evil, cannot be described in words. But I have no way out, and I have tried hard, but still because of my efforts, let Zou Chang lost his life in vain, so I can only be more cold-blooded and not have unrealistic expectations.

Glancing coldly at Guan Yubo, who held Zuo Xiaowei tightly in his arms, I finally closed the curtains and gave up all assumptions.

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Lao Wai left, which meant that there was no way back for me. So, the day after Lao Wai left, I finally turned on my phone and regained contact with the world; of course I could not live without this world. , otherwise, I will be treated as a missing person, and there will always be a small group of people in this world who will still care about me, such as Ren Ran, my parents... However, during the two days when I turned off my phone, , they did not call me or send me a message; therefore, two days is not the limit between me, Ren Ran and my parents. Our lives have certain limits, and I Like a dandelion seed, without them, sooner or later, it will have its own life... No matter whether this life is good or bad, I can't rely on them like before. Instead, they have become my concern and weakness. Because I didn't want to bring trouble to them, I went to such an extreme.

The only one who kept trying to contact me was Qiao Jiao. In the past two days when the phone was turned off, she made more than 500 calls to me...

I have never been cared for so much by someone, no, it was beyond caring, she was trying to save me because she was the only one in the world who knew what I was doing and what I was trying to accomplish. .

It's hard to imagine how she felt when she was abandoned in Dunhuang; it's even harder to understand how she felt when she made more than 500 phone calls.

Just when I was hesitating to call her back, she called again.

……

I tried my best to act as if nothing had happened. After I answered the phone, I said to her in as calm a tone as possible: "I have more than 500 missed call records here... What happened? I just disappeared." It’s only been two days.”

Qiao Jiao smiled sadly and weakly. After a long time, she asked me: "Why do you want to turn off the phone?"

"I lost my phone and I just went to get a replacement card today."

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"I don't want to drag you down."

"It's...it's already here, and you're still talking nonsense like this!"

"I am telling the truth."

"What you said is the truth, but it is a sad fact for me..." After a pause, Qiao Jiao said in an even weaker voice: "Actually, I know that that night, you were deliberately getting me drunk. ...I could have stopped drinking so much, but I still had a little hope for the relationship between the two of us...So, I chose to let nature take its course...I really hope that when I drink too much... At that time, you can become a sincere person, hug me sincerely, and tell me sincerely, no matter what, even if you are between life and death, you will not leave me... I am not afraid of death, really... As long as we can be together... With such selfishness, I tell you that we can't be together while alive, but we must be together after death... So, the moment you received Zuo Xiaowei's call, I I was already prepared to die... But, you are so righteous and don't want me to die... You have righteousness in you, and I also have love in my heart... So, on the premise that you don't want to die together and face it together, I can't let you die or let you run out of ideas... Then please listen carefully, I'm telling you now... Lu Xi has had your child... It's been almost four months."

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