A leisurely life that begins with the possession of a game character

At a certain stage, at a certain level, under the tide of the great era, most people are facing the same things and the same life.

So most people, at some point in time, have the same thoughts.

Sometimes, the more you read and the more you understand, the more reluctant you are to engage in or face some existing facts.

When no one reminds people, people's arrogance gradually increases with the increase of knowledge, reaches its peak step by step with the increase of knowledge, and finally slowly declines.

This is how life is. When you fail to get into a famous university, for those with average cultural level, other schools except the famous ones are all the same.

At the same time, they obtain information through the few channels they have: news on TV, messages on the streets, software that allows people to make money by watching short videos, and software that is filled with push notifications like "Surprise! Someone revealed the inside story, please forward it quickly."

Knowing that universities are expanding their enrollment and it is difficult to find a job, they believe that it is difficult to find a job after graduating from universities other than famous ones.

Even if they get into a 985 university, they will think that such a university is not as good as a second-tier university in their own provincial capital.

Later, he passed the college entrance examination and was admitted to an ordinary second-tier university, but the name was very nice, called XX University. The relatives and friends around him were not well-educated, but they just thought the name of the school was very nice, and they all agreed that this child had a bright future.

Looking back at my childhood friends and classmates, most of them either graduated from junior high school and wandered around in society, or graduated from vocational high school and went to junior college.

I felt like the only remaining soldier in a breakout force. I felt a little complacent, but also very sad at the same time. An unprecedented sense of loneliness enveloped my heart.

There are always a few college classmates who come from well-off families: they own several houses in big cities, their families run businesses, or there are classmates in middle school who come from well-off families and can live by collecting rent from their family properties.

At this time, sitting in the classroom, looking out the window, looking at this materialistic society, I feel that even if I study hard, it will be difficult to make up for such a big gap.

After graduating from university, I don’t know if my classmates were pretending or had good family resources, but I was the only one who couldn’t find a suitable job and had to work hard outside.

I don't want to go home during the Chinese New Year, because as soon as I get home, those uneducated and low-quality relatives will come to ask about my well-being and say hypocritical words. All kinds of ideas that are inconsistent with my own values ​​come from all directions like a tide, and I am powerless to avoid them.

Looking at those classmates who used to be average students, many of them have already started families and have several children. I feel ashamed and dare not face my former classmates.

The sense of separation is not about cutting something in half, but about cutting it into pieces, very pieces.

This sense of separation is like an invisible knife, dividing today's young people and making them live on isolated islands. At the same time, these young people on the isolated islands face a sense of separation every day.

This sense of separation comes from the excellent children of other families, from old classmates who did not study well but have now started a family and a career, from the employment situation on TV that is getting better and better and moving forward steadily... Sometimes, the sense of separation even comes indirectly from oneself. Looking at the average 985 students and a group of rich second-generations on the short video platform, thinking about your childhood ideals, facing the current situation, and thinking about your classmates who did not study as well as you, your relatives and friends who have now started a family and a career.

But not long after, you suffered many blows from society: tiring study, work, various difficulties... You were exhausted, and you felt that being able to get married, have a family, a child, a house, and a stable income was already a luxury. You found that you were in a very low mood at this time, the lowest you had ever been.

Sometimes when I look back on the first half of my life, it seems like there is nothing particularly worth being happy about.

It's nothing more than getting a higher score than your friends in a certain exam, but it's useless because you didn't get into a good university.

Or when I was a kid, I ate my favorite snacks and was praised by the teacher. Or when I was a kid, I got 100 points on the test and was thinking about whether I would go to Tsinghua or Peking University.

Or maybe the college entrance exam is coming up, and your scores are not enough to get into a good university, but you secretly gloat over your classmates' misfortune when you see them doing worse than you.

It's no wonder that we all have a deep affection for each other. In fact, we may have never truly felt happy from childhood to adulthood. Those so-called happiness are nothing more than the fantasy triggered by certain phenomena when a person is not facing the pressure of survival and his life is not restricted to a large range, and the pressure is relatively small.

When a person is free from the pressure of life, he can imagine himself to be rich enough to rival a country in the future. If he does not have to face the college entrance examination for the time being, he can imagine himself to be admitted to a prestigious school. At the same time, when his classmates do not do as well as he does, this fantasy is deepened. It gives people a great pleasure.

However, the college entrance examination is a watershed, and it is also a mountain that crushes this so-called happiness. After the college entrance examination, there is no longer the joy of being admitted to a prestigious university, and the future is likely to be limited to a certain range. At the same time, you have to face the pressure of survival. At this time, you will find that you seem to have never been happy, and the previous happiness is just an illusion.

Sometime late at night when everyone is asleep, or when you have some free time, you suddenly recall something that happened to you, and then associate this thing with other things, and finally connect the dots with lines, and use the lines to connect the areas.

At this point you will discover that most of the information you have received since childhood is false.

If a child is admitted to a university, relatives may congratulate and send their best wishes. However, it is very likely that they will grumble behind his back because their child did not do well in the exam, saying that it is just an ordinary university, there is nothing to be proud of.

Your classmates may call you a top student on the surface, but they may think you are just a nerd behind your back. You don’t know how to deal with people and you will never be popular in the future. Your classmates also know that your grades are not good enough to get you into a good university. You are just doing relatively well in a county high school with very poor grades. But you are still called a top student on the surface...

I found that from childhood to adulthood, almost everyone's words were hypocritical and they were all playing tricks on me, but I just realized it now. Or, in other words, I used to feel uncomfortable when I saw the hypocritical smiles of my relatives and the sarcastic tone of my classmates... but I didn't think about it too much. But now I finally realized that I have been deceived and been in a trap set by others.

At the same time, I discovered that in the past, people around me would use some "clever" ways to make me suffer in order to achieve certain goals.

Person A dislikes you and says to you, "No wonder Person B says you are so bad, you are so terrible." You cannot argue because the person who insulted you is Person B, not Person A. You find that even in a society ruled by law, people around you can still disgust you in countless ways, causing you to fall into endless mental exhaustion.

Some people call this maturity, or understanding the true meaning of life, but most of the time, no one wants this kind of maturity. (End of this chapter)