I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 218 "To Su Chengyi"

Chu Qingmian also went to the rooftop.

When and for how long?

In other words, how much did she hear about the conversation with Chen Jinzhi at that time?
Su Chengyi stared at the few paint marks and thought.

No, nothing can be left to chance.

Chu Qingmian wouldn't come to the rooftop out of nowhere. There was a high chance that she followed him up.

That was the worst case scenario, she heard the whole thing and saw it.
So the reason why she was in such an absent-minded state tonight was explained.

Lying on Han Bing's shoulder, Chu Qingmian stopped mumbling words in reverse order, probably because she was really tired.

Su Chengyi pressed his temples and felt a headache.

This situation tonight is really unpredictable, and there seems to be no room for change.

Do you expect her to wake up with a hangover and lose her memory?
Not even bloody soap operas act like this.

"Let's go, Uncle Gao is waiting outside and take her back to the car first."

Su Chengyi stood up and motioned to Han Bing to help her.

"No, if you're completely drunk, you're as soft as slime."

Han Bing tried it, but couldn't help it at all.

"Then I'll carry it."

Chu Qingmian was very light. Except for the baby fat that still lingered on her face, there was no extra fat on her body.

It took no effort to pick it up.

The warm breath of wine hit behind her ears, and Su Chengyi turned her head slightly to avoid it, only to hear her murmuring to herself, as if she was dreaming:

"Wait a long time."

Tears kept dripping down her eyelashes and into her collar.

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Su Chengyi sighed softly.

As soon as the door of the bar was pushed open, the evening breeze came in, dispelling some of the drowsiness caused by alcohol.

Uncle Gao, who had been waiting for a long time in advance, had already opened the car door, and Su Chengyi gently put Chu Qingmian back into the back seat.

"If you're drunk, you'd better ask your aunt at home to prepare some sobering soup or something like that when you get home."

Su Chengyi leaned down and straightened her messy forehead hair.

The blush caused by alcohol is more obvious on the snow-white skin, and the curled eyelashes hang quietly, reflecting thick shadows.

It looks like an exquisite porcelain doll.

Uncle Gao didn't speak, but nodded to show that he understood.

Su Chengyi took two steps back and closed the car door, watching the Cayenne's taillights disappear around the corner.

"."

The two people standing at the door suddenly fell into silence.

It's not that it's embarrassing, it's just that they each have their own agenda.

Ginger was still hotter than Han Bing, so she asked straight to the point:

"What did you do again?"

Su Chengyi paused and responded with a look of confusion.

"Don't pretend. Who else could she be like this for?"

Han Bing frowned, looked him up and down, and suddenly asked with a look of enlightenment:

"You won't reject her confession, will you?"

".She didn't confess."

Su Chengyi answered honestly.

However, he was suddenly reminded of Han Bing's words, and he thought of something in hindsight.

I had indeed seen the pattern on the wrapping paper of the box that was thrown on top of the garbage heap.

The pink shirt box that Chu Qingmian gave to her when she came to school today had a layer of wrapping paper added for a sense of mystery.

The same.

Su Chengyi immediately reached out and stopped a taxi.

"No, even if you feel guilty, you won't immediately take a taxi and run away."

Han Bing looked at him in shock.

"Something suddenly occurred to me."

Su Chengyi simply explained and closed the car door.

"Master, No. [-]."

It's late at night, but luckily my student ID card still works today.

The school is full of traces of the carnival, and many cleaners are cleaning up the trash on the playground and the confetti dropped from the fireworks.

Su Chengyi ran all the way to the corner of the stairwell in Building A, but it was empty, and the debris had been swept away.

It looks very clean, like it can hold a moving red flag.

Are you late?

After calming down the violent heartbeat caused by running, Su Chengyi coughed twice and recalled the situation at that time.

The garbage piled up here are discarded tables, chairs, benches, cardboard boxes and the like.

They were probably collected to be sold at scrapyards.

Thinking of this, Su Chengyi returned to the door of Building A and asked the cleaner who was cleaning.

"Hello aunt, have you seen the debris piled up next to the trash can over there? I left something behind."

The maid who was busy mopping the floor raised her head, thought for a moment, and replied:
"The waste collectors haven't come yet, so they're all being pushed over there on trolleys."

"Which side?"

Su Chengyi breathed a sigh of relief, with a hint of surprise in his tone.

Fortunately it hasn't been taken away yet.

"there."

The aunt raised her finger and pointed at the small playground next to the cafeteria.

"Okay, thank you."

Su Chengyi turned around and ran to the other side.

However, when he arrived at the small playground, he realized that his idea was too naive.

The pile of debris here is like a large garbage dump, a Mount Everest of debris.

And if you go to search for it, you may accidentally cause a landslide and be knocked unconscious or buried inside.

Su Chengyi folded his arms and meditated for a long time.

We still have to look for it, and we have already reached this point. We are lucky that it has not been taken away by the scrapyard.

You have to climb over mountains and ridges.

As a result, as soon as he moved to pull out a chair, the foot of the mountain fell crookedly and collapsed due to instability.

"Hey! What are you doing over there!"

Su Chengyi had just escaped the landslide and was about to continue searching inside when he was stopped by a high-pitched male voice.

A fat man ran over from the other side of the mountain, panting, and waved to stop him.

"What are you doing? Wreaking havoc?"

Hanging around his neck was a small notebook and a ballpoint pen.

Su Chengyi guessed that this was probably someone from the scrap yard, so he explained his purpose.

"It's harmful! Then tell the staff about the situation. It'll be fine if you dismantle it yourself.

This other thing is trivial. If I bury you in it or break something out, I will pay for all the coffins! "

The fat man patted his thigh, looking like he hated iron.

"Feel sorry."

Su Chengyi apologized first, but the main reason was that the location he stayed in was too hidden. At first, he looked around and thought no one was here.

"Come and take a look here. There are all big items over there. The small items have been sorted out and put inside at first."

The fat man pulled him to the truck compartment. As expected, there was a dazzling array of colorful gadgets.

Different from the tables, chairs and benches there, here are various stuffed bears, small lamps, U-shaped pillows, blankets, and cushions.
They are all used by high school students to improve their learning environment, but they are too lazy to take them away later.

Although they are all small items, they are no easier to find than larger items.

Su Chengyi patiently rummaged around and found nothing.

In the end, it was almost a carpet search, and after even lifting the teddy bear's blanket, I finally found the familiar box.

Now it seems that the rough and frizzy corners around this packaging box are traceable.

Just because it came from Miss Chu.

I held it in my hand and weighed it. It was not heavy. There seemed to be several books inside.

Wouldn't it be something like "Three Thousand Questions of Physics", "Encyclopedia of High School Physics Knowledge", or "A Book Lets You Learn Physics"?

Su Chengyi thanked the fat man with suspicion.

After returning home, Su Chengyi took a knife and carefully cut the wrapping paper.

There is also an exquisite plaid gift box inside. After opening it, the first thing that comes into view is a pink envelope.

There are several notebooks of different styles below. Judging from the covers, they are all very old. It is obvious that the owner has been using them.

Su Chengyi paused with his fingers, hesitated for a long time, and chose to open the envelope first.

The letter paper has a faint fragrance, and you can almost think of a girl writing a letter stroke by stroke under the desk lamp.

——————————————————To Su Chengyi:

Hello, I am Chu Qingmian, your lovely, beautiful and only childhood sweetheart!
It’s strange to write a letter to someone you meet every day. You must be thinking this when you are reading the letter, right?
But it's not surprising, because even if I see you face to face, I will always miss you.

Wanting to be close to you is the most unorthodox thing I have ever done in my life.

Ever since I was a child, I have lived step by step following my family's arrangements. I have to learn foreign languages, play the piano, and get No. 1 in everything.

After finishing high school, I will go abroad, major in finance, and come back to take over the job.
At that time, I thought that life should be like this, that everyone is the same, without exception.

So, it is really an incredible thing to meet you.

At that time, you won No. 1 but still lacked interest. You were even more interested in the caterpillars lining up in the corner.

I suddenly realized that the words "Chu Qingmian" didn't have to be in the first place. I was very angry at the time. If I wasn't so free and easy, how could I be snatched away by such a fool!

But then I inexplicably squatted next to you and watched you for a long time.

To me at that time, you were like an alien creature, different from everyone around me.

I suddenly want to visit your planet.

"A Brief History of Time" says that even if the two nebulae themselves do not move, they will become farther and farther apart due to the expansion of the universe.

Fortunately, I have been working hard to reach your position. Many years have passed. Can my spaceship land?
While writing this letter, I also wrote a draft of my graduation speech.

There I mentioned how I would describe my three years of high school life, and I gave three answers that were like memory fragments.

The sycamore leaves along the way from the cafeteria to the classroom, the candlelight during the evening self-study during the power outage, and the eyes looking at each other during the self-study class.

But it's not just that.

If it is summer schedule, you will return to the classroom from the cafeteria around [-]:[-] noon.

Once or twice a week I'll have a pretend encounter and walk this stretch with you.

Fragments of sunlight shine through the gaps between the leaves. You occasionally look up, and I follow suit.

The world is very quiet, only the wind blows through the trees.

There was a power outage during evening self-study, so I was responsible for distributing candles in rows.

I originally hated power outages because I was afraid of the dark.

But when illuminated by candlelight, you will look extra warm.

I don’t know when I started to look at your position when I encountered a problem.

Sometimes you are writing, sometimes you are sleeping on your stomach, and most of the time you are in a daze with your chin propped up.

No matter what you are doing, I will feel at ease after seeing you.

Others glance back and forth, but I only peek at you.

I thought about it carefully, and it’s not that I deliberately chose these three fragments, but that all my good memories about school are related to you.

Year after year, we smell the blooming gardenias in spring; the wind in summer is sultry and hot, but we can eat ice cream and watermelon.

The leaves are falling in autumn and there is a sense of atmosphere everywhere, but we don’t have time to appreciate it because there are always endless campus meetings in the new semester;
In winter, everyone bundles up into a ball and trudges forward in the cold wind, silently looking forward to when the first snow will arrive.

Can you tell when the seasons start to change?
I don’t know, so I don’t know when I started to like you.

All I know is that since I understood what the word "like" is, I have never associated it with other people.

It is precisely because of your existence that I am always convinced that one person will always like another person.

I have been looking forward to the college entrance examination and graduation, because the world is a big place and there are many scenery I want to see with you.

What you want to see is the disappearing East African Rift Valley, what I want to see is the Great Migration of Animals, the Crescent Moon Spring and Yumen Pass in Dunhuang, the lighthouses in Bermuda, and the pyramids in Egypt.
Starry sky and desert, glaciers and volcanoes, Gobi and ocean, forests and grasslands.All of this only makes sense when you are by my side.

Would you believe it?In every parallel universe and every version of reality, I will meet you and like you wholeheartedly like now.

Su Chengyi, happy graduation.

After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to hand over all my thoughts over the years to you.

You are all descriptions of love, the only male protagonist in the movies of my youth, and my most off-track delusion in the world.

I really, really like you.

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Su Chengyi closed the letter, and his vision suddenly became blurry.

I put my fingers on the notebook cover and rubbed it for a few times, but I felt like I didn't have the courage to open it.

I really failed to live up to such sincerity.

Damn it.

He took a deep breath, calmed down again, and then opened the top notebook in front of him.

It looks like it was written when I was in junior high school, and the handwriting is still relatively immature.

Occasionally, I would do some fancy work, writing with colorful pens, or drawing little figures in the blank spaces on the edge of the book.

"First day of school.

I saw Su Chengyi in the crowd at a glance.I swear, I didn't look for him on purpose.

Maybe I have super powers! "

“There are so many people in one class, the seats are so crowded.

And there are no equestrian lessons! "

“The opening exam.

I got No.2 and I was so pissed off.This time I made a mistake in math and made a mistake on a big question. Next I must work hard and work hard. I am not afraid of power. God moves and a gentleman is strong to constantly strive for self-improvement."

"Monthly exam, No. 2. It is darkest before dawn. You would be a fool to give up! Come on, come on, come on!"

"second."

"Second again."

"Final exam, second."

"I'm dropping out of school."

"It turns out you can still see peach blossoms like this, like a sea of ​​pink."

"Su Chengyi is the only one in the class who hasn't spoken to me now. He is actually mute, right?"

The two of them didn't have many interactions in junior high school. Most of them were about Chu Qingmian's obsession with No. 1 and her minor complaints from time to time.

But the content is basically all about him.

It's not like a diary, but more like Su Chengyi's observation notes.

In high school, classmate Chu Qingmian seemed to have grown up suddenly. Her handwriting became clear and regular, and she no longer scrawled in the corners.

But the content is still the same nonsense.

There is no date or weather, just write down whatever comes to mind.

“On the first day of school, my superpowers were still working normally.

Su Chengyi blocked the student representative's speech again, and I'm going to take the blame for him again. Damn it! "

“Today’s class cadre election is held.

I ran for class president, which was great. No one wanted to compete with me.

Now I don’t believe that Su Chengyi hasn’t talked to me yet! "

"I said a few words today about ordering school uniform sizes. God, is he under a curse that will kill him if he says more than three words?"

"My family must owe Su Chengyi's family a huge sum of money."

"Monthly exam, No. 2. I seem to be used to it now. The damn Su Chengyi cannot be defeated. He is just a bug!"

"I followed Su Chengyi's method today. I didn't write the Mathematical Olympiad question assigned by King Li, and I was not discovered. Hehe."

“I didn’t write anything today. I even included it with Teacher Ting’s weekly diary. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

"I was discovered today. I'm crying. It's all Su Chengyi's fault."

"Chu Qingmian, Chu Qingmian! How could you be so depraved! Have you forgotten the study plan you made earlier? You can't go on like this!"

"I ran into Su Chengyi at the subway station today. Oh my God, why did he look like he was out of body?
But the first time I gave away strawberry milk, it was great!become!achievement! "

"If Su Chengyi doesn't read Xu, he's not as good as Touju."

“My manuscript paper was actually replaced.

Fortunately, Su Chengyi came to the rescue, but how could he help me?

He doesn't like to speak in public so much, and it's all because of me. I will definitely not make any mistakes again in the future.

I really like what he said, I will write it down. "

"I'm having a hard time today. I just can't handle it."

“You shouldn’t lose your temper when you’re sad.

To apologize, I learned to make a cake for the first time. Even if it doesn’t taste good, you can always eat the strawberries inside! "

"Second shift monitor, second shift monitor, second shift monitor?!"

"I guess Su Chengyi definitely doesn't remember what happened when he was a child, but I played "Lu Xiaoyu" with him.

It's incredible that I can meet you. "

"There is no way to get rid of this feeling, so I lowered my brows, but raised my heart."

“The tiger-headed hat thief who stole the rice cake and wronged me turned out to be Su Chengyi.

Oh my God, whose screenwriter writes the plot like this will send me a razor blade, okay? ! "

"The college entrance examination is coming soon, this is my last diary entry!
(Okay, it seems like it’s not a diary at all from beginning to end)

Here I wish Su Chengyi that the exam goes smoothly, everything goes well and everything goes smoothly!

I just reluctantly took the second place again.

Finally, there is one wish.

Let us wish Chu Qingmian a successful confession~"

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