I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 470 Fly Me to the Moon

Chapter 470 Fly Me to the Moon
"Eh?"

After hearing Su Chengyi's answer, Chu Qingmian was obviously stunned.

The reason why she asked this question was actually to use the most tactful way to let Su Chengyi tell her if she had done anything wrong.

Although in the eyes of others, she is probably a perfect girlfriend.

Especially when facing Han Bing's friends and relatives, Chu Qingmian didn't dare to ask such questions at all, otherwise the other party would definitely be furious and scold her for being love-brained.

But no matter what others think, Chu Qingmian himself is very unsure.

Because she has no experience in dating.

Ever since she knew what "like" meant, there was only Su Chengyi in her eyes.

Love is different from any other difficult problem in the world. No matter how difficult the question in the textbook is, there is a standard answer. No matter how difficult the music score is, you can form muscle memory by practicing it several times and avoid making mistakes.

But no one can teach you how to fall in love, and Chu Qingmian can only do many things based on her intuition.

Parents often serve as the first lesson in life for children to understand intimate relationships, so children whose original families are unhappy will tend to be more pessimistic about love and marriage in the future.

Knowing this very well, Chu Qingmian understands all the problems in Su Chengyi's personality.

But in fact, Su Chengyi had seen the stage when Yang Liu and Su Zelang were truly in love.

The two of them were a couple who fell in love with each other, and although the ending was a mess, at least at the beginning of the story, everything was really beautiful and romantic.

It’s different on Chu Qingmian’s side.

There is absolutely no love between Chu Yuanjiang and Wei Peilan. They are more like comrades-in-arms than lovers.

The two just met in the business field, and smiled politely on the surface, but were shocked in their hearts:
Holy shit, there are people in this world who are more cunning than me?!
So the two of them looked at each other and exchanged contact information tacitly.

It was inevitable that they would come together because they were very compatible in terms of personality and ability, and they both knew that the other could help them go further and more easily on the road of business.

But they didn't love each other, or rather, they didn't even have real trust in each other.

It is actually difficult for Chu Qingmian, who was born and raised in such a family, to have the ability to love, but she was born with it.

When Chu Qingmian was a child, she actually felt very strange and troubled. Why was the world different from the storybooks? Her parents rarely accompanied her, and they rarely even appeared together.

Wei Peilan checks her schoolwork every time she comes home, not just her schoolwork, she pays more attention to the extracurricular tutoring she has arranged.

If Wei Peilan found something he was not satisfied with, he would not lose his temper with Chu Qingmian. He would only call the tutor to question her in front of her.

But this method is far more unsettling than simply scolding her.

At first, the cub Chu Qingmian thought about using tricks like making mistakes on purpose to attract her mother's attention, so that her mother might spend more time talking to her.

But after realizing that this would only implicate innocent teachers, I quickly gave up the idea.

Chu Yuanjiang was willing to play various childish games with her and never urged her to go to tutoring.

But he was very busy at work, and when he played video games with her, a game of tank battle would be interrupted by sudden emergency calls before it was even over.

The cub Chu Qingmian didn't make any noise. She just held the handle and waited quietly. The countdown on the TV screen ticked and she counted in her mind.

Whenever Chu Yuanjiang scratched his head and turned around with an apologetic look on his face, she knew that the short parent-child activity time was about to end.

Before Chu Yuanjiang hurriedly left, he made various promises out of guilt, such as going to the amusement park together on the weekend, and Dad would definitely go to the campus art performance at the end of this month.
The ending is of course obvious.

Such a promise has never been fulfilled.

Chu Qingmian is very sensible, so she won’t cry over such a small thing.

But she was also really confused. Is this love?
We meet once every ten days or half a month, and the phone calls never last more than a minute. Is this what it means to love someone?
Chu Qingmian grew up day by day in the huge manor with such doubts.

She did not show the rebellious tendencies that are common during adolescence. Instead, she became more and more outstanding and met everyone's expectations.

When she attended the family dinner that she dreaded most as a child, she had already become the perfect heir that her relatives were proud of.

But her confusion was never answered.

Until I met Su Chengyi, until I had the courage to express my love for him, until I became his lover.

Chu Qingmian felt that she seemed to have finally found a little bit of the answer.

I can see him in the crowd at a glance, and when I see something interesting, I want to share it with him the first time. I feel safe and happy when he is around. When he is not around, I will always think, "It would be nice if he were here."

The answer to love is Su Chengyi.

So Chu Qingmian tried very hard to express herself. She didn't want Su Chengyi to experience the confusion and entanglement she had experienced.

Because I seldom heard words expressing emotions since I was a child, I always say "I like you, I like you".

Because of the lack of companionship, I want to stick to him whenever I have the chance.

Because I feel insecure, I always babble to him about the boring daily life and the occasional weird ideas that pop up in my mind.

Chu Qingmian was very glad that she could find the answer, but sometimes she would feel panic.

Because she didn't know what answer Su Chengyi wanted.

What if her ideas about all this were too subjective? What if she wasn't good enough?

What if her self-righteous expressions of affection weren't actually endearing enough?
Such worries had always been looming in Chu Qingmian's heart, so she took this opportunity to speak her mind and asked this question carefully.

In fact, she had thought of many possible answers, some of which might be a little sad, such as "Oh, I think you talk too much. It would be better if you could be quieter next year."

But Chu Qingmian ordered herself not to be sad. No matter what Su Chengyi said, she would try to change herself.

But she didn't expect him to say:
"I hope that next year Chu Qingmian will like me as much as he does now."

After realizing what was happening, Chu Qingmian's mood changed from nervousness to confusion.

Why would she ask that? Is it because she doesn’t express herself enough in her daily life?

But Su Chengyi's expression looked very serious, not like he was joking.

So Chu Qingmian pursed his lips and answered seriously:
"No."

Su Chengyi raised his eyebrows, as if asking a silent question.

"why?"

Chu Qingmian managed to pretend to be serious, but couldn't help laughing again, and said with a smile:
"Idiot! Of course it's because next year Chu Qingmian will like you even more!"

"is it?"

"Yes! I promise."

Chu Qingmian's eyes were still bright in such a misty atmosphere, like shining obsidian.

The reason why Su Chengyi answered in this way was actually to pave the way for the Shura field that would erupt sooner or later.

But at this moment, he looked at Chu Qingmian's clear and bright eyes. On the one hand, he felt that his behavior was worthy of contempt, but on the other hand, he couldn't help but be moved by her sincerity.

"Please, please! This is a truth-telling segment, not a love-show segment, okay!"

Xu Yang banged on the table and protested loudly.

“That’s what I’m saying, Mianmian, try using your starry eyes again!! The operation to strangle the love-brains of the whole world is really imminent!”

Han Bing said with a look of disappointment.

Only Lin Tong understood the meaning of Su Chengyi's words and sighed softly.

It's hard to judge, I wish him success.

The game session for listening to gossip ended and the serious drinking session began.

The five of them have been in college for a year, and a new batch of college entrance examination candidates are about to enter the university campus.

When I talk about my high school life now, it is still vivid in my mind.

"By the way, why don't we see anyone organizing a class reunion?"

After three rounds of drinks, Xu Yang's face turned red and his speech became a little lisp.

"It's so difficult to get together now. Some are going abroad, some are staying in school, and some are traveling."

Han Bing also drank a lot, but she hid it very well. She actually had a good alcohol tolerance and looked quite sober.

"Also, what do you mean by we? Are you in our class?"

"How come I'm not? Even King Li said I'm a non-member of the Rocket Class."

Xu Yang said with a grin.

When he mentioned this, Su Chengyi thought of another non-staff member of the Rocket Class.

Zhou Kairong, the one who had a crush on Han Bing before.

When Su Chengyi asked, Xu Yang started laughing foolishly, which was quite scary.

Han Bing turned away a little uncomfortably.

The reactions of these two people were extremely strange. Just as Su Chengyi was about to ask a few more questions, Chu Qingmian took the initiative to interrupt and explain:

"Oh, this is what happened."

Zhou Kairong never gave up pursuing Han Bing after going to college, and his offensive could even be said to have intensified.

One day, Han Bing couldn't stand it anymore and said to Zhou Kairong directly on the phone:

"I'm not kidding you, I have someone I like."

Zhou Kairong thought she was just making excuses as usual and didn't believe it. He didn't realize the seriousness of the problem and was still laughing.

"Hahaha, I don't believe it unless you tell me who he is!"

Unexpectedly, Han Bing answered in a clear and clear voice:

"The person I like is Xu Yang. Whenever he confesses his feelings to me, I will agree."

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Zhou Kairong loosened his fingers and the phone slid to the floor with a "click".

He looked in disbelief at the person next to him who was eavesdropping, and the expression on the other person's face was even more shocked than his, his jaw almost dropped.

"That's it, isn't it a coincidence?"

Chu Qingmian said with a smile.

"what."

Han Bing sneered.

Xu Yang happily poured himself another large glass of wine and came over to clink glasses with Su Chengyi.

"Dry!"

Su Chengyi didn't expect that the two of them would break up through such an opportunity. He shook his head and sighed, then clinked his glass with him.

"You are lucky, kid."

If it wasn't such a coincidence, they would have had to fight for at least a while.

"Ha ha ha ha!!"

Xu Yang smiled like a villain who had succeeded. He also pulled Mu Tou over to clink glasses with him. "Cheers to lucky love!"

By the early hours, the general atmosphere of the bar had become more drunken and less crowded.

In order to better appreciate the band's performance in the second half of the night, the five people successfully moved from the private room on the second floor to the lobby on the first floor.

Except for Lin Tong, who was a big drinker, the other four were already a little bit off-key.

Lin Tong was thinking about how to get a taxi to take these drunks home when he met the eyes of Uncle Gao who was leaning in the corner of the bar.

Lin Tong was stunned, and the other party nodded at him, probably telling him not to worry.

Lin Tong finally breathed a sigh of relief. Fortunately, he didn't have to be a bartender this time.

As expected, the young lady still needs a security team when she comes to such occasions.

"Cheers! Cheers to summer vacation! Cheers to all of us!"

Xu Yang was holding the empty cup, laughing and shouting, obviously having forgotten Xu Junda's embarrassing behavior.

In sharp contrast to him is Han Bing, who is holding a bottle of wine with a serious look on her face, probably thinking about life.

Lin Tong observed for a while, then carefully moved the cup that she had pushed to the corner of the table and was about to fall a little further inward.

This successfully attracted Han Bing's attention, and she suddenly said:
"wood."

"what?"

Lin Tong retracted his hand and responded cautiously.

"My life is like walking on thin ice. Do you think I can make it to the other side?"

Han Bing asked with a sad face.

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Lin Tong fell silent.

This girl was probably in an emo mood after drinking, and she turned into Sister Bo Bing.

Lin Tong looked at the two people across the table. They seemed normal on the surface, but they were probably quite drunk.

And the facts were just as he had guessed.

"Su Chengyi, have you ever played Tank Wars?"

Chu Qingmian asked without thinking.

"The one that wants to protect Eagle Base?"

Although Su Chengyi was a little drunk, he still remembered the very old pixel game scene.

That was a product of the Subor era.

"Ah."

"Played with it."

Su Chengyi nodded.

"What about the Ninja Turtles?"

“I have played it before.”

"Which color turtle do you like?"

"I don't remember, I just remember that its weapon was a nunchaku."

Su Chengyi responded to her questions and recalled carefully.

But in fact, this kind of game is best played with local online connection, and he always plays it alone.

Of course, sometimes in order to reduce the difficulty, two characters will be created, and then one person will control two handles.

"You've actually played this kind of game console?"

Su Chengyi was a little surprised. This guy was a game black hole who was tortured by connect-the-dots games like "Meow", but he thought she was the type who had hardly touched any games since she was a child.

"Ah."

Chu Qingmian buried her face in his arms and responded muffledly.

"You must be playing dumb."

Su Chengyi started his high emotional intelligence speech again.

"You're stupid!"

Chu Qingmian retorted softly and raised her eyes to look at him again.

"I want you to play with me."

Su Chengyi looked at her eyes which were a little blurry due to the alcohol and nodded in agreement.

"it is good."

Although it is a game that has been eliminated by the times, there are still many ways to play it if you want to.

Chu Qingmian was very easy to coax and immediately became happy. Her dimples always looked particularly beautiful at times like this.

"So what reward do you want?"

"Um"

Su Chengyi thought about it and said casually:
"Sing a song?"

"What are you singing?"

"whatever."

Su Chengyi just felt that the bar at this time and at this ambiguous distance was very suitable for singing some love songs.

Chu Qingmian stood up suddenly, which scared him.

Before I could react, she had already trotted onto the stage of the bar.

The band was obviously accustomed to such scenes. Not only did they not stop it, they immediately handed the microphone to her.

"What does this lady want to sing? Do you need accompaniment?"

"Can I borrow the piano?"

As soon as Chu Qingmian sat down on the piano stool, the bar's lighting engineer consciously dimmed the lights in other locations and turned the spotlight on the stage.

It seems there is a reason why this bar charges such a high price. All departments are very considerate and know how to do business.

The two drunkards, Xu Yang and Han Bing, had already started to open champagne and cheer, and the others also started to applaud as they did so.

Lin Tong clapped his hands and glanced at the corner.

I don't know when Uncle Gao had walked over and was standing on the other side of the stage with his arms folded.

It can be said that this is a very professional position. If there is any emergency, he can rush to the stage in an instant.

Chu Qingmian seemed not to notice the noise in the audience. She lowered her eyes and played a few notes.

Su Chengyi immediately knew what song she was playing.

Fly Me to the Moon

The first time he heard it was as the ending theme song of the anime "Neon Genesis Evangelion" on TV.

“Fly me to the moon
Take me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
and let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars
Let me see how spring is in full bloom, on Jupiter and Mars"

Chu Qingmian's singing voice was softer than her speaking voice, like the gurgling of a sweet mountain spring.

At this moment, because of the drunkenness, the tail tone has a hint of wine flavor.

“In other words, hold my hand
In other words, please hold my hand

In other words, darling kiss me
In other words, honey, please kiss me."

By the time she sang this, the bar had fallen silent.

Chu Qingmian sat there quietly, the scene around her seemed like a group of twinkling stars, and the light of the moon fell sparingly on her alone.

“You are all I long for all I worship and adore
You are all that I desire, all that I admire and love

In other words, please be true
In other words, please be sincere to me
In other words, I love you~
In other words, I love you.”

The song was about to end, Chu Qingmian's fingers danced, and the piano beat playfully jumped a few times along with her movements.

At this time, her eyes accurately found Su Chengyi in the audience.

In the interweaving of light and darkness, the two looked at each other from a distance. She repeated with a smile:
"I~Love~You~"

Although she completed a very beautiful impromptu performance, Miss Chu was obviously dizzy when she stood up to take her bow.

Su Chengyi walked to the edge of the stage in advance. After blinking to confirm who the other person was, she obediently reached out and was hugged by him.

"Ms. Asuka?"

Su Chengyi rubbed the top of her head and said jokingly.

Asuka is the character Asuka from Neon Genesis Evangelion.

"Are you stupid?"

Chu Qingmian cooperated and said Asuka's catchphrase, then buried her face in his arms.

Before returning to his seat, Su Chengyi suddenly heard her calling his name very quietly.

"Su Chengyi."

"Ok?"

Su Chengyi paused and lowered his head slightly.

"I will wait for you."

Her voice was so soft that it seemed as if she was talking to herself.

Su Chengyi was stunned for a moment and asked in a low voice: