Back to modern times, Her Majesty the Queen and I are both laid off

Chapter 128 Cry If You Want To Cry

Not sure.

Although there were only three short words, Lin Luo was silenced again. If you insist that you can do it, then I will feel better. At least you have a tough mouth and a cruel heart.

But what you said is unclear
Seems better?

At least it means that she is confused, hesitant, and can't make up her mind at this time.

Jiang Li really couldn't make up her mind. She had never worried about going back before, or in other words, she had never worried about going back.
In other words, she had always thought that she would not have a deep relationship with this person. After all, they had been together in Daqi for more than ten years, and it was just a slightly closer friendship between monarch and minister.

Even though he felt sad at the moment of his death, the sadness was not just about personal emotions, but more about the feeling that the country was missing a pillar and she was missing a great minister.

There is even a faint sense of joy and a feeling of relief. After he is dead, there will be no one in this world who knows my secret.

She felt that getting along in modern times would be like this. How about eating and living together?How about those thoughts?So what if I hold hands with you?
I am as bright as the wind and the moon, and those who are pure are themselves pure. Everything is naturally guided by you. I have never thought about that, and I will never have the idea of ​​​​love between children.

Even if one day it's like I came to modern times inexplicably, and then go back inexplicably.

Maybe I will worry about this, but in a short time, I will be able to come out quickly. I will still be the emperor who has no joy or sorrow, and will not be trapped by the experiences of these days.

But now she found out that was not the case.

That night more than ten days ago, he talked a lot about the early days of love and affection, and pressed her step by step to admit it.

Jiang Li thought this was ridiculous and ridiculous. Why should I admit it if it didn't happen?Why should I admit it?

But after so many days, she turned around and looked back at that night, only to find that it was not the case.

He was so taciturn these days, and he didn't even say a few words to her. She would feel lost, irritable, and angry when they were together like that.

He said a lot of things last night. He said he couldn't get any positive emotional feedback. When he said he wanted to give up, she would feel angry, unconvinced, reluctant, and even blame herself.

"I can't figure out what's wrong. It's only been half a year. I should be happy and relaxed. I checked on my phone for a long time last night, but what Baidu said... I'm wondering if I really What kind of thoughts do you have? But it’s hard for me to understand that your thoughts towards me are full of obscenity, and even out of revenge, and you don’t even like me. Why should I have such thoughts? "

Jiang Li was obviously the type who talked a lot after drinking too much. He was usually aloof and elegant, but at this time he was talking to himself for a long time.

In the end, I became a little incoherent, even calling myself "I" sometimes, and "I" sometimes.

Those eyes were also full of confusion, looking at Lin Luo steadily.

In this regard, Lin Luo just said: "Actually, I don't know whether I like you or not."

"Haha, even you don't know why I'm still like this."

"But you should know better."

"." Jiang Li was stuck, and immediately wanted to ask him, you don't know it yourself, how can I know it?

But there is a voice in my heart that seems to say: You should know better.

If you can't even detect his attitude and feelings towards you when you're together all day and night, wouldn't that be deceiving yourself?

And she can feel whether this person likes him or not. Indeed, he does.

At least I can notice it in many moments, the care in life and the daily interactions.Even a look, a small gesture.

It's just that I have preconceptions and always feel that he has a purpose and has a certain calculation in doing this.

That's it.
After thinking about this, Jiang Li should have felt comfortable and enlightened. After all, it was certain that it was not that she had fallen in love with someone who wanted to take revenge on her, but that she had gotten along bit by bit, accumulated together, and finally led to All this.As you can imagine, the feeling of comfort is not that much, but it feels even more dull.

She was silent for a while and then said: "You are right, I am indeed clear about it, but after I became clear about it, I..."

Jiang Li didn't seem to know what to say. He interrupted several times and finally lowered his head. "This feeling reminds me of the time when my mother and concubine died. Not only the separation, but also the time when Huang Kao wanted to kill my mother and concubine. In fact, I I knew it beforehand. That night, the emperor called me to the collapse and said that the stakes I had on me were too important. He wanted to secretly execute everyone who knew my identity, including my mother and concubine. But he hesitated. Jue, hereby summon me to come and ask what I mean."

"I was shocked at the time, but I couldn't help but feel lucky. Since my father asked me to come, it means that he actually didn't want to kill him. Otherwise, why would he ask? He wanted me to persuade him, and I just wanted to Just give me some advice, just give me some advice."

"Can"

At this point, Jiang Li couldn't speak anymore. She lowered her head a little deeper and her voice became deeper, "That night, I knelt in front of my father and persuaded him for a long time, but my father never expressed his position until When Tianming asked me to go back, he just asked me to go back and have a good rest. At that time, I secretly speculated that my father had given up his murderous thoughts, but I didn't get a definite answer. I felt inexplicable fear in my heart, and I couldn't sleep or eat well for more than two months. , even if he wanted to ask his father again, he was stopped outside his father's palace by the palace guards and refused to enter.

Seeing that two months have passed, I secretly thought that maybe my father had really given up his murderous thoughts, but just when I was about to relax, the news came that my mother and concubine had passed away."

"."

"At that time, I always wondered if I didn't persuade him well, if I was clumsy with my tongue, if I could explain the pros and cons, if I swore at that time, if I broke into my father's palace in those days, would it be possible? Is it different? Does it mean that the mother-in-law will not die? "

"actually."

"Actually, no matter what happens, the mother-in-law will die, right?"

"Ah."

"Then since he has already decided to kill, why did he need to tell me in advance?"

Lin Luo could only remain silent when he heard this. He couldn't think clearly for the moment.

Jiang Li hugged his shoulders with his arms, bent his knees and huddled up on the sofa, burying his head in his knees. "Actually, I couldn't figure this out for a long time, but I figured it out later. Father wanted me to be in a tight ball." Keep in mind that you were unable to make the decision at that time, that one thing was out of your control, and that you could only toss and turn in sleep, feeling deeply uneasy and desperate all the time.

Only by remembering it, I will hold on to the power tightly in the future and never dare to slack off for a moment.As an emperor and a daughter, once you lose power, once you can't make the decision, once things are out of your control, only things more desperate than this will happen. "

"But he, but he is like this, I can't even hate him."

At this point, Jiang Li's voice was choked with sobs, and then he stopped abruptly. He did not continue speaking, but buried his head low, and pressed his hands firmly on his left and right shoulders. The fingers were sunk in, using great force, and both hands and arms were trembling slightly, as if they were trying desperately to suppress the urge to cry.

".Cry if you want to. It will make you feel better."

"I didn't want to cry."

"."

"Ugh, what are you doing, so presumptuous!"

Lin Luo didn't do anything. He just got up and walked over to sit next to her. He forcefully pulled her hands off her shoulders, then stretched out his arms to hug her so that her head could rest on his shoulders. He said in a calm tone: "I'm not doing anything, I just want you to cry. It's okay, just cry. There's nothing to be ashamed of. I'll lend you my shoulder to lean on."

Shame!

So shameful!I am the Son of Heaven, the Emperor, how can I cry just because I want to?

Jiang Li wanted to shout this out loud, but as soon as she raised her head, tears filled her eyes, and then fell down her cheeks. Then, as if she had given up on herself, she plunged into Lin Luo's chest and lay on top of him. burst into tears.

Lin Luo: "enmmmmmmmmmm"

It's really embarrassing for you to cry like this.

(End of this chapter)