i'm not a bad man

Chapter 616 Wait for me
Because it was converted into a bar and most of the lights were turned off, the lights here are dim, and Lu Xi was wearing a baseball cap, so no one discovered her true identity...

She didn't want to, because she attracted almost everyone's attention, and a spotlight came from the other side. When everyone was about to see her clearly, her reaction was not at all like that of someone who had been pregnant for three years. Before I could put the protection measures in place, she had already laid down on the table before anyone could see her clearly.

Everyone didn't know why she was like this, so the cheers gradually turned into discussions. Standing under the spotlight, I was frightened for a moment, and finally said to everyone: "She has a bit of social fear, can you put this chasing girl aside first?" Have the lights been removed?"

"She's still afraid of society..."

Someone sighed like this, which immediately caused a burst of laughter. Lu Xi, who was lying on the table, never spoke. But at this time, I hope she can say something, because I am more embarrassed than she is at the cusp of the storm... …

She should think about the consequences. After all, she has never been an ordinary person. Even though she has been out of the public eye for so long, as soon as she appears, others will still recognize her as the hottest female star at the time.

I should know why she did it more than she should know the consequences.

I was too depressed. I lost my career, my friends, my ideals, and my freedom. These losses were like a large area of ​​darkness, turning my world into darkness. Therefore, I needed that little light to find a way out of the siege. courage……

Of course she and her children were the biggest light in my heart, and I gained the courage to do so, but I could never find a chance to break through.

Yes, opportunity is more important than courage, it has always been so.

At this moment, I subconsciously looked up. The sky was densely covered with stars, and the city lights were so brilliant, but I could no longer find Lao Wai, and I didn't dare to look for him... So I became even more depressed, restless and wandering.

"Hey, buddy, can you sing?... If you can't, I'll find someone else. We can't let this place stay cold. There are hundreds of people!"

Only then did I come to my senses, and it was the bar owner who was talking to me.

I looked down at Lu Xi, who was still lying on the table, and finally nodded to the boss and said, "No problem, I can do it."

……

I just left the dining tent, stood on the stage that was destined to be the center of attention, and then took over the guitar that didn’t belong to me from the boss. Because I hadn’t rehearsed in advance, I didn’t know it for a moment. What songs to sing.

This hesitation made everyone think that my so-called ability to sing was just a prank by Lu Xi. I no longer cared about what these people thought. The moment I plucked the guitar strings, I closed my eyes and began to fantasize. Another life.

If back then, when faced with changes in my family, I had chosen not to escape, but to face the difficulties in a good way, then what kind of life would I be living now?

I just tried my best to imagine that maybe back then, when my creative ability was at its strongest, I should participate in a talent show, and then gain fame through this talent show and officially enter the music world.

So, what is it like to be a singer?

Zuo Xiaowei must understand, but my fantasy seems somewhat reluctant and unrealistic, but I know that I will definitely save a lot of pain and loneliness because of this choice.

But after all, there is no chance to start over in life, so this dream seemed so lengthy and weak that it aroused boos from the audience.

I opened my mouth amidst the boos and sang an original song of my own, and this song was one of the few for which I wrote the lyrics myself; I still remember that this song came from a rainy night, in that On a rainy night, my parents were angry at the stray dog ​​I picked up because I didn't strive for progress. I guarded the stray dog's body and stayed in the rain for a long time, thinking a lot about the meaning of life and death...

That's when the gears of fate started turning.

When I sang this song again, I couldn't help but think of the mood that day, it was so clear, so wanting to let people escape; now, I will also become a father, and once again think of the meaning of life and death, I still Did you feel that way at the beginning?

No, new flowers have bloomed in the cracks of my life. I want to live. Even if there is only a glimmer of hope, I cannot extinguish the flame of survival.I should go find Lao Wai, put down all the burdens and fears in my heart, and find him before he takes action.

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When I had made a decision in my heart and my thinking was no longer sluggish, I threw away the guitar in my hand, ran back to the dining tent, and then dragged Lu Xi out of the restaurant where I wanted to make all the money.

In the end, I chose not to like this restaurant, because a coffee shop is a coffee shop and a bar is a bar. Whether it is a coffee shop or a bar, it should not be a place for eating and barbecue, just like my messy life.

……

After passing through several alleys, we finally saw an avenue that made people feel suddenly enlightened. Lu Xi and I stood on the bus stop of this avenue, each gasping for breath...

"We haven't paid the bill yet!"

I looked at Lu Xi, and after being silent for a long time, I said, "Yes, I forgot to pay. Even if I don't like that restaurant, it can't be a reason not to pay."

"Then let's go settle the bill."

I shook my head, and after a while of silence, I forced a smile and said, "I'm not going. After we separate, you can go get married... I have more important things to do."

"whats the matter?"

"Since you hate being a star, let me do the things you don't like in your place."

"Are you really going to fulfill your musical talent?"

I nodded, but that was not what I was thinking about. This was just a reason for me to separate from her and find Lao Wai. I didn’t have time because I really didn’t know when Lao Wai would choose. Take action.

Suddenly, I thought of Zuo Xiaowei again. We had spent some time in BJ. She bought me a complete set of music equipment and asked me to create. At this moment, I was very clear. That should be the last time in my life that I could I chose the opportunity to be a singer, and now, as long as I can keep my freedom and life, it is enough...

Yes, with life and freedom, I can embrace the new life that is coming.

I held Lu Xi's hand tightly and said a thousand words, but in the end they only turned into two words: "Wait for me"...

As if sensing my mood, she held my hand tightly, and then whispered to me: "You must be good, Brother Chao... and you must believe that there is light at the end of darkness..."

I nodded heavily...

"Go ahead, I will wait for you, no matter how long it takes, I will wait for you." Follow my Weixin public account: *** to view the latest chapters!Reply to "works" to get all book txts.

This time, it was Lu Xi who took the initiative to let go of my hand, but her eyes remained on me. This nostalgic gaze also touched me, so that when I ran to the intersection where I could wait for a taxi, I kept looking back. Look at her...

Although this farewell carries beautiful expectations, it cannot avoid the possibility of death. Therefore, there is endless nostalgia in my heart, but what makes me feel contradictory is that I must race against time to leave, maybe in order to give myself Seek that glimmer of hope that will prevent you from falling into the abyss.

(End of this chapter)