i'm not a bad man

Chapter 615: Fear fate and love life

Halfway through the meal, the hotel bar started again, so the main lights were dimmed, a circle was formed in the middle, some more music equipment was added, and the waiters began to distribute food to each table one by one. The purpose of displaying and distributing light signs is, of course, to enhance the atmosphere of the bar. In addition to the light signs, fluorescent sticks are also distributed at each table...

Lu Xi and I each held a light stick; I smiled and said to her: "I didn't expect that eating here would give me the opportunity to swap roles... you used to be the one on the stage and the one in everyone's eyes." The focus, but today, it seems that you have to join this atmosphere group and be someone else’s audience.”

"You will make a fuss. What's wrong with being a green leaf... I have gone to many of Jay Chou's concerts." After a pause, Lu Xi asked me again with some curiosity: "Go and see Have you been to his concert? If so, we may have met in the same place a long time ago."

This was considered a moment of chatting before the resident singer sang, but my mind was a little distracted by this possibly meaningless chat, so I thought about it for a long time before I said to Lu Xi: "I guess you haven't seen it, right?" .”

"If you have seen it, you have seen it. If you have not seen it, you have not seen it. What does it mean that you should have never seen it?"

I looked at Lu Xi. She didn’t think I was verbose, but she was more curious. So, I thought about it for a long time before I said to her: “One year, he held a concert in Zhengzhou. Originally, I didn’t plan to I took a detour back to Zhengzhou, but it was the last concert of the tour, which meant that if I didn’t go to see it, I might have to wait several years for his next concert. Unable to withstand Luan Yu’s instigation, I We took a detour from Xi'an and returned to Zhengzhou... But he was so popular that it was hard to get a ticket. Even if we arrived in Zhengzhou a day in advance, we couldn't buy normal-price performance tickets, only some high-priced scalper tickets left... We asked There are several scalpers, and the cheapest one costs 8000 yuan... Luan Yu and I mean it costs 6000 yuan... Luan Yu discussed with me and said that I admire his music so much that he must come to the venue to watch it. Look, she won’t go, and she can save 8000 yuan... For us at that time, 8000 yuan can really do a lot of things... But I think it’s quite boring. The two of us took a detour to Zhengzhou together. Watch it together, otherwise I won’t watch it at all... So, I refused... However, I felt a little regretful, after all, it was the closest to his concert in my life... So, that whole day, I It all seems a bit dull..."

Talking about the past, I lit up a cigarette as a habit, and after taking two puffs of it depressedly, I continued: "That afternoon, I stayed in the RV and fell asleep with my head covered. Luan Yu didn't see anyone for a long time, so I thought she was going Where were you wandering around... It was almost evening, she came back, and before it was time for dinner, she took me to have dinner. I thought she was rushing to the next city... As a result, after dinner, she took me I took him to a construction site... Only then did I find out that she had paid off the tower crane master, and she wanted to use the tower crane to watch his concert... That night, we crowded in the tower crane and watched from a distance... … She held the concert playlist in her hand, and when she was figuring out which song to sing, she used her mobile phone to play the live version of the song, trying to create the feeling of being there… For this reason, she also bought a Telescope...I finally saw him in person for the first time in the telescope she bought me..."

Having said this, I closed my eyes and felt mixed emotions in my heart. When I opened my eyes again and looked at Luxi, I didn't want to talk any more. Luxi seemed to sense my mood, and she whispered to me: " I won’t mind if you talk about women who have truly loved you... It is precisely because of them that you have become a better person."

I laughed dryly, but all I felt was shame, because at this moment, I had strayed too far, too far away from the word "good"...

"Brother Chao, please continue talking."

"There is nothing more to say, so I can only say that I should have seen it... After all, his real appearance can only be seen through the telescope."

Lu Xi fell into silence. She seemed to be thinking about something. After a long time, she spoke to me again: "Did it rain that day?"

"Well, it rained during the second half of the concert, and the wind was very strong... The crane master was afraid of taking risks, so he called us down halfway through."

"It seems like it's really hard to define whether you've seen it or not!"

"Were you there at that concert?"

Lu Xi looked at me, then nodded...

"It turns out that we met within a few hundred meters in diameter several years ago!"

I sighed like this, and then fell into silence. After a long time, I spoke again: "Luan Yu is right. Facing Jay Chou's talent, I always feel inferior... However, I didn't show all my talents. I don’t have enough energy to do music... So, if you can’t even do your best, how can you surpass it?”

"You miss Luan Yu, don't you?"

I was lost for a long time, and then I replied in a deep voice: "...I want to live well. If I think about it carefully, in the past half of my life, there are really many things I want to do that I haven't done yet...such as..." I didn't say anything. Going down, I subconsciously glanced at Lu Xi’s lower abdomen, which had no obvious bulge, but I only took a glance at it and didn’t dare to look at it more. Although Lao Wai hadn’t taken action yet, I already felt like an animal in the sewer. Dark and shady, a man without light is not qualified to take on the role of father.

I lowered my head again and flicked the ashes.

"Like what?"

This time, I didn’t respond to Lu Xi’s gaze. I just said in a regretful tone: “I should be like him and become a singer with creative ability...and I should leave many works that can be passed down to the world!”

"But you chose a small town and chose something you are not good at doing."

"So, people should... people should respect fate... but also love life." Follow my Weixin public account: *** to view the latest chapters!
"Revere fate, love life..."

"Well, it seems contradictory, but it is obtained in exchange for bloody experience..."

My emotions fell into such a trough again that I didn’t look up for a long time; although for a person like me, admitting that I was wrong is the hardest thing to do in this life, but at this moment, my regret comes from the bottom of my heart. Heartfelt and repentant!
If I can find Lao Wai, I can even force myself to let go of my hatred for Guan Yubo. I want to live a good life, accompany Lu Xi and our children, and then fulfill the talent that has always been recognized by others but forgotten by myself.

In a daze, I felt a warm feeling in my palm, and I raised my head. It was Lu Xi who held my hand holding the cigarette butt. She smiled and said to me seriously: "Brother Chao, I have decided. From today onwards, I no longer admire Jay Chou, I will only admire you from now on... So, don’t be discouraged..."

Lu Xi and I looked at each other, there was light in her eyes, but I was so sad that I wanted to cry. Compared with being sad, I seemed to be more moved. In short, I wanted to cry, but I still wanted to be strong. I didn’t want to be with this woman. In front of me, I shed tears, so I deliberately looked at the stage that had been prepared for a long time and still had no singer.

Something is probably going on.

Sure enough, a moment later, the owner of the restaurant appeared on the stage with a microphone and told everyone present that the specially invited singer collided with a delivery boy on the way here, and the two of them ended up in the hospital...

Since it has been transformed into a bar, the atmosphere must be there, so the boss asked the guests present for help, saying that if anyone could play the guitar and sing, he could save the scene and save the money for the meal and drinks tonight. …

Although there were many guests, no one had the confidence to come forward.

The boss started to add more money and shouted into the microphone: "I put my words here. If anyone can save today's game, I will give you an additional 5000 yuan in consumer coupons, so that you can eat as much as you want and have fun at our place." enough!"

Lu Xi glanced at me, put his hands together, put them to his mouth, and shouted: "Brother Chao...my brother Chao can...he can sing, play the guitar...and even sing his own original songs..."

When she shouted like this, she immediately attracted everyone's attention, but she ignored them and raised her fists again, shouting to cheer me...

She is so crazy, I have never seen her so "crazy" before!Others also followed her crazy, so the noise became louder and louder...

(End of this chapter)